Chapter 7

Luke pulled out of the drive and moved down the road.   “Justin, what is it?”

“Luke you may not believe this but I just felt something happen.  I hurt and then there was so much fear.”

“You had a premonition.”

“Yes, I need to find him.  Please, Luke we have to find him. You believe me?”

“When you love someone, like you love Brian I believe anything. You may not be able to tell but it is the same with my Maria and me. When our first child came, I knew before I got a call that she was in labor. We will find him.”

They had only gone about another three miles before they found a broken rail along the road. Luke pulled over and ordered Justin to stay where he was. Luke looked over the edge and rushed back. He was already on his cell phone and was grabbing a rope out of the back.

“What is it, Luke? Is he….?”

“The SUV is hanging there. I can’t see if he is injured but he is not responding. I would put a hook on the car but I don’t think I can scale down there to secure it.”

Before Luke could stop him, Justin grabbed the hook at the front of the jeep. Justin looked over the side and saw the vehicle. “Brian, I’m coming! Don’t move.” As he worked his way down the side using the hook for a little support. Every so often Justin would call out to Brian again. It didn’t take him long to get there and put the hook around the axle. He started to move toward Brian but Luke stopped him.

“Justin, that is too risky and remember you have children. You have done everything you can for Brian. The rescue squad will be here soon.” Luke helped him up the last few feet and put an arm around him. “I hear them coming.” At that point Justin just shut down. He stopped calling out to him. He stood there staring at the vehicle trying to ‘feel’ Brian.

The rescue squad arrived. Rather than trying to get Brian out they decided it made more sense to pull the vehicle out. They got another hook attached and they pulled the SUV out slowly. As it was moved back onto the road Justin didn’t dare move toward it. Luke leaned over to Justin. “Breath. Take a deep breath.”

The rescuer who was at Brian’s side gave him a thumbs up and soon Justin could see Brian moving. Justin rushed to his side. “Oh Brian,” One of Brian’s eyes was nearly swollen shut.

“Hey, Sunshine.” He gave him a smile. “Did I miss the dog?”

Justin took his hand. He wanted to kiss him so badly but he was trying to stay out of the way of the worker. As they took off his shirt, Brian’s chest was full of bruises. Justin realized that’s what caused his pain in the studio. It must have been the moment of impact. “Oh, Baby!”

“Sunshine, I am fine,” he squeezed Justin’s hand. “I just can’t do any heavy lifting for a few days.”

“Senior,” the rescuer began. He must of realized Brian didn’t understand Spanish so he didn’t say anything else. Using motions and assistance, Brian’s feet were on the ground. The medic spoke quickly to Luke and Luke translated.

“He says Brian has no major injuries.  It is up to you if you want to go to the hospital. He is going to wrap your ribs in case one is cracked but he is sure they are just bruised. He thinks you may have a slight concussion but they can’t do anything. He said he needs to be watched closely and stay awake for the rest of the day. If he doesn’t act oddly he is probably fine. Just go to your doctor when you go home.” That was Luke’s personal comment. “These guys are well trained but I am sure the U.S. has better testing.  

Justin was still in a bit of a fog so Brian took charge. “Ask him to wrap me and, Luke, can you take care of the vehicle.”

“Yes, sir. Let me make a call and then I will drive you home.”

“Oh, Luke, tell him I need a second with Justin.” Luke spoke to the worker and he walked over to the ambulance. Brian pulled Justin over to him and, moving very slowly, kissed him. “I am fine, Justin.”

The kiss seemed to snap him out of it and the tears began to flow.  “I was so worried. I knew something had happened. I felt it but I didn’t know what had happened and I didn’t know where you were.” Justin kissed him deeply. “You scared me so bad!”

“I scared myself, too. We will talk more as soon as we get home.” He gently pressed an ice pack against his swollen face.

“I’ll call Gus.” Justin began to pull out his phone.

“No,” Brian said quickly. “I’m fine and Gus needs time with Jamie. Please?”

“Ok, as long as you don’t have anything else show up. I love you so much. I just can’t….”

Luke walked over and guided Justin away. “The quicker he can get those ribs wrapped the quicker we can get him home.” Justin nodded and moved away.

