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Awwww, thank you :) 

Yes, it shouldn't have come as a surprise that Brian would be bothered by a scar like that and that Justin wouldn't care at all. I am pretty sure that under normal circumstances Brian would even have known that Justin wouldn't give a shit about a scar, but with everything going on right now and his emotional state being what it is, he unfortunately forgot who Justin is and who they are as a couple...

Hopefully Justin was able to remind him :) 

To be honest, I quite like their conversations and interactions as well. They are my favourite pieces of a story to write. Maybe because a lot of times the show just reduced their interactions to sex and that was it, I don't know, but I love to write conversations between them and to show them in every day, normal situations, you know?

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Yes, knowing how Brian has always defined himself through his looks, it shouldn't be surprising that a scar like that would bother him so much.

Thankfully, Justin understood and was right there to show his love and support once again :) 

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Yes, poor Brian indeed. I feel quite bad for everything I am putting him through, believe it or not. And Justin as well because he has to sit by and watch the man he loves go through all of that... 

We will find out soon why Brian hasn't been to see Vicky yet. That conversation is coming up soon. 

But yeah, you are on the right track with your assessment of Brian and where his emotional state is at right now. 

Justin once again surprises with his strength and unwavering support for Brian :) He is a keeper, that's for sure! 

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Awwww, thank you :) 

Poor Brian is really put through a lot - I feel bad for him myself and I am the one that came up with all of this :( 

We can only hope for the best where Michael is concerned... 

Ah, I am sorry to hear that you had another stressful week, but yeah, I understand. Sometimes that's just life :( Enjoy your weekend!

I quite like the name myself, so I am glad that everyone else likes her name as well :) I think Brian and Justin did well choosing this one for her. And like you said, she is a winner!

As for Brian seeing her for the first time: You are on to something... We will definitely find out more about why he's not been to see her yet. Is there a real reason for it (then why doesn't Justin know?) or is he just trying to delay? What's going on? Hmmm.... For now let's just say that Brian's mental state is not what it should be and that definitely plays a role in why he hasn't seen her yet :(

Yes, Michael chose the worst time possible to reappear :( On top of everything else he's the last thing they need to deal with right now. Thankfully Justin took over and dealt with him, taking one thing off Brian's plate. We all know only too well that Justin can very well handle Michael and it was time that Brian saw that as well. Go, Justin! :)

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Thanks, I am glad you liked it :)

As for Michael - I promised that he would be back and I am just keeping my promises. As for the timing... Couldn't have happened at a worse time, could it? 

I am not a big fan of Michael either, never have been, never will be. He was always too childish, clingy and whiny for my tastes and over the course of the show I wanted to slap some sense into him several times. If I had a friend like that, we wouldn't be friends anymore, that's for sure. He would drive me crazy...

I quite like the name myself, so I am happy that everyone else seems to like it as well :)

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Yes, it is more bad news :( Brian's mental state is definitely something to worry about with everything going on...

As for the unexpected visit - that was really the last thing they needed at this point... hopefully nothing bad will come of it ;(

I am glad you like the name :)

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Yeah, it was very tough to write. Despite what my stories might show and be about, I like them best when they are together and happy. Scenes in which they are fighting or apart or suffering, break my own heart and are very challenging for me, because all I want is for them to make up :(

I just felt that Justin would try to protect Brian from the worst details, knowing how fragile his mental state already is and Brian, knowing Justin as well as he does, would immediately see through it and would hate that details were being kept from him. It felt like a very natural scene for those two, but that didn't make it easier to write :(

So my masterplan to support tissue companies is working ;) Go me!

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You're right, nothing can prepare you for seeing your child like that :( I feel so sad for every parent that has to go through this... All you want to do is hold your child and make sure he/she is okay and you can't :(

She will be a fighter, just like her daddies. I can promise you that :)

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Happy New Year! 

Yes, their situation is a horrible one. So many plans and none of it will come to pass. Like you said, this will create more guilt for Brian as he will blame himself and we know that Brian doesn't deal well with guilt :( He only wanted to give Justin a nice pregnancy and birth, so Justin could finally share those experiences with him and now it has all gone so wrong because of Brian's health. So yes, that will definitely be another bad thing coming their way on top of everything else ... 

She is a fighter and she will continue to be one - I promise! I have actually based her experiences on a real preemie in Germany that was the youngest preemie to ever be born and survive (at least at the time in the early 2000's). She was born in week 22 and she ended up in my aunt's kindergarten. When I was a student at university, studying to become a teacher, I read a lot of my aunt's reports on her progress and met her a couple of times during internships. She grew up to be a healthy, smart girl and is on her way to university now. The only problems she ever had were her eyes and she had to wear glasses all her life, but that's it... Quite amazing for a baby born at week 22. 

Yes, poor Justin. I really want to give him a hug. He deserves one :(

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Yes, she is alive and we can only hope that she will grow up healthily :)

I have based what happens to her on stories of a real preemie in Germany. My aunt works in a kindergarten and she worked with the youngest preemie ever born in Germany to survive and grow up. So a lot of what you will read in this story concerning the baby is based on what happened to that child after her birth at 22 weeks. 

Like you said, a tiny start doesn't always mean a tiny adult. That girl grew up to be a healthy, smart young teenager and is now on her way to university :) 

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And happy new year to you, too :D