TITLE – Time doesn’t heal all wounds

SUMMERY – A short take on what happens after Brian and Michael’s fight

RATING – MA – Adult content and language

SPOILERS - None

DISCLAIMER – All rights are the property of showtime. I made no profit from this

COMPLEATE – YES

WORDS – 1,895

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Forgive, sounds good/Forget, I'm not sure I could/They say, time heals everything/But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt/There's nothing left for me to figure out/I've paid a price/And I'll keep paying it

I'm not ready to make nice/I'm not ready to back down/I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time/To go round and round and round

It's too late to make it right/I probably wouldn't if I could/Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself/To do what it is you think I should

I know you said/Can't you just get over it?/It turned my whole world around/And I kinda like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby/With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'/It's a sad, sad story when a mother will teach her/Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger/And how in the world can the words that I said/Send somebody so over the edge/That they'd write me a letter sayin' that I better Shut up and sing or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice/I'm not ready to back down/I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time/To go round and round and round

It's too late to make it right/I probably wouldn't if I could/Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself/To do what it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice/I'm not ready to back down/I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time/To go round and round and round

It's too late to make it right/I probably wouldn't if I could/Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself/To do what it is you think I should

What it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good/Forget, I'm not sure I could/They say time heals everything/But I'm still waiting (Dixie Chicks – Not ready to make nice)

-Time doesn’t heal all wounds-

Justin turned to return to the bedroom he was staying in after witnessing Brian and Michael’s blow out downstairs, but before he reached the door he came face to face with an equally tired Ben leaning against the wall with his eyes closed, as he felt Justin’s presence he opened them and regarded the blonde man looking …lost.

‘Justin…’

‘Ben please…just…don’t. He made his choice. He has to live with them’

‘He loves you’

‘He’s got a hell-of-a way of showing it’

‘In the time I’ve known you Justin, I’ve never known you to give up so easily. He may be drunk but…’ Michael came back up the stairs carrying 3 cups of coffee and they each took one

‘Justin. I know I’ve not always been your personal cheer squad…’ Justin snorts ‘ BUT, that asshole deserves so much better then you. I’ve known him practically my whole life and he’s never gonna change. He’s still the abused kid with a chip on his shoulder. But you have matured beyond him’

‘I didn’t have a choice Michael’ he sips his coffee. ‘Maybe I should have listened to you from the start and just moved on after that night’

‘But you didn’t you obnoxious little twink’

‘Michael’ ben scalds his husband. Justin raises his free hand to placate them.

‘I was Ben. I wouldn’t listen. But I am now. It’s time I woke up and move on. But now I need sleep. I have a long flight tomorrow’

‘New York’

‘New York’

Justin didn’t know if he’d actually slept at all after that. But when his conscious registered his alarm clock buzzing, he turned over warily and swiped in the vicinity of the noise. The buzzing stopped and he took a deep breath, stretching out his long limbs till his back cracked. His eyes fluttered open, and he squinted for a minute to let his eyes adjust. A blurry shape started to form in his head, and he suddenly bolted up in bed recognizing the man seated in the tub chair watching him.

‘The fuck are you doing here?!’ he hissed

‘Couldn’t let you go fly away without seeing you a last time’

‘You do realize you’re trespassing?’

‘How’s that now?’ It took everything for Justin not to scream right then. He forced himself to whisper

‘This is Michael and Ben’s house! You’re not fucking invited!’ Justin throws the sheets back, and stands up. Making his way to the attached Ensuite – thanks Ben- he strips off his shorts. He KNEW Brian followed him in, and turned to glare at the man he was now eye to eye with and shut the door

‘I thought I made it clear in the loft what I needed’

‘You did. I don’t accept it’

‘You don’t really get a say here Brian. I waited for years to hear you say you loved me. And I KNOW you do. But I’m done waiting! I love you. But I can’t be with someone anymore who’s so emotionally stunted he can’t see what’s right in front of him.’ Justin twists to turn the water on then faced Brian again

‘Never mind your drunken speech last night about my visions of white picket fences and children and whatever the fuck else you were spouting about. But the real issue here is you don’t want to change. You’re so bent on being ‘Brian Fucking Kinney – King of Liberty’ no one else matters’ For the first time, Justin realized then that Brian had stripped off to nothing. Huffing, Justin steps into the shower and begins to wet his hair. Brian steps in behind him and closes the screen

‘That’s not who I am’

‘I know! We ALL know’ Brian grabs the soap and begins to get a lather in his hands. He forces Justin to turn so they’re back to chest. Using his thumbs he presses into the tense muscles beneath Justin’s shoulders and in towards his spine. Concentrating on each vertebra on his way down. Justin couldn’t help the sigh escaping him, and let his head roll back onto Brian’s shoulder. The sensations automatically arousing him and his dick twitched defying his current annoyance at the man he tried to forget was there.