In a few minutes Justin and Brian were in the back of Luke’s Jeep and they were heading down the road. Brian was slumped against Justin for a little more balance in the open vehicle. Justin gently held him.  Brian began to kiss him, and Justin needed to feel his lips. “You are not allowed to leave my sight for at least a year.  My heart can’t take it.”

Brian withdrew a little. “We better…..we are almost home. Let’s relax until we get there.” He again put the ice on his face. He was having a hard time focusing but that was probably because he was unable to open his on eye. “How do you think Brinn is going to react to this?”

“Brinn will believe anything we tell her about this. We don’t lie to her. You were in an accident. You are safe but have some bruises. She’ll give you a kiss and do anything for you that you ask. Of course, she will worry since she is my daughter.” Justin shivered a bit. “A dog, really, you risked your life for a dog!” Justin wanted to hit him. “You almost went over a cliff for a dog? You know I like animals but….seriously?”

As they arrived at the villa Justin helped support Brian as they walked to the door. With an arm around his waist, Justin supported Brian as he walked. After he got him into a chair, he grabbed a new ice pack for him. Within the next hour a prescription should be arriving for pain so for now ice was all they had. The pain may at least help him stay awake.

After getting Brian as comfortable as he could, Justin went out to prepare Brinn. Brian did look terrible with his eye swollen shut and turning purple. The color matched half of Brian’s chest.

“Daddy, are you coming to swim?” Brinn ran over and hugged him, getting him wet on purpose.

“I need to talk with you a minute, Sweetheart. Bianca, if you want to leave for the day you may. If you want to stay, that’s fine, too.”

“Thank you, Justin. I will see if Maria can use my help.”

Brinn was already looking at Justin with her big, blue eyes. “Daddy, sit down right now and tell me what happened.”

Justin sat and pulled Brinn onto his lap. “Brinny, I want you to listen to everything I am going to tell you. Your dad is going to be fine, but he was in an accident and he hit his head on the steering wheel.” He left out that he was hanging over a cliff at the time. “And that steering wheel gave him a black eye and he has quite a few bruises on his chest, too. So he looks bad, and he does have quite a bit of pain, he will be just fine in a few days.”

“Well, I better go kiss his booboos and see if I can get him anything,” and off she went. “Oh, Daddy?” She came back and gave Justin a big kiss on the lips. “Thank you for not treating me like a baby,” and off she went.

Brinn walked around to face Brian. For a second she looked a little scared but then she stood up straight and smiled at Brian. “Hi, Dad. It looks like you had a bad day. Would a kiss help?”

“A kiss can make everything better if it is from you, Sweetie? But please love your dad softly.”

“Can I see your tummy, Dad?”

Brian started opening the buttons on his shirt.He noticed a little blood on it. His nose must have bled a bit when he hit the steering wheel. His chest had gotten more colorful as time went on. “Sweetheart, I really could use some help. Could you help me take this shirt off? This one got a little dirty.”

“Sure, Daddy, I will help,” Brinn rarely called him that. He could see the worry in her eyes. As soon as she got the shirt off him with his help he held her close.

“I could use that kiss now and a gentle hug if you have one to spare.” Brinn carefully got on her knees next to Brian on the couch and kissed him while draping her arms around him.

“I won’t break, Sweetie.” She tightened her hold on his neck very careful of his eye. Brian blinked rapidly hoping his vision would clear up. He was sure once the swelling went down he would be fine. “My legs don’t hurt at all. Why don’t you sit here for a bit? I could use another kiss or two.” Brinn ended up snuggling against him with her head under his chin. “I love you so much, Sweetheart.”

“I love you, too, Dad. I am so glad you aren’t hurt badly. Shouldn’t we call Gus?”

“Your brother needs a little time with his friend. We will talk to him in the morning. If it was serious we would have told him but he had special plans and we didn’t want to worry him about me.”

“Ok, but you or Daddy are going to tell him in the morning?”

“Yes, I promise!’ Could you go get me some water and then maybe you can paint a picture for Gus’ friend.”

“Are you getting tired, Dad?”  

“I am a bit and I think I need to walk a bit because my muscles are getting tight. You go grab that bottle of water and then could you check if Bianca is around to stay with you while your daddy takes me for a walk?”

Brinn laughed, “That sounds like you are a dog, Dad.”

“Funny, Brinn. Let Bianca know we are going to take a short walk and then use our hot tub to help my muscles.”

Brinn nodded and was off. She brought him his water and out of the corner of his eye he saw her talking to Bianca.

Justin walked up. “I hear you want to take a little walk?”  

“I need to stretch and then maybe get in the hot tub. What I really need is to feel you from the inside. I was rushing to screw your brains out when the accident happened. You should have seen them together. They were so hot together.”

Before they were all the way out the door Brian’s hands were down Justin’s shorts. “Um, Brian it is really hard to walk this way and OH your chest is getting so bruised.” As his hands trailed over the bruises his mouth began to follow.

“Let’s fuck the walk. I want to get in the hot tub and I want you to sit on my lap and ride me….”

Justin’s mouth began devouring Brian’s. “Do you know how mad I am at you. And the tears began to fall. “I do want you inside me.”

They skirted around the outside of the villa and into their private patio. Brian slipped out of his pants and then started to pull off Justin’s T-Shirt but when Brian began to reach up he winced. Justin finished removing it and then dropped his shorts. Brian caught the leg of a chair as he walked toward the hot tub. “Damn!”

“Trying for a broken foot?” Justin smiled up at him and saw the concern on his face “Baby, are you alright?”

“Ya, with a useless eye it is throwing off my depth perception. More reason to hang on to you,” Brian grabbed onto him. He looked at that perfect face that was so blurry now but he had no trouble finding his mouth. Justin was ready for him.

“Water, now.” Was all Brian said and both of them sat in the hot water clinging to each other.  

Brian and Justin spent a majority of the night making love and just holding each other thinking about what could have been.”

Gus and Jamie had made love through the day and night. As the sun rose, Gus looked at Jamie. “I want to try it again, if you want to, anyway.”

“Are you sure, Gus? I mean I can tell you still are hurting a little.”

“I can’t imagine how you feel all the time. I mean I have been up your ass so many times I can’t imagine how you can function from the pain.”

“It doesn’t hurt that much anymore. After the entry, I just think about how amazing it feels to have that strong, thick, cock so far up that tight canal.” Jamie was rubbing his cock already and it was getting hard, quick.

“Let’s try another position. Maybe that will work better for you. For some guys all fours is more comfortable. It is a straighter path.”

Gus got on his hands and knees on the bed. Jamie began with his tongue. He rimmed him until he was nearly crazy and then Jamie began using his fingers, first one and then two, giving his prostate a massage the whole time. He started giving Gus Jamie slipped on a condom and smeared lube on himself and then slid three lube covered fingers as deep as he could reach. Gus was looser than the night before. Jamie began pushing in and Gus dropped his head down and did his best not to tighten up this time. He focused on breathing as Jamie continued to move forward. The pain hit him in waves again as Jamie proceeded but it was more like a slow steady  tide rather than the crashing of a storm. Jamie got into a rhythm and Gus started shivering as he felt fire begin deep inside him. “Oh, god, Jamie. I know now why... you….”

Jamie reached around and grabbed Gus’ penis and pulled harder than Gus expected but he instantly shouted out as he orgasmed over and over. Gus’ convulsions set Jamie off the cliff with him. They both dropped to the bed.

“Ok, that was crazy good. I maybe can see why…”

“Why I need that big, cock of yours buried in me?”

“Come on, Jamie, I know you have been with plenty of guys.”

“I have but you just have a way about you. After meeting your Pops, I think I might see where that special something comes from.”

“Wait until you meet my dad. He is amazing, too.” Gus pulled Jamie’s hand to his mouth and kissed it. He then began to gently suck on the tip of each finger one at a time. When he had finished with one hand he moved and pulled the other hand into his mouth. He sucked and drug his teeth over each tip. Soon Jamie was thrashing on the bed.

“Please, Gus, now, I want you now.”

“Oh, I think I can do better than that yet.” Gus pulled him so his ass was hanging on the side of the bed. He put Jamie’s feet back up on the bed and spread his legs far apart leaving his ass spread wide. Gus dropped to the floor and continued driving Jamie to insanity. By the time they crawled under the covers both men were tired, sore, but so happy.

Justin had finally let Brian go to sleep about 4:00 am but now that is was 8:00 he thought he had to call Gus. He had to know how it went and he knew his son was not a late sleeper.

Justin grabbed a cup of coffee and went out on the patio.  The phone barely rang before Gus picked it up. “Hey, Dad. Morning.”

“Morning, Gus. Are you having a good time with Jamie?”  

“Really, Dad? Are you asking about my sex life?”

“Well, I... might be. I am just checking up to make sure all went well.”

“Dad, have I told you how much I love you lately?”

“Well, what brought that on?”

“I know how often you and Pops have sex. Well, I guess I don’t know exactly how often but you are just amazing.”

“I love you, too, Gus, and anytime you want to really talk about that I would be glad to talk to you about it. Now, besides just being nosy I need to tell you something. Your dad was in an accident on his way home. Obviously he is alright or I would have called you yesterday. He is a bit banged up. He has a nasty black eye and his chest is bruised from the seatbelt. I had to keep him up most of the night.”

“Oh, I bet that was a hardship for you.” Justin could hear the smile in Gus’ voice.  

“It was a very pleasant night although he  was in pain and a lot of the night we just talked and played a bit. He took a painkiller so then he wanted to sleep but he wasn’t allowed. I plan to take a nap and sleep later. Hopefully, your beautiful father will join me for an actual nap. I’m sorry but I have to ask.” Justin heard some noise on Gus’ phone and then he could hear the ocean.

“Honestly, I thought I was going to die the first time. I had never felt such pain but later when we did it again it was amazing. Jamie was so patient and careful.”

“If I didn’t know better I would say you are in love with him.”

“I love him but I am too young to be in love. You are the only one I know who has been in love since 17. And as great as it felt the second time, I’m not sure I could do it often.”

“Gus I am proud that you were brave enough to try it and not only once but twice. But I better go check on your dad. Love you, Gus, and I will see you tomorrow morning about 10:00. Can’t wait to really meet Jamie. See you tomorrow.”

Brian slept until noon, with Justin checking on him frequently. Bianca took Brinn for a day of adventure. They were exploring many of Bianca’s childhood favorites and it got her out of the house and away from worrying about her dad.

After Brian and Justin had some lunch they both went back to bed. Brian’s pain pills made him very tired but also a little high. As Justin tried to nap, Brian wouldn’t leave him alone. Eventually, Justin made Brian turn away and he entered Brian quicker than usual. Brian’s eyes snapped open as he moaned, loudly. As Justin thrust hard and fast, he reached around and grabbed Brian’s rock hard dick. Justin thrust once more and bit Brian’s shoulder as they both climaxed. Justin didn’t move out of him. He wrapped his arm around Brian’s waist and stayed spooned with him buried deeply inside him.

“Now,” Justin said softly. “Let me sleep or I will punish you again.”

“You make me SO hot when you get forceful.” Brian could feel Justin inside him and wondered how Justin would react if he lost his vision. He pushed back against Justin, wanting to feel Justin move inside him. He loved this man so much. “I love you, Sunshine. Don’t ever leave me.”

Justin heard Brian’s whisper. Justin just figured the meds were making his mind wander. “I love you, too, Baby.”

Gus and Jamie spent the day in and out of the ocean and bed. They didn’t count how many times they had made love but by the time they put on clothes and went out for dinner they were both relaxed and physically exhausted. After eating they went back to their room and once more Gus felt Jamie enter him painfully but recognizing the pleasure at the same time. He knew he would never get used to it but he also knew if he was with the right person, like Jamie, he could do it and he could enjoy it and if nothing else, he found the effect his prostate had on him and it was all worth it. He would take that intrusion any time.

The young men fell into a deep sleep with the cool ocean breeze drifting over them.

Brian was still sleeping when Justin got up the next morning. He checked on Brinn who was also still asleep. He got some coffee and went out on the patio. There would only be a couple more mornings to do this before they went home. He looked out at the stunning view and thought about his family.  Brinn was half grown and Gus, whether he admitted it or not was in love with Jamie. And then there was his love. He couldn’t quite figure out what was bothering him about Brian but ever since the accident there was something different with him. He didn’t know why but he felt Brian was holding something back. He wasn’t sure what. Did the accident actually happen differently then he said? Was he in pain more than he should be? He would figure it out.

Justin was in his own world when arms came around his neck from behind and a sweet little voice said, “Good morning, Daddy?”

“Good morning, my love. Come give me a kiss.” Brinn walked around the chair and crawled into his lap, kissing him as she did so.”

“Are you getting excited about going home?”

“Oh, I am  but I will miss this. I like having you and Dad all to myself without work. Well, neither of you worked too much.”

“I am afraid you would get tired of us soon.” He hugged her tightly and then began to tickle her and her shrieks of laughter traveled through the air. After their play Justin glanced at his watch. “Oh, Sweetheart, I better go check on your dad. And then I will get you a little breakfast before I leave to get your brother.”

“I will go check on Dad,” she volunteered and she was off. She entered the master bedroom just in time to see her dad, in just his briefs, trip over a rug that was on the floor. He nearly hit the floor before he caught himself. Brinn giggled a little and ran over to Brian. “Dad, you have to be more careful.”

Brian recovered quickly, “Hey, Beautiful! Did your daddy send you in here?”

“He is making me some breakfast and then I will take care of you while he goes to get Gus and his friend.”

“Well, I will be in excellent hands. Since you want to be helpful, why don’t you grab my blue shorts out of the third drawer and a white polo, after a kiss and hug.” She hugged his waist and he bent down for a kiss. She then led him to a chair where he sat down and she got his clothes. “Thanks, Sweetie. You go get your breakfast. I will be out as soon as I get dressed. Tell your daddy to get a kiss ready for me.”

“Daddy always has a kiss for you.”

“Lucky me!” Brian smiled as she left the room.

Brinn ran out to Justin who was just setting a plate down for her. “Daddy, Dad was so silly. He almost fell tripping over a rug!” She giggled. “He is ok. He didn’t get hurt at all.”

“Well that’s good. His eye is getting better but it is still a little swollen.”

“I got his clothes for him so he should be right out. He said to have a kiss ready.”

“Why don’t you start eating and I will go give him that kiss he needs.”

“Just a kiss, Daddy! You have to go soon.”

Justin kissed the top of her head as he walked past and went into the bedroom. Brian was pulling the shirt on his head. “Are you alright? Brinn told me you almost fell.” Justin went over to him and straightened the collar of his shirt for him.  

Brian took advantage of his closeness and pulled him in nearer. The kiss was long and very distracting. By the time they separated, Justin could barely remember his name, let alone question Brian any further. “I would love to continue this but I have to go get Gus and Jamie. Maria, Bianca, or both will be here shortly. Can I trust you won’t fall into the pool?”

“We will stay in the house until someone else arrives.” He brought his lips back down to Justin’s neck. “Are you sure we don’t have time for…” his hand crept under Justin’s waistband.

Justin took a shuddering breath. “Give me a raincheck? God, I want you right now but it will have to wait.” Justin wiggled out of his arms. “I made you some breakfast. Come on and I will get you a cup of coffee before I leave.” Brian caught his hand as he walked away and followed along with him.

When Justin left for the village Brinn and Brian were sitting at the kitchen bar, eating chatting about the flight home in a few days.

As Justin drove past the site of the accident he held his breath. What if… No he wasn’t going to go there. Brian was at the villa and his bruises were already beginning to fade. Now he turned his attention to Gus and Jamie. He was excited to see their interaction. Justin would know how Gus really felt the minute he saw his face.  As he walked into the hotel he saw the two young men, each with an arm around the other looking out at the ocean. Justin walked up beside them and Gus instantly hugged him. “Hey, Dad, this is Jamie. Jamie this is my dad, Justin.” Justin hugged him and kissed both of his cheeks.

“I’m glad it worked for you to come visit. Gus has told me quite a bit about you.”

Jamie flushed. He was afraid Gus may have shared too much. “It is nice to meet you. I…” Jamie was a bit flustered. He looked into Justin’s blue eyes and that smile that lit the room and he had an instant crush. “I hope Gus hasn’t well, shared too much.”

“Oh Jamie, there is no such thing as too much in our family. I think he is very lucky to have found you. It is obvious you care about my son and would never hurt him and that makes you part of the family. Let’s head to the villa. Maria is planning on all of us for lunch and if we leave now you will have time to show Jamie your room. Of course if he prefers, there are spare rooms.”

“Funny, Dad.” Gus kissed him. Gus wrapped one arm around Jamie’s waist and the other around Justin’s and the left the hotel.

“Hey, Dad, how is Pops?”

“He’s a bit sore and I kind of think he is hiding something. You know him. He always thinks he has to hide things. And, Gus, just so you know, if he is doing something stupid I swear… you would think after almost 19 years he would know better.”

“You know Pops just can’t rely on anybody. Where did the accident happen?”

“It is up here a couple miles.”

“In the mountains?”

“Oh, ya, he was… sorry, I might have played it down a bit because I wanted you to enjoy your time.  He went over the edge and…”

As they came around the corner, the broken guardrail came into view. Justin pulled off on the side and they got out of the vehicle. They walked across the road and Gus stood there looking downward. “Oh, shit, he could have…”

“Ya, he could have. He wouldn’t respond when I called out to him. I felt a little better once I got the hook on the axle.”

“YOU DID WHAT?”

“I had to secure it in case it started slipping.”

Gus put his arms around Justin, “Dad, you should have told me it was that serious.”

“Everything turned out fine. Now if you want to tell me how fine it was with the two of you?” Justin tried to lighten the tone. “I just didn’t want you to worry, Gus. You were a stressed already.”

“I had no reason to be stressed. Jamie was amazing.” Gus kissed Jamie deeply but Jamie withdrew from his embrace. Gus smiled at him, “Jamie, you don’t have to be shy around my family. I know you can’t be open about it at your house but with us…”

Justin smiled at Jamie, “I take it you can’t be open at home?”

Jamie softly said, “No, my father doesn’t approve of my lifestyle.”

“Well, Jamie, when you are with us, other than boundaries around Brinn we have none. And Brinn is used to seeing physical touch, well, you know what would be appropriate with a seven year old.”

Jamie nodded. “Thank you. I can’t imagine being able to kiss Gus in front of my dad. I wish I could.” Jamie instinctively kissed Gus and the touch to Gus’ cheek was all Justin needed to know that they were in love.  

Once they arrived back at the villa, Gus introduced Jamie to Brinn. Brinn was her normal charming self and instantly won Jamie over. Gus asked where Brian was and Brinn said he was napping. Gus showed him where the room was. Once Jamie and Gus got to their room, Jamie claimed Gus’ lips and walked him backwards to the bed. He gave him a shove and Gus ended up on his back. Jamie pulled down Gus’ shorts and attached his mouth to Gus’ dick. He focused solely on Gus’ pleasure and soon Gus exploded in his mouth. Jamie moved to the bed and curled up next to Gus. I love my family but I am so jealous of your family dynamics. I wish I could tell my dad.”

Gus pulled him close. “You could always stay with us. My dads will love you. I love you.” Gus kissed him deeply. “I hope this doesn’t scare you off, but I am in love with you, Jamie.” Gus rolled to lay on him and soon he had positioned himself and then entered Jamie. “Jamie, I am so in love with you. Gus thrust several times and as Jamie wept, he softly said, “I’m in love with you, too, Gus. I never expected anyone to love me. My dad said no one would ever love me.”

“Your dad was so wrong. You are so amazing. I can’t imagine loving anyone else like I love…” Gus began thrusting over and over as he brought Jamie to a convulsive end. Gus held him tight. “I love you, Jamie, I am in love with you. Damn, I was not going to fall in love yet! But I am in love with you, Jamie.”

There was a knock on the door, “Gussy, can I come in? I painted a picture for Jamie.”

“Give us just a minute, Brinn.”

“Ya, get some clothes on. You are just like our dads. Let me know when I can come in.”

“Come in, Miss Thing.” Gus and Jamie had pulled on briefs and Brinn dropped in between them.  

“So, this is Jamie. He is very pretty. I can see why you like him.” Gus pulled her close.

"Jamie’s gorgeous looks has nothing to do with why I love him. I love him for his heart.”

“That’s good, Gussy.  If you love him, I love him.”  Brinn moved closer to Jamie and kissed his cheek. “I am glad you’re here, Jamie. You two better get dressed. It is almost lunch time. Maria made a lot of good stuff. Oh, Jamie, I painted this for you.” Brinn held out a canvas that looked remarkably like Gus.Once Jamie took it Brinn was gone.

Jamie looked at the painting while Gus looked over his shoulder. “Did she really paint this? It is amazingly good for a 7 year old.”

“Yes, she definitely got her dad’s talent.” Gus looked at Jamie’s surprised face.

