Summary: “I’m sorry,� Brian repeated, his tone serious and deliberate. “For a lot of things over the last two days. I… I didn’t know what to do with what happened before I left Pittsburgh, and I wasn’t ready to talk.� He paused, sighing. “And I don’t know how to lie to you. I haven’t for a long time, and you know that. So sometimes, it’s easier to piss you off, so you’ll leave me alone until I find enough of my remaining ball to face you -- as irrational as I know that sounds.�

“Or,� Justin said, a small smile playing on his lips, “you could say, ‘Hey Justin, I’ve got something on my mind that I’m not ready to talk about, and I need a little space.’� He gave his husband a meaningful look before continuing. “Brian, I know what you’re doing when you do it now… But what I don’t understand is why, almost two decades into our relationship, you still think the solution to anything is to push me away -- if for no reason other than it won’t fucking work.�

***

Brian gets some unexpected and difficult news and turns to his usual coping strategies. Justin knows better.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Joan Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: 10k+ Word Count, Cancer, Established Relationship, Family, M/M, One-Shot, Post-series, Real Life Issues, Tearjerker, Vulnerable Brian
Genres: Angst, Canon, Could be Canon, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

When is enough, enough for Justin and Brian? 

It seems like it’s one thing after another for Brian and Justin.

After the attack they receive news that will change their lives, but will it be for the better? Are they strong enough, not only individually, but together to battle the latest fight? 

Follow their story to see. 

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Chris Hobbs, Craig Taylor, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Jennifer Taylor, Justin Taylor, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Michael Novotny, Original Male Character, Ted Schmidt, Vic Grassi
Tags: Cancer, Family, M/M, Minor Violence, Real Life Issues, Season 1, Tearjerker, Violence, What if...
Genres: Alternate Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Suspense/Thriller
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: No

Summary:

What if, after overhearing the doctor leaving a message on Brian's machine, Justin had confronted Brian, instead of going to Michael? How would things have been different?

Canon divergence begins midway through episode 408. Plot bunny by Deb. Thanks to Sandi for being my beta.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: Cancer, Canon Divergence, Established Relationship, Real Life Issues, Responsible Justin, Season 4, Vulnerable Brian, What if...
Genres: Angst, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Canon Divergence, Could be Canon, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

Sequel to "Simple and Straightforward"

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Counting down the days until Brian’s final radiation treatment was like counting down to normalcy -- at least, as normal as their life together ever had been or could be. At the very least, it would be an end to the runaway roller coaster ride of the last six weeks. Life had been speeding through a shitload of twists and turns, dragging a breathless Justin and Brian along for the white-knuckled ride as they both struggled to make sense of the scenery flying by.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: Cancer, Established Relationship, One-Shot, Season 4, Vulnerable Brian
Genres: Angst, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Canon, Could be Canon, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

He could tell Michael that he loved him. Always had, always will. Brian wasn’t sure why saying “I love you” to Michael was so easy -- why it was different. Why the words flowed off his tongue with Michael but felt stuck in his throat with Justin.

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This is a song fic inspired by Lifehouse's song "Yesterday's Son." It's gap filler, and a peek inside Brian Kinney's head through several key story arcs in the course of the show's five seasons.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor, Michael Novotny
Tags: Babylon Bombing, Bashing, Cancer, Vulnerable Brian
Genres: Angst, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Canon, Could be Canon, Gap-Filler, Song Fic
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

Brian has to repair the cracks in his marriage and with his children, when Michael needs him after Ben dies.

 

Lorie once again thank you for the work you do as my beta. 

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Blake Wyzecki, Brian Kinney, Cynthia, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Drew Boyd, Emmett Honeycutt, Gus Marcus-Peterson, James 'Hunter' Montgomery, Jennifer Taylor, Jenny Rebecca Marcus-Peterson, Justin Taylor, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Michael Novotny, Original Character, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Ted Schmidt
Tags: Anti-Debbie, Anti-Michael, Cancer, Established Relationship, Family, Minor Character Death, Out of Character
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Romance
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

Ten years post-513. Justin returns to Pittsburgh after a decade of absence due to a death in the family, only to receive some disturbing news.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Claire Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Gus Marcus-Peterson, Jennifer Taylor, Justin Taylor, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Michael Novotny, Original Male Character
Tags: 10k+ Word Count, Anal Sex (Lots of it!), Bottom Brian, Brian/Other, Cancer, Death, Drug Use - Recreational, Family, HIV/Aids, Minor Character Death, Post-series, Real Life Issues, Substance Abuse, Tearjerker, Toppy Justin, Vulnerable Brian, What if...
Genres: Alternate Universe, Could be Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

