ASHES TO AUTUMN



Part seven: I'm The Best At Ruining My Life aka The Kiss

BALLS!!!  Well the kid did it he weaseled his way into Vangard and got Brian's briefs in a twist.  Then the kiss oh god that kiss. So what did he do he fired Justin's ass. Shit Asshole He had Justin right there so close and he fucked up again, his fucking pride.

He licked his lips he could still taste Justin as his cock stiffened Brian moaned out loud then shouted, "Asshole".  How many more mistakes will he make?

Thinking quick on his feet and hoping Justin's balls got as big as he thought they did Brian thought he might still have a chance.  Brian quickly highlighted the song that represented his last chance with Justin.

As Justin was stepping into the elevator Brian caught up to him reaching for the strap on Justin's bag he pulled the boy to the elevator door and placed the abused booklet into Justin's hand and then pushed him back into the elevator.

Brian watched the doors close and prayed he still had a chance.

Justin could barely wait till he got outside most of the songs had been marked Justin couldn't think of anyone left but there it was on the last page.

I'm The Best At Ruining My Life

I've boarded up the windows to keep the morning from intrusion
I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of
bed
When nothing falls in favor of
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to communicate
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin
Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant
So now I've blown it once again, this would have been the last
offense and
You should have been here months ago with open arms and honest face
Address full doubt you've ever felt frustration well I'm
choking on
it now
And it's the hardest thing for me to shake
Is it because of this vacancy that you swear never to believe?
Honestly honest me, with a look that's so deceiving
I'll bite chew swallow and digest the hands that feed me
With a bayonet for a tongue,
Swallow swords inadvertently,
And to the organ flame I'll maintain a close adjacency
I have so many themes; I would love to explain to you
Farewell to all the days you were, within my reach, and as of right
now everything is making perfect sense

Still tasting Brian on his lips Justin knew he had a chance.  This time he wasn't going to blow it and he refused to allow Brian's pride to get in the way of either of them.

Justin would arrange a meeting.



End of part seven.