[Report This]Date: Mar 22, 2021 3:00 pm Title: Chapter 5
The reunion went well. Didn't they think Brian was died?
Author's Response:
Yes, everyone thought Brian had been killed in an attempt to flee from Gilead :(
Date: Feb 10, 2021 3:01 pm Title: Chapter 5
Oh, I'm so glad you changed the June-Luke-Nick-storyline a little bit. As you know, (I think we've already written about this...) I also can't stand having Brian in a "serious" relationship with another man. For me, in my imagination, that's just not possible and so far no author, who had written Brian in a relationship with someone else couldn't convince me about the reasons... I just don't feel it and it's fiction, so I also just don't want to imagine it. Normally I try to stay away from those stories but sometimes I just can't help myself and then I get angry most of all with myself (and maybe a little bit with the author :-) )
I felt so sorry for Emily because she was finally free, but you had the feeling that she couldn't cope with this situation at all ... She was so cautious about her son... She missed so much of his development... So, thanks for this chapter! That was such a heartbreaking moment between Brian and Gus, and I'm glad Brian was able to show his feelings in such a way, that he could cry, that he could show his pain but also his deep relief. I could also well understand Gus' doubts and fears ... That he felt somehow guilty, that he was better off. But with the sentence „it made everything in the last five years worth it" (even only in Brian‘s thoughts) you explained very well, that Brian could never even think about blaming Justin or Gus.
So, thanks for another great chapter. I‘m so curious what will happen and what happened! Looking forward to Sunday! Warmest regards and stay healthy!
Author's Response:
Haha, I totally agree about Brian being with someone else. It just doesn't work for me. Justin with someone else? Sure, why not? I can do that... but Brian? Nope, Justin is the one and if Justin is not around, Brian will have a sad and lonely existence. I am evil like that ;)
And to be fair, a concentration camp in Gilead isn't really the right place to find a gay lover... so the circumstances of this story dictated that it had to be Justin who would find a new love, not Brian.
After five years of being apart, Brian was on an emotional rollercoaster. So much has happened to him, so much he missed in Gus' life, so many worries and so much fear that they wouldn't be okay. I wanted to show the emotional turmoil he had been in for years that all came to the surface now that he was finally reunited with the two most important people of his life.
As for Gus, I really wanted to show that he's on an emotional rollercoaster as well. Everything that has happened in the last couple of days affects not only Brian and Justin (and Ethan by extension), but Gus as well. And poor Gus, still remembering some of what life in Gilead was like, then hearing more from Justin so he would be prepared if Brian might be cold/distant with him... No surprise he developed a case of cold feet due to survivor's guilt.
But Justin is right: Brian would never blame him! Brian would never be angry with Gus for having been safe. Brian made a sacrifice so Gus would be safe (we'll find out more about the details very soon) and to Brian it all paid off and it was all worth it. Gus and Justin were safe and that was all that ever mattered to him.
I know what you mean about Emily - I felt so bad for her as well. And I couldn't blame her for being so cautious around her son. He was way younger, didn't even really remember her only what his mother told him about her, only remembered her from images. At least Gus knows and remembers Brian which will make for a different kind of reunion.
It will be interesting to see how Brian's relationship with Gus and also with Justin will develop... we are getting closer to Brian finding out about Ethan and that will definitely change things :(
Thanks for your comment. As always, it's much appreciated :) More will be up tomorrow!