I still can't believe this is my life. Two days ago I was the stud of Liberty Avenue and a successful adman, today... today I am a father. I still recall the words he whispered in my ear that night, as we all sat in Lindsay's hospital room: "You deserve to be loved Brian. Don't let anyone make you think you can't, don't let them win. Show them they are wrong"

I've dedicated all my life to show Saint Joan, Jack and every homophobe out there that underestimating me was a mistake. I became a successful businessman, being the head of the advertising department in Ryder's Advertising. I had the money, the looks, the gang and everyone wanted me... but I was still hallow.

I've proved them all wrong in everything, but one thing. I ended up believing their words, that I was unwanted, that no one will ever love me, that I was not desired, that I should have been aborted.

However, all that changed two days ago. When, I met a fallen angel under a streetlight, no matter how lesbian I sounded, to me that was true. Looking so innocent and pure, he was just asking for me to pick him up. I don't normally go for blonds, but I wanted to be in that world- that world of light- at least for a night.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brandon, Brian Kinney, Carl Horvath, Chris Hobbs, Craig Taylor, Cynthia, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Gus Marcus-Peterson, Jennifer Taylor, Justin Taylor, Kiki, Leo Brown, Lindsay Peterson, Marty Ryder, Melanie Marcus, Michael Novotny, Molly Taylor, Original Character, Rodney, Ted Schmidt, Vic Grassi
Tags: Abduction, Anti-Michael, Cancer, Coming Out, F/F, F/M, Family, Friendship, Homophobia, Jealousy, M/M, Minor Character Death, Minor Violence, Possessive, Raw Sex, Responsible Justin, Season 1, Underage Sex, What if...
Genres: Angst w/ Happy Ending
Pairings: Brian/Justin, Melanie/Lindsay, Vic/Rodney
Completed: Yes

Summary:

"In a year, probably not even that long, you won't even remember my name. Oh, what happened to that kid who wouldn't leave me alone? Who thought he was in love with me. If you fucking think of me at all."

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Ben Bruckner, Brian Kinney, Chris Hobbs, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Ethan Gold, Gus Marcus-Peterson, Jennifer Taylor, Justin Taylor, Michael Novotny
Tags: Anal Sex (Lots of it!), Cancer, One-Shot, Oral Sex, Post-series, Threesomes, What if...
Genres: Alternate Universe
Pairings: Brian/Justin, Brian/Justin/Other, Justin/Ethan, Justin/Other
Completed: Yes

Summary:

Vegas, booze and our boys. Justin graduates Med school and goes with Daphne who is getting married, before they leave the country for their new jobs.

 

Lorie as always thank you for being not just my beta but a great sounding board.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Ben Bruckner, Blake Wyzecki, Brian Kinney, Carl Horvath, Claire Kinney, Craig Taylor, Cynthia, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Drew Boyd, Emmett Honeycutt, Gus Marcus-Peterson, James 'Hunter' Montgomery, Jennifer Taylor, Jenny Rebecca Marcus-Peterson, Joan Kinney, Justin Taylor, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Michael Novotny, Original Character, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Other Cast Regulars, Sam Auerbach, Ted Schmidt, Vic Grassi
Tags: Anti-Lindsay, Anti-Michael, Cancer, Out of Character, Wedding
Genres: Alternate Universe, Drama, Humor
Pairings: Brian/Justin, Debbie/Carl, Emmett/Drew, Melanie/Lindsay, Michael/Ben, Ted/Blake, Vic/Rodney
Completed: Yes

Summary:

Post 414, Brian has asked Justin to move in, Justin hasn't answered, what now? (This series picks up after the last episode of Season 4 and was written before Season 5- the final season- ever aired.) Written in 2004-2005.

(21 chapters + 3 epilogues)

Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Cynthia, Gus Marcus-Peterson, Jenny Rebecca Marcus-Peterson, Justin Taylor, Lindsay Peterson, Michael Novotny
Tags: Cancer, M/M, Season 4
Genres: Angst, Could be Canon
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes

Summary:

After surviving years in a long-distance relationship, they finally marry only to be separated again. Just as they’re finally about to be reunited their relationship is tested once more. But they’re always stronger together, determined to make things work.

Categories: QAF US
Characters: None
Tags: Cancer, M/M, Post-series, Raw Sex, Real Life Issues
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Porny, Romance, Tragedy
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes