Reviewer: aglaja5 Signed [Report This]
Date: Mar 29, 2021 7:44 am Title: Chapter 12

Hej there! Yes, I'm also slowly don't understand our politicians no more. But it already started for me with the penultimate conference of the "Länderchefs". And I believe that if Merkel had her way, we would have a much tougher lockdown here in Germany. I'm definitely not a CDU voter, but I don't envy her for her job at the moment. Last week, after she apologized, I looked at how she faced the questions in the Bundestag. There is simply no such thing as one solution. Just one example: On the one hand she was reproached for taking on so many new debts, on the other hand she was asked where the money was for the people. We have a federal state system. If she would abolish the power of the Bundesländer, she would be accused of transforming Germany into a dictatorship .... I really think it's not so easy and as you said, we have a "Superwahljahr". But it's getting more and more annoying. And most of all, I was annoyed that you can't visit relatives in Germany, but we could all get on the plane and meet at Mallorca...

So, this chapter... The beginning was just how I imagined it :-) Then, I got a little bit angry with Justin again. Okay, I can understand that he's maybe a little bit angry at Brian for not considering that something like this could happen, but I wish he would be a little bit more concerned and not angry. I wish he would have spend more time with Brian and maybe helped him already. Justin in particular should know how one can suffer after traumatic experiences. And even if he's in a different relationship right now, I didn't think he'd leave Brian alone like that. And even if he doesn't yet know exactly what Brian had to go through in Gilead, he must realize that it was nothing nice. Ahrggg. Then finally you gave us a little moment... A little prove that there's still something there, so thanks for the little break, I needed this, but to be honest, I'm a little bit disappointed about Justin again. It shouldn't be Brian‘s naked body which confuses Justin... :-) (but who wouldn't be...) ... it should be Brian! But no, Justin, meanwhile, has fun with Ethan instead of worrying about the man he loved dearly and who risked his life for him and Gus, who was punished for allowing them to escape successfully and live a carefree life in Canada (with Brian's money). And now I fear Justin will try either to forbid Brian to have Gus overnight or to put pressure on him to start a therapy. I can only hope that Justin will talk to Ethan about it and that Ethan will continue to be the voice of reason and keep Justin from exerting too much pressure. That wouldn't work well on Brian and would probably aggravate the situation. Really exciting story (even if it comes a little bit at the expense of Justin's character ;-) ) And by the way, my heart is breaking a little bit imagining Brian calling Justin still "sunshine" Really looking forward to Sunday, stay healthy and warmest regards!

Author's Response:

I totally agree with what you said about Angela Merkel - I wouldn't want to be her either. It is so obvious that she wants tougher measures but that the "Länderchefs" are stopping her. What a way to end her 16-year chancellorship. I am sure she would have loved a more quiet last year ;)

Don't worry - you can be angry with Justin all you want. He deserves it in this story. After making Brian the bad guy in the Back for Good universe, I thought Justin deserved to be the bad guy as well for once ;) Kidding! 

I know that Justin's actions are hard to understand and seem very unlike Justin right now, but I think at the moment he's just really overwhelmed by Brian's reappearance. Is that an excuse for his behaviour? No way... But he has been through very traumatic experiences as well, they all have been and this is just a new shock on top of everything else and I think in his mind he's trying to deal with it as best as he can.

He probably really thinks that he's making things easier for Brian by staying away and not pushing his new relationship with Ethan and the fact that they are not a couple any longer and won't be one in Brian's face. I don't think he has bad intentions, he's just overwhelmed by what's going on and making very unfortunate decisions...

That scene between Brian and Justin after they left the bedroom... other scenes before... I think we all know how Justin really feels about Brian. The question is: Will he admit it to himself? And if yes: When?  

Until then Justin will do what he has done for years and will focus on Gus' well-being and will make Gus his priority. It will give him something to focus on so he won't have to confront his own feelings for Brian and Ethan. Will that lead to more trouble? Most likely... 

We all know how Brian feels about Justin, the question is: How much of Justin's behaviour can he take before it will be too much? After everything he has been through... after everything he has most likely hoped and dreamed for only to now find a completely different reality to that... 

I know this is not an easy, happy story, so thanks for giving it a chance anyway and for staying with it :) I promise things will get better... after they get worse... but they will get better :) 

As always I really appreciate your thoughtful comment! Thanks for taking the time to share your feedback. It means the world to me :) 

More will be up later tonight. Have a happy Easter and stay safe :)