Thanks, I am glad you liked it :)

As for Michael - I promised that he would be back and I am just keeping my promises. As for the timing... Couldn't have happened at a worse time, could it? 

I am not a big fan of Michael either, never have been, never will be. He was always too childish, clingy and whiny for my tastes and over the course of the show I wanted to slap some sense into him several times. If I had a friend like that, we wouldn't be friends anymore, that's for sure. He would drive me crazy...

I quite like the name myself, so I am happy that everyone else seems to like it as well :)

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Yes, it is more bad news :( Brian's mental state is definitely something to worry about with everything going on...

As for the unexpected visit - that was really the last thing they needed at this point... hopefully nothing bad will come of it ;(

I am glad you like the name :)

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Yeah, it was very tough to write. Despite what my stories might show and be about, I like them best when they are together and happy. Scenes in which they are fighting or apart or suffering, break my own heart and are very challenging for me, because all I want is for them to make up :(

I just felt that Justin would try to protect Brian from the worst details, knowing how fragile his mental state already is and Brian, knowing Justin as well as he does, would immediately see through it and would hate that details were being kept from him. It felt like a very natural scene for those two, but that didn't make it easier to write :(

So my masterplan to support tissue companies is working ;) Go me!

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You're right, nothing can prepare you for seeing your child like that :( I feel so sad for every parent that has to go through this... All you want to do is hold your child and make sure he/she is okay and you can't :(

She will be a fighter, just like her daddies. I can promise you that :)

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Happy New Year! 

Yes, their situation is a horrible one. So many plans and none of it will come to pass. Like you said, this will create more guilt for Brian as he will blame himself and we know that Brian doesn't deal well with guilt :( He only wanted to give Justin a nice pregnancy and birth, so Justin could finally share those experiences with him and now it has all gone so wrong because of Brian's health. So yes, that will definitely be another bad thing coming their way on top of everything else ... 

She is a fighter and she will continue to be one - I promise! I have actually based her experiences on a real preemie in Germany that was the youngest preemie to ever be born and survive (at least at the time in the early 2000's). She was born in week 22 and she ended up in my aunt's kindergarten. When I was a student at university, studying to become a teacher, I read a lot of my aunt's reports on her progress and met her a couple of times during internships. She grew up to be a healthy, smart girl and is on her way to university now. The only problems she ever had were her eyes and she had to wear glasses all her life, but that's it... Quite amazing for a baby born at week 22. 

Yes, poor Justin. I really want to give him a hug. He deserves one :(

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Yes, she is alive and we can only hope that she will grow up healthily :)

I have based what happens to her on stories of a real preemie in Germany. My aunt works in a kindergarten and she worked with the youngest preemie ever born in Germany to survive and grow up. So a lot of what you will read in this story concerning the baby is based on what happened to that child after her birth at 22 weeks. 

Like you said, a tiny start doesn't always mean a tiny adult. That girl grew up to be a healthy, smart young teenager and is now on her way to university :) 

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And happy new year to you, too :D 

Thank you :) I am glad you liked it!

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Yes, poor Luke indeed. Poor guy was so intimidated and scared by it all. Hopefully he'll be doing better on his next visit, now that he knows that his daddy is okay.

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I hope you had lovely holidays! 

It was about time that Justin found out about Brian being at the hospital every night back then. 

Yes, I was thinking about the apathic Brian we saw at the end of season 1 sitting with Mikey, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't really see Brian being like that for much longer than the initial shock. I don't know, to me Brian has always been someone who does things and fixes them and doesn't just sit around and wait and the way I see his character, I thought that the waiting and not being able to do anything would drive him crazy after a while and he would need to do something to fix things... Of course everyone might see him differently and fair enough, but that was just my image of Brian during those days: Once the shock started to wear off, he would become agitated and would need something to do/to fix. 

Yes, the surgery went well and everything else will take time and lots of rest, care and therapy. As for M, we'll find out about M in the next chapter. M was not forgotten about, but this was about Brian and everyone being worried about him ;)

I thought some humour could only help to lighten the mood. And I just imagined a nurse hearing him ask for "Sunshine" and not knowing what to make of it *lol*

I will never understand people that vote for the AFD - if you vote AFD, you are supporting a right wing agenda. Everyone who says: Oh, I vote AFD to protest against the established parties is just lying. If you vote for the AFD, you vote for Höcke and Gauland and all those idiots who are just Nazis! If you vote AFD, you are voting for Nazi sympathisers and those people won't get any understanding or tolerance from me. I have no patience and understanding for all those "concerned citizens"... 

I am sure that if "Ronny" in Sachsen couldn't finish Hauptschule and can't get a job because he doesn't have a leaving certificate then it's the fault of immigrants. How dare those immigrants have a leaving certificate, maybe even a degree?!? I have always been of the belief that if you're unhappy with your life, it's for you to get off your ass and make changes, but I guess for many people it's just way easier to blame someone else and to complain about the government not doing enough for them...

Anyway, thanks for your comment :) I hope you had lovely holidays with your loved ones! 

Thanks for your comment! I am glad you liked the chapter :)

They all deserved some good news after everything they've been through already!

Yes, this chapter was to show that it's not only hard for Brian, but for Justin as well and unfortunately, this was not the last time he will feel torn between being there for Brian and being there for his children. It's not an easy situation for anyone involved :(

I am glad you liked Justin going back to the hospital - it was really the only thing that worked in my mind when I thought about the night before the surgery. 

Being confronted by your own mortality makes you look back on life and brings your regrets to the forefront of your mind - poor Brian. Guilt is the last thing he needs on top of everything else, so it's a good thing that Justin immediately tried to dispel those feelings.

I like that the family is there for Justin - it shows how much they have all grown in recent years and how much they have all changed from what they were like at the beginning of this universe. They are a strong, united family unit now which is exactly what Brian, Justin and the boys will need to make it through this ordeal. 

Oh, I love the Toten Hosen. I grew up with their music and Die Ärzte. Loved Campino soooo much and think he has a really charismatic voice. I really like their music and appreciate all their Anti-Nazi work! 

I totally understand what you're saying about the AFD. It scares me shitless to see 23% of people in certain states voting for a right wing party. I can only shake my head and ask myself if they really went through the same school system I went through... Because if there is one thing I learned over and over in school it's: Nazis bad!

I am from a town called Nordhorn in the Grafschaft Bentheim in the North-West on the Dutch border. I went to University in Osnabrück which is about 80km away and the biggest town in our area. It's really the middle of nowhere *lol* 

Thankfully the AFD only barely managed to make the 5% mark in our area and Münster, the only district in Germany where they didn't make the 5% in the last general election is very close by as well which made me kind of proud *lol* In our area the AFD isn't a big problem, but I have a cousin living in Halle/Saale and the things she tells me, it's scary... Scary times all over the world it seems :(

Well, more will be up tomorrow, hopefully that will give us a distraction from the sad state of reality for a while ;)

Yes, it was a first glimpse of how hard this whole ordeal will not only be for Brian, but for Justin as well. This won't be the last time Justin will feel torn between his need to be there for Brian and his children. It is a really hard time for all of them :(

I don't think they would need hotels with Brian being in a local hospital. Everyone lives in the area and Pittsburgh is not that big and Britin not that far away. At least in my mind ;)

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Awww, thank you :)

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