Reviewer: aglaja5 Signed [Report This]
Date: Jul 28, 2018 11:12 am Title: Chapter 4

Hi! Sorry for my late review, but real life came in the way...

Oh, like I said before, it's so heartbreaking and hard to read and I think I couldn't read this if there wasn't your other story at the same time, knowing that those painful years are over and that they are together again with Luke and with Gus... no matter if just as friends or whatever...

And again, I can't hate Brian for his behavior even if it's so hurtful. But seeing it just from his point of view, it makes sense. And in your amazing and talented way of writing you showed us very clear how his mind works here. It's terrible - and I know this from myself and from my life - how influenced we are through our parents. I don't speak about guilt or blaming parents, but for me it was interesting to understand how you could not only have issues because of what your parents did to you personally but also, maybe even much more issues are created through the way parents behave to each other. They are our role models. And I think in Brian's case it makes totally sense. He was not only not being loved and treated how a child should be treated but abused and also there was no love between his parents. There was just anger, violence, fury and disrespect. So, it's no wonder how Brian could turn into the adult he is. And you made it very clear that his demons even run so much deeper than a "normal" person could imagine. And I just can agree with what you said about Debbie. My feelings for her were always very ambiguous. She had her good sites but you are totally right, she could had or must had done more to help Brian.

As I said before it's so sad and so painful knowing what he is about to do to their child and to Justin, his real best friend. It's so sad to see and to feel how alone he is. And also to imagine how Justin feels and what he has to endure when he gets those news through Daphne.  So, looking forward to the next chapter! Warmest regards!!!

Author's Response:

No need to apologise! I am happy about every review you have time to leave :)

Yes, it is heartbreaking - no other word for it :( 

I know that many people won't agree with me, but I can't hate Brian either. He is haunted by his own demons and is fighting against the effects his childhood still have on him. He's hurting himself with his own behaviour as I think it's quite obvious that he still loves Justin and would rather be with him than alone, but feels like he has no choice because he's so scared of them turning into his own parents. Is that making sense? Not necessarily, but when does fear make sense? He is driven by his own demons and I think the only thing that could change his mind at this point would be sessions with a therapist. Brian is so controlled by his fear, he is in no position to listen to any reasonable arguments :(

More will be up soon and the first person will find out about the pregnancy - wonder who it is ;) 

 

Reviewer: mamab Signed [Report This]
Date: Jul 26, 2018 12:46 am Title: Chapter 4

Just typical Brian, thinking he knows what is best for Justin.  Great chapter.

Author's Response:

Sadly yes :( Always the one who needs to be in control and needs to make all the decisions...

Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)