Reviewer: aglaja5 Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 13, 2019 5:32 pm Title: Chapter 24: Lying in Wait

Hi again! What a heartbreaking chapter! And poor Justin! I feel soooo sorry for him. All of a sudden, being reminded of his two worst moments in life in this moment when he thought this guy didn‘t use a condom and then this guy also raises his arm (his helplessness and fears, Sap‘s party, the bashing and Hobbs)... Oh goodness! Understandable that his brain turns off and he goes into this catatonic state...

And also poor Brian! "It is life-saving...he will leave me." Reading this, my heart really broke! It‘s so very well written and I think it was a really good idea to write this from Michael's perspective. How you describe through his eyes Brian‘s dispair, his fear, his struggle to keep it together, his love! That‘s so amazing.

And it's so good that Michael and Ben are there with Brian. He was partly on the verge of losing it. And again, I‘m glad, you change Michael in a much better version. He‘s a real best friend who for once knows what to do, how to behave, who recognizes what Brian needs. That‘s family!

„but who knows what kinky shit these two save for behind closed doors, like declarations of love." And although everything is so terrible, you made me smile with this...

...and then my heart broke again... „Tears rolled down his face and he whispered, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." And what a absolut beautiful moment when you let Brian immediately see the changes in Justin. Awesome!

What‘s up with Jennifer and her behavior? She could have said „we are soooo glad" or „we were so afraid for you", but „you worried us"??? What the fuck. Totally wrong choice of words. I totally understand Brian's anger. Oh no, just one chapter left. I don‘t want this to end!

Author's Response:

It is a pretty horrific trauma and I felt so badly having to do it. 

I'm so glad you got the remark about it being life-saving for Brian, he wouldn't survive Justin leaving him, even if, in Justin's warped view it would be for Brian's own safety. 

I'm glad Michael's POV worked for this. I think Brian's own thoughts would not be as revealing as what his best friend is able to interpret from his expressions and body language. I imagine Brian in all this would just be a boring, not-detailed recap, so Michael's POV to the rescue!

The "kinky shit, like declarations of love" is just how I imagine Brian and Justin. Sure give all the public blow jobs you want but the sentimental stuff? That's private! 

Jennifer is...well I think she's being like a lot of us when we're worried. We're focused on ourselves rather than on how our behavior might impact the person we're worried about. She means well and, of course, truly loves Justin, but she is emotional and not thinking clearly. 

I'm sorry it will come to an end. Hopefully, you find it a good ending. The last chapter was so hard for me to write. I had real writer's block so I do feel ambivalently about it. 

Reviewer: YumYumPM Signed [Report This]
Date: Jul 02, 2019 3:21 pm Title: Chapter 24: Lying in Wait

That's a tough thing to have to go through.  It's good that Justin is back.

Author's Response:

Definitely tough! Just like Justin :) thank you for reading!

Reviewer: mamab Signed [Report This]
Date: Jul 02, 2019 12:16 pm Title: Chapter 24: Lying in Wait

Wow, what a chapter.  Must have been very hard to write with so much emotion.  Wonderful writing and thank you for bringing Justin back to Brian.

Author's Response:

Thank you so much! Writing Brian’s emotions always makes me feel things too! 

i will ALWAYS bring Brian and Justin back together. There’s never any risk there.