Date: Jul 16, 2017 6:05 pm Title: Chapter 11: Deb
Although I also feel sorry for Brian (because everything – even if it’s wrong – he does because he loves Justin and thinks this is what he has to do to make Justin stay), I really really feel sorry for Justin “What had he done to deserve being treated like that?”- I think he’s right – he hadn’t done anything except maybe not stopping Brian, talking to him… But I think he was also afraid of losing Brian.
I’m not sure what to think about Deb. I mean, it’s good that there is someone who helps them to open their eyes, to force them to see the truth, to think about it. But what makes me so angry about her, is, that it’s only black or white – there aren’t any solutions in between, no ideas about compromises.
“Let him go, Sunshine,” she whispered. “Let him be who he was – and not who he is. Let him be a heartbreaking son-of-a-bitch who only thinks of himself. It’s who he is. And if you can’t love him for who he is, then you sure as hell shouldn’t marry him.”- This statement made me angry. Because that’s not all Brian is, he never was someone who’s only thought of himself, it’s not only fucking and sucking and being an asshole what makes Brian be Brian and be happy – it’s also Justin. Brian has already changed in the last five years since knowing Justin. And if you love someone then you have to stay true to yourself but it’s also about finding compromises. But again, she’s so right with questioning him if they don’t talk to each other….
This chapter, this conversation with Deb was really heart-breaking, very good written, but I’m so glad that you let them find their own way!