Date: Nov 25, 2017 1:58 pm Title: Chapter 1
What a punch in the guts!
Justin was a very strong person before the bashing, but it's another story after it.
Brian was very attentive until Justin partially recovered and the gang started to highlight how Brian was behaving; he then started to go back to his old habits and Justin was on the front row.
Fortunately, Justin is not alone and has strong support; will he accept it and try to move on?
Author's Response:
Justin was a very strong person before the bashing, but it's another story after it.
My thoughts exactly, which leads me to....
Brian was very attentive until Justin partially recovered
It was like, "Oh, he can go outside and I can fuck him now, so he's all fixed!"
Uhhh...no... not all fixed, lol. I'm glad the emotion of this chapter got to you - I was told that wasn't easy to do so because it is literally just recorded words, but I'm glad that it did give you the response that you had.
[Report This]Date: Nov 25, 2017 1:24 pm Title: Chapter 3
I'm liking this Ethan. Will Brian be able to help?
Author's Response:
I'm glad you are liking Ethan. ;) As for Brian - we'll see. ;)
Date: Nov 19, 2017 4:24 pm Title: Chapter 2
Wow, I'm completely loving this story. I also 100% agree with everything Nochaser said as well as your responses back to her! I love Brian as well, BUT in my opinion, he totally abused Justin. Emotionally and mentally. As Nochaser said, you can understand Brian's actions but there is no excuse. If anything, you would think that he wouldn't WANT to do anything to someone else, especially someone he cares about, that was done to him. He KNOWS what that feels like. He wanted to give up Gus because he was worried that he would become Jack and abuse him. When in reality he was already acting like both Jack (in his verbal abuse to Justin) and Joan (in his indifference to everything). I just have a hard time with him not realizing he acting like both his parents. Please don't misunderstand me, I am far far from a Brian hater, I absolutely love Brian and want to help "the little sad boy inside him" and show him that love is okay. BUT, that doesn't mean I condone how he talks and acts. Thank you so much for this wonderful story, and I look forward to reading more!! Patty
Author's Response:
I agree 100%. I love the character of Brian; he's interesting, and complex and has the capacity to love deeply and strongly, but he was a total prick. He allowed his childhood to dictate who he became - I remember reading a fic a while ago, and in it, Justin said to Brian, if you don't want to be like your parents - then don't be. Circumstances only dictate a section of our lives - choice dictates the rest. And as Justin said in this particular fic - his father (Craig) was a prick, and he chose not to be like his father.
That really struck a chord with me.
So thank you for reading, Patty, and for taking the time to leave me a review. I'm really glad you are enjoying this. xx
Date: Nov 19, 2017 3:06 pm Title: Chapter 2
Holy shit! I love this story! It's so different from other fics, totally new concept. Every single paragraph is even better than the one before. It's so interesting!
Poor Justin! OMG my heart is breaking for him...
Wow...how often will you update?
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon, and yeah, I tend to think way outside the box when it comes to fics. And I'm glad that you have the feels for Justin - I love Justin! ;)
As for updating, I tend to work really closely with my beta, and I have 6 chapters in total written and squared away. I will be updating weekly - you guys got this one early because I am working stoopid hours later this week, (my daughter's words) and won't have time to scratch my bum, let alone think about posting and stuff. ;) And over the two week Xmas period, I'll be lucky to kiss my kids, let alone sit down to write. But I hope to keep up the flow of this with Kim, (my beta) so we'll see. As I said to her, it's flowing, but there is no doubt a wall in my future, lol.
Thanks so much for the review. I'm glad you enjoyed it. xx
[Report This]Date: Nov 19, 2017 1:58 pm Title: Chapter 2
God I love your interpetation of what happened. I'm hoping that there is light at the end.
Author's Response:
Thank you! I'm a sucker for a happy ending, but that doesn't mean it'll be smooth sailing to get there. Someone else said that this felt real - that was my intention, so *shrugs* I'm glad you're enjoying my story though, and thanks for reviewing, I appreciate it. x
[Report This]Date: Nov 19, 2017 12:11 pm Title: Chapter 2
oh this is breaking my heart. Poor Justin. And I appreciate the fact that Ethan isn’t a bad guy. Looking forward to the next chapter. :)
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon!! Glad you're enjoying this. x
Date: Nov 19, 2017 11:20 am Title: Chapter 2
"How's Molly doing, Mom? Is she still enjoying her dance lessons?"
"Justin..."
"Is Dad still paying for those lessons? How about her tennis lessons? Her swimming lessons? Her fucking education?"
"..."
