Date: Aug 24, 2019 11:46 am Title: Chapter 13: A Close Call
good one
Date: Jul 16, 2017 6:59 pm Title: Chapter 13: A Close Call
First, thank you for not letting this conversation stop where it ended in the show. You’ve given them another possibility - and in my opinion, it’s a real good one. And regarding the tricking… I always imagine Brian to less tricking as time goes by, as a natural development. It was kind of funny for me because this was one of my reviews for another story (one by Wren):
“And I haven’t understand this whole marriage discussion. Why not getting married? You don’t have to change everything so fast just because of that. For me it feels as if it would have been good for them, just some kind of small commitment, just an official sign that they belong together no matter what, no matter if Brian still tricks a little bit or if Justin goes to NY or stays in P., drawing there, maybe with an agent who supports him. Why had it to be all or nothing. Life is about growing up and also about compromises. And maybe it would have been good, giving Brian a little more trust in Justin (in case he would have gone to NY) and Justin a reason to return….”
I would have loved to see your version in the show, because the end they’d showed us, broke my heart. And after all Brian and Justin went through they haven’t deserved such an end. You’ve done a great job and I’ve loved to read your story – although it was also sad and heartbreaking, but the end was worth it all (although I would have loved to read more...) Thanks for the whole story but especially for this last chapter. It was hot, awesome, cute, beautiful…. Thanks for sharing this story! Warmest regards, a.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 6:19 pm Title: Chapter 12: Until You Say 'I do,' You Can Still Say 'I Won't'
“Call off the wedding, sweetie. Lindsay told me Justin had been talking about wanting to move to New York before the two of you got engaged. Let him go. Let him explore life on his own for a change.”
And again, I just can repeat myself. It’s good that Deb tries to talk some sense into them, but also again, I think she also tries to influence them too much, tries to make decisions for them, which are only black and white, yes or no, marry him or let him go. In the show we got the impression that it was only Lindsay, but now, here in your story, there’s also Deb and while reading it the first time, at this point I was really really afraid…
“But . . . but now . . . But now maybe he wanted to revise some of those choices . . . not all of them, but some. At the very least, he wanted to choose love over loneliness . . .” – Again, your words break my heart!
And I anticipate, but I thank you so much for the next chapter!
Date: Jul 16, 2017 6:05 pm Title: Chapter 11: Deb
Although I also feel sorry for Brian (because everything – even if it’s wrong – he does because he loves Justin and thinks this is what he has to do to make Justin stay), I really really feel sorry for Justin “What had he done to deserve being treated like that?”- I think he’s right – he hadn’t done anything except maybe not stopping Brian, talking to him… But I think he was also afraid of losing Brian.
I’m not sure what to think about Deb. I mean, it’s good that there is someone who helps them to open their eyes, to force them to see the truth, to think about it. But what makes me so angry about her, is, that it’s only black or white – there aren’t any solutions in between, no ideas about compromises.
“Let him go, Sunshine,” she whispered. “Let him be who he was – and not who he is. Let him be a heartbreaking son-of-a-bitch who only thinks of himself. It’s who he is. And if you can’t love him for who he is, then you sure as hell shouldn’t marry him.”- This statement made me angry. Because that’s not all Brian is, he never was someone who’s only thought of himself, it’s not only fucking and sucking and being an asshole what makes Brian be Brian and be happy – it’s also Justin. Brian has already changed in the last five years since knowing Justin. And if you love someone then you have to stay true to yourself but it’s also about finding compromises. But again, she’s so right with questioning him if they don’t talk to each other….
This chapter, this conversation with Deb was really heart-breaking, very good written, but I’m so glad that you let them find their own way!
Date: Jul 16, 2017 5:31 pm Title: Chapter 10: "Wish Me Luck"
“Suddenly, Brian can see himself driving a Winnebago with Justin in the passenger seat pouring over a map of Yellowstone and Gus and a pile of multi-aged kids in the back fighting over the remote for a mammoth-sized T.V.” – and again, I don’t know, should I cry or laugh…???? And then, I just want to cry… Yeah, why is he doing this alone? Why didn’t he talk to Justin before? Why didn’t they look for a place together? Why didn’t they stay at the lost together? Why didn’t they talk? Why did the screenplay of this last season had to be so terrible and the end so much worse?
