




Date: Jul 25, 2021 5:45 pm Title: Renewal, Part One: Past, Present, and Future
I don't want to keep reading because then I am done and I am not ready for that. This is such a beautiful world you have created. So well written and so easy to picture.
God bless the sex chair.





Date: Jul 25, 2021 5:16 pm Title: Reinvention
Justin sounds like the most amazing art teacher, I am so happy Adam convinced him to do it for those two weeks and that now Justin wants to take it on full time. Sometimes you just need someone else to show you the way a little.
Yoga is brilliant and it's something I could see Justin becoming really into, which would probably make Brian roll his eyes, but be secretly happy for him.
I can't wait to "see" what Brian thinks of the work at Nick's restaurant. I hope it helps his business, but mostly I hope it makes Brian happy to know Justin did this for him and for others in his situation.
I don't want this to ever end.





Date: Jul 25, 2021 1:50 pm Title: Rebirth
Cynthia and Brian are amazing together and I really hope they get to have more of this in later stories. I am sad I am almost done though. Like I really am in love with this story. It's my favourite.
I am excited about the standing chair, another thing I suggested and didn't know you had planned haha.
I would love to see Brian maybe try a disabled sports game, like basketball or dodgeball. Something sporty, because he was. Maybe he and Rob join a team?
Justin definitely needs to introduce full-body massages to their routine, which you mentioned in the last chapter. That is something my friend said she cannot do without now. Her boyfriend also does VERY light ankle weight exercises while holding her legs, to help her muscles.





Date: Jul 25, 2021 11:17 am Title: Release
Way to go Justin. Doing something that freaks you out so much is always hard, but what he did was even harder. But he did it.
It was wonderful to hear Justin yell Bria the prom wasn't his fault, he needed to hear it - even if it didn't need to be said. And hearing the prom night from his POV was so wonderfully heartbreaking.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 7:15 pm Title: Fighting to Let Go
Justin and Rob are ganging up on Brian and I love it. But he needs to listen to them both. He needs to have that talk with Justin as Rob says. And Justin telling him it wasn't worth it was perfection.
I love the idea of Cynthia being in NYC with Brian.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 6:41 pm Title: Wake Up Call
I fucking love Rob. He doesn't care that Brian is in hospital, he's telling him what a selfish, stubborn man he is. I say those words lovingly by the way. He's right, they both end up hurting each other while trying to protect the other. They are insufferable lol





Date: Jul 24, 2021 6:14 pm Title: Emergency
My heart cannot take this. I wish Justin had called Jen too, but she's fat away and would panic. So I am glad he phoned Rob. But Justin needs to stop blaming himself, Brian is a stubborn boy, he wouldn't have slowed down even if he was told to. But I would feel the same I am sure, it's natural. I need to hug Justin though :(





Date: Jul 24, 2021 5:53 pm Title: Stress Response
I'm totally crushing on Rob.
I felt so uncomfortable for Brian during his meeting, no one should be judged for having a disability, but people do it all the time.
SHIT. The end though. Wasn't expecting that/ But I know what this shit can do to your body. My friend gets so ill if she overworks or is stressed. I want to hug Justin, seeing that must have been so frightening.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 5:07 pm Title: Adaptation
I am so so proud of Justin.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 11:42 am Title: Family
This chapter made me smile so much. Jen is such a warm and loving mom, just what both boys need. I was so relieved that he was happy to see her in town. And that he liked what they did to his paintings. And I can so see Jen looking up disabled artists haha.
The idea of that impromptu photo shoot makes my heart sing.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 11:37 am Title: Breathe
I have so much to say about this chapter, I hope I remember it all.
Let's start with how much I love how Brian knows just what to do when Justin has a headache.
I can totally get how something so "small" as not being able to open your pills on your own can make you lose control in your mind, your brain can be so unforgiving of things you struggle with.
How much do I love that Brian talks to Jen? In my head, they talk often and Brian enjoys it more than he'll ever let on. Deb is an amazing surrogate mom, but Jen is, in my opinion, the number one Mumma for both boys.
I knew I loved Rob for a reason. Look at him showing up to check up on Justin and to try and talk some sense into our silly, but gorgeous boy.
The scene with Justin in his studio broke my heart, and I was so worried about what he was going to do with the knife. I was like, don't hurt your paintings... OR YOURSELF.
Holy shittake mushrooms, that swing/seat sounds amazing. I really hope it comes up more in this story. Not only did it give Brian the chance to be in control again, which I think he needs, but it also gives Justin the chance to have someone he loves to look after him in that way, which he probably craves more so now than ever before because he's having to take the lead a little more.
How does this story not have 5 stars? That shocks me.





Date: Jul 24, 2021 11:10 am Title: Memories
I love Brian's friendship with Rob, it's so special. Not only does Rob completely get it, but he's also just a damn good friend to Brian... and Justin.
I loved the image of Justin and these two excitable little girls that adore Justin, and you know what? They probably didn't even notice his hand all that much. I hope he listens to Adam and considers going back to being an art sub, I bet he's great.
What Brian said about the memories makes so much sense. Sometimes something will come back that is just completely random, but that weird memory might be the missing piece and will open your mind to others.
I am truly addicted to your work.





Date: Jul 22, 2021 3:47 am Title: Home
This was so sensual, I couldn't stop smiling, it's like their first time all over again.





Date: Jul 21, 2021 6:48 pm Title: Rehabilitation
He has the same injury as my friend, you really have written this so well. I hope Justin lets Brian help him a little :(





Date: Jul 21, 2021 6:07 pm Title: Friendship
I am now craving Italian food cooked by Deb, I bet it's amazing. Poor Michael is still jealous that Brian has other friends, but I am glad Rob made it all make sense to him.





Date: Jul 21, 2021 5:03 pm Title: Relief
I just wanted to say, the research you have done is phenomenal. My friend is a T12 total paraplegic, which means she has no feeling below her waist. When it happened, I knew nothing about being paralysed. The pain you described in Brian's legs was so darn accurate. She gets them all the time and is on constant pain medication for it. She can also feel her legs burning when they're cold, which she says is very weird. And the shaking legs happen to her when she needs to pee, it's like her body warms her. It does it other times too, but the body is so smart that way.
I am so happy you are bringing Rob in, he can buy the pads for Brian, but also be someone who totally gets it. Like he said, his family is great, but they don't know what it's like.





Date: Jul 21, 2021 7:36 am Title: Sleep
I can now breathe, omg





Date: Jul 21, 2021 7:36 am Title: Sleep
I can now breathe, omg





Date: Jul 21, 2021 6:09 am Title: Pain Management
Oh, Brian. I want to hug him, it's going to be okay.





Date: Jul 21, 2021 5:50 am Title: Danger
NOOOOOOOOOOOO. What did you do, Brian?





Date: Jul 20, 2021 6:17 pm Title: Take Care
I love Debbie and Brian's relationship so much here. My heart is aching for Brian :/





Date: Jul 20, 2021 6:03 pm Title: Post Trauma
Thank fuck he woke up and remembered Brian. I don't know what I would have done if he didn't. My heart is in my throat though, ahh!





Date: Jul 20, 2021 5:52 pm Title: Strong Enough
I forgot about the paintings too, Brian, it's okay :( I am so happy that Michael is around and being the friend that Brian needs right now.





Date: Jul 20, 2021 5:38 pm Title: Upside Down
This lump in my throat won't go away, I cried this whole chapter.





Date: Jul 20, 2021 5:18 pm Title: Moving On
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? Jesus, how am I supposed to go to sleep now?
Author's Response:
Heh... this chapter is the catalyst for the whole rest of this story 😉