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This is one of the most telling passages. Justin is carrying around a ton of hurt and anger over his parents' betrayal. It's crushing to feel, whether you're right or not, that your sibling is loved and you aren't.
Anyone who's read my own stories will know that I'm pretty Justin-centric. His family turned their backs on him, he was immersed into a sexually charged adult world right out of the gate, was almost killed, had to deal with a lover's 'best friend' who continually reminded him of his impermanence, had no roof over his head that he could depend on, and had to maneuver an emotional minefield with Brian, all within the span of a year. We make a lot about Brian's horrific childhood and excuse a lot of his behavior because of that. I love his character to the bottom of my soul, but ultimately, hurting another because you've been hurt can't really be excused. It can be understood, but not excused.
The Liberty group was really very, very dysfunctional, wasn't it?
Author's Response:
We make a lot about Brian's horrific childhood and excuse a lot of his behavior because of that. I love his character to the bottom of my soul, but ultimately, hurting another because you've been hurt can't really be excused. It can be understood, but not excused.
This. Yes! Thank you! And this is something that I plan on delving into with this story. I was raised to see that all actions have consequences, and it is a lesson that I am instilling in my own children.
It's crushing to feel, whether you're right or not, that your sibling is loved and you aren't.
And this too. Loved, or preferred, no matter what they do. Thank you for reading and for taking the time to leave me such a wonderful, in-depth review. I so appreciate it. xx
Date: Nov 19, 2017 11:00 am Title: Chapter 2
This was a perfect chapter! Perfect. So much information, so much pain, so many questions and answers and more questions...
You touched on the two scenes in canon that made me literally hate Brian, and you ended on one of those. The 'blond boy ass' comment and the rape - because in my mind that's what it was. Brian emotionally raped Justin that night. He manipulated Justin's need for him and twisted it into a physical attack. It reminded me of a child just wanting to be held by a parent, being coaxed to that parent for a hug, and then getting slapped by them instead.
Very, very well done. I'm such a masochist. My heart is breaking and I can't wait to have you hurt me a little more.
Author's Response:
You touched on the two scenes in canon that made me literally hate Brian... the rape - because in my mind that's what it was. Brian emotionally raped Justin that night. He manipulated Justin's need for him and twisted it into a physical attack.
As I said ^^^ I was raised to see that all actions have consequences, and there are and will be consequences for this. You'll see what I mean as we go forth, but you've already picked up on a thread that was planted with that much-hated scene in mind because I agree with you 100% - it was a physical attack, and I hate that we never saw what it did to Justin. So you'll see it fully within this story. And while I apologize for breaking your heart, I'm so glad that you are letting me do so. :)
Kerri. xxx
Date: Nov 19, 2017 9:28 am Title: Chapter 1
Oh my god... please tell me there will be happy end! My heart is breaking(( it is so real...
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon; while I'm sorry that your heart is breaking, ;), that was the whole point of this - you said it yourself - it's real. And the ending itself, when I eventually get there? That will be real too. x
[Report This]Date: Nov 15, 2017 11:20 pm Title: Chapter 1
Now this is interesting. So Ethan is just a friend helping a friend? And Emmett is doing his best to get Brian to see the damage he's done? Now the person who told Brian that Justin was with Ethan, could that possibly be Michael? I really want to see where this goes.
Author's Response:
You read between the lines really well. ;) Glad that you enjoyed. x
[Report This]Date: Nov 15, 2017 10:23 pm Title: Chapter 1
Ooooo, what a beginning, I’m hooked....can’t wait for more. Erin
Author's Response:
Thanks, Erin!
Date: Nov 15, 2017 9:33 pm Title: Chapter 1
Holy shit! OMG what a beginning! This sounds so interesting and heartbreaking...more please!
Author's Response:
Lol, thank you! I'm so glad I'm not the only one who opens with a statement like that!! Glad you enjoyed it. x
Date: Nov 15, 2017 4:30 pm Title: Chapter 1
Welcome to Kinnetik Dreams! Great first chapter. Very compelling. I feel like I’ve been pulled right in. Looking forward to more! TAG
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon, I appreciate it. x
Date: Nov 15, 2017 2:50 pm Title: Chapter 1
This is a great start to a story. And very well written. Looking forward to much more.
Author's Response:
thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyed it.
[Report This]Date: Nov 15, 2017 1:05 pm Title: Chapter 1
Firstly, welcome to KD, we're very excited to have you here.
Secondly, ahhh, this is so good. I cannot wait to read more from you.
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon, for the warm welcome. I appreciate it. And I'm so glad you enjoyed it. x