Date: Jul 16, 2017 5:03 pm Title: Chapter 9: The Test
God, what a mess they’re in! But again, I’ve to say, you’ve done a real great job in explaining how it could come so far, to this scene with the cuddling where they decided to cancel the wedding. If only they would talk to each other!!! I must admit, at this point in your story (while reading it the first time), I was very afraid about your end of story, because we all know to what a terrible end it led in the show…
By the way, the thing with not having a condom is so funny. Makes me again laugh with tears in my eyes. Warmest regards, a.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 4:38 pm Title: Chapter 8: "Let's Do It"
And again, I’m so in love with your writing-style and how you describe Justin’s thoughts. They’ re kind of funny but also so tragic because somehow, he feels what’s going on, but can’t stop it. He loves Brian so much but he doesn’t recognize the extent to which Brian thinks he has to go in the event of a marriage to make Justin happy. Tragic! Warmest regards, a.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 4:25 pm Title: Chapter 7: "The Prisoner Respectfully Chooses Not To Partake Of His Last Meal..."
Again, makes me so sad. Somehow, I have to laugh about their conversation but with tears in my eyes. Very good writing-style. It’s so tragic, they love each other so much but aren’t able to talk about the most important stuff. And again, I can understand Justin - that this is not the right moment to fuck raw - something he's always wanted. It would have been so wrong in this moment. And then, it must have hurt so much to hear those words from Brian about being a prisoner...It's so sad.... Warmest regards, a.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 4:04 pm Title: Chapter 6: Mr. I-Believe-In-Fucking-Not-Love
Omg, Brian is so desperate, it’s heartbreaking. If he wouldn’t be so desperate, one could say it might be nearly funny and cute how he thinks about who they could take as a surrogate. If only they would talk about their fears, about their wants, their needs and about what they don’t want, need or expect…
Date: Jul 16, 2017 3:40 pm Title: Chapter 5: Suggle-Wuggle
It’s so sad that Brian is so damned afraid to talk to Justin about his thoughts, his feelings and his fears. It’s so sad that he can’t even imagine that his fears are needless. It’s so sad that Brian can’t see that all Justin ever wanted wasn’t monogamy but a Brian who would be a little more open by showing or even talking about his feelings or doing little things like buying one fucking flower or a picnic on a floor.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 3:26 pm Title: Chapter 4: No F'ing Way
Hi again! This chapter and also the scene didn’t broke my heart so much because I was already so disappointed by the whole season 5. There were so many moments and so many strange acting by the characters I couldn’t understand. And yeah, I totally agree with you, Justin was very cold here, but the whole scene was so out of character. I don’t know, maybe you know them already, but there are some very great stories by Wren (midnightwisphers.net) regarding this thematic. But I think, I agree with Justin that this wasn’t a good time to propose to marriage. But again, very well written.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 3:25 pm Title: Chapter 3: Assumptions
I really like your writing-style and how you again and again go back to this sentence and always shows us more and more glimpses to understand how this scene has arisen. Okay, it was a tv show, but I’ve always missed the details. But you know, If it has been my way, this series would have been just about Brian and Justin… :-)
If it wasn’t so sad, because it already leads to so many complications between the two, it would be almost funny, as everyone (including Brian and Justin) thinks to know what Justin thinks about wanting or not wanting monogamy (excuse my terrible English)….
And this “I love you so much” is so heart-breaking. Justin doesn’t have a clue, and Brian is so desperate. He wants to try so hard, because he loves him so much but he feels that this isn’t himself. I’m always amazed how a single sentence can touch one so much! Thanks for sharing this story!
Date: Jul 16, 2017 3:20 pm Title: Chapter 2: The Bomb
“Pleasedon’tletanythinghappentohim” – Your words are very intense and reflect Brian's feelings very clearly. One suffers with him and it becomes so clear how much Justin means to him. Thanks and warmest regards, a.
Date: Jul 16, 2017 3:19 pm Title: Chapter 1: “Maybe you’d rather just cuddle.â€
Hi! I wanted to thank you for making my day yesterday with this wonderful story! I couldn’t stop myself from reading. Today, I decided to re-read it and give you a few much earned reviews. I like the theme you have chosen for your story (the marriage and monogamy). It’s a good example for a frequent problem between Brian and Justin: They didn’t talk about important things, but decided for the other what would be best… Warmest regards, a.
[Report This]Date: Jul 14, 2017 1:07 am Title: Chapter 1: “Maybe you’d rather just cuddle.â€
I can already tell this is going to break my heart. I love your writing so much <3