Brian’s skilled hands had reached Justin’s butt and he took a globe in each hand and squeezed eliciting an actuall moan from the blonde.

‘God, I’m gonna miss this’

‘Shut up Kinney and fuck me already’ Brian growled deep in his throat. The noise sending chills down Justin’s spine to his ass. He tilted his hips back and came in contact with Brian’s already hard erection

Brian began to prepare him. Much as he wouldn’t admit it out loud, he did love this man that had taught him the most important lesson parents should teach their kids. How to love. His own parents had been …No not now. Now he just needed this moment. Needed the warmth of flesh on hard flesh, and to feel the softness around him he couldn’t bare to live without.

Gently he pushed in. Breached the tight ring and sunk into a heat so hot he felt like he‘d burn

‘God Brian!…’

‘Shh. Don’t speak’ He didn’t thrust. Just kept himself buried for a minute. Wrapping his arms round Justin’s lithe frame, he pulled him in as tight to him as he could

‘I don’t want you to go. I never did’ he whispered in the ear so close to his lips, before sucking on the ear lobe

Slowly he began to pull out, but before the last inch came out he snapped his hips and roughly thrust back in again. Justin grunted as his body was jolted by the force. Brian repeated this. Out painfully slowly, then back in again with force. With each thrust both men became more aroused, and Brian’s steady rhythm became erratic. Justin gripped his own cock and began to pump in time with Brian

‘F Fuck…cum inside me Brian’ The thrusts became truly frantic now and in five more slams of flesh to wet flesh, he emptied a hot stream of his seed into the body of the man he loved with a muted growl.

‘This doesn’t negate our issues Brian’ Justin panted and rested his forehead against the glass, only to be turned around, and his hand slapped away from his dick to be replaced with Brian’s mouth. His fingers grasped the head bobbing up and down, closed his eyes, and arched his back as he in turn emptied himself deep down Brian’s throat.

The brunette stood then and kissed him. Deep and hard.

A song began to play on the radio in the bathroom, and Justin inwardly rolled his eyes at the irony

Now and then I think of when we were together /Like when you said you felt so happy you could die

Told myself that you were right for me/But felt so lonely in your company/But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness/Like resignation to the end, always the end

So when we found that we could not make sense/Well you said that we would still be friends

But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off/Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love/But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low/Have your friends collect your records and then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though/Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know/Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over/But had me believing it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way/Reading into every word you say/You said that you could let it go

And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off/Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love/But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low/Have your friends collect your records and then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though/Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody (I used to know)

(Somebody) Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody (I used to know)

(Somebody) Now you're just somebody that I used to know

I used to know, that I used to know, I used to know somebody (Gotye)

After they’d dried off Brian tried to hold the naked form to him for as long as possible. Not caring that their skin was beginning to chill

‘Don’t go’

‘I have to’

‘Would it change anything if I said it?’ Justin looked into those deep hazel eyes with unshed tears and felt a pang of regret

‘You could. But it wouldn’t change anything. I…I don’t want you to change who you are, to be with me’

‘Justin…’

‘You don’t do love Brian. Or relationships. Congratulations’

‘What for?’

‘For turning me into the best homosexual I could be’ He pulled out Brian’s arms and began to dress

‘Now, get the fuck out before Ben …or Michael find you. Cause god help me if you stay another minute, I couldn’t leave’

‘Please, sunshine’ Brian’s heart felt like it had shattered. Justin turned his back on the man he loved and closed his eyes tight on the silent tears that escaped them

Brian sat in the lounge at the airport watching as the plane slowly taxied down the tarmac. Bourbon in his right hand he sipped as the aircraft’s nose began to tilt and then lift. The wheels left the ground, and the jet climbed ever higher.

End