“It is obvious which of you biologically belong to who but you are all a family. It doesn’t matter who came from who. I would love to see some of your dad’s work.”

“I am not sure if there is much here. He packed up what he worked on all summer but there are a few around the house. I’ll show you later. But, I think Brinn was right. Let’s get dressed. Maria will have lots of seafood and fruit and this amazing bread she makes. They got dressed and went out to the living room where Gus saw Brian. He came from behind and wrapped his arms around Brian’s neck. “Hey, Pops, glad to see you made it.” He walked around to the front and saw Brian’s face. “You don’t look so good.”

“Always a critic."

“I am so glad you are Ok, Pops.” Gus held him tight. “Love you.”

“I love you to, Gussy.” The rest of the day they all spent together. They did some swimming and played some games. Brian said he was tired when they started playing cards and Justin decided to rest with him.  

“Dad, Pops is not going to sleep if you go with him.”  

Justin looked over his shoulder and smiled at Gus. “But we will sleep well tonight.” He took Brian’s hand and led him to the bedroom. Gus and Jamie continued to play games with Brinn. Soon Brinn was sitting on Jamie’s lap  on the big lounger with Gus next to them. Jamie and Gus started stealing kisses as they all talked.

Out of nowhere, Bianca appeared. “Hey, Brinn, I was wondering if you could help me out. A friend and I were going to have a girl’s day but she backed out. I really could use a friend to do nails with and watch a girl’s movie. Could you join me?”

Brinn’s face lit up. “Gentlemen, if you will excuse me and tell my dads where I went I would appreciate it. Bianca, I will be right back. I want to get my favorite polish.

Gus touched Jamie’s arm and then walked over to Bianca. “Thank you, Bianca. We appreciate it and I am sure Brinn will have more fun with you than us.” He leaned down and kissed her, running his hand down her cheek. “You are good with this, right?”

“I am, Gus. You were straight with me and I understand. I do appreciate everything you taught me.” She glanced to make sure her aunt wasn’t looking and she kissed him once more. “Today is my last night here. I am off to school tomorrow. I am glad I met you, Gus Kinney.” She moved back into the house and took Brinn off for their girl’s night.

Gus went back to Jamie and sat next to him, pulling him close he kissed Jamie.  “That was Bianca?” Jamie asked?

“It was.”

“She is as stunning as you said she was, and you want to be with me?”

“She is a wonderful girl and she was very sweet, but I don’t love her.” Gus flipped straddling Jamie. “You on the other hand…” Soon the world was gone and it was just the two  of them.

Justin and Brian laid in bed getting their breath back. “I can’t seem to get enough of you knowing I almost lost you again.” Justin rolled into Brian and Brian held him tight. “I love you more each day but I feel like you are holding something back. Brian, what are you not telling me?”

“Justin, I had a pain in my back before leaving the airport but that has nothing to do with what happened.  I was lifting up Jamie’s bags when I just pulled something. What else could I be hiding?”

“Brian, the more you talk the more I feel like you are lying to me.  I love you. I will always love you, but if you are lying to me….”

“Justin, I...never mind..just kiss me.” Soon he was in Justin as deep as physically possible. And later, as Justin dozed off, Brian softly said, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”

Late afternoon, Gus and Jamie were in each other’s arms on the couch when Brian and Justin came out of their room. Justin kissed Brian and pushed him into the chair. “I am going to start dinner. I thought it would be fun to make dinner myself tonight. Gus, where is your sister?”

“Oh, she is having a girl’s afternoon with Bianca.”

Brian pulled out his phone and listened to a message while Gus followed Justin into the kitchen. When Brian got off the phone, he glanced over at Jamie, “Hey, Gus, I need to make a call. Let your dad know what I’m up to.” Jamie watched Brian walk down the hall dragging his hand along the wall the whole time. Gus helped Justin for a few minutes and then went back and sat next to Jamie.

“Hey, Gus, something weird happened while you were in the kitchen.”

“Weird how?”

“Brian thought I was you. I was reading this magazine and he answered a phone call. He then said to me, ‘Gus, tell your dad I’m making a phone call’. I don’t think he could see me.”

“Damn, that’s what he’s hiding. Dad is going to leave him….not right now but Pop is in so much shit.”

“I’m sorry, Gus, I thought you needed to know.”

Gus kissed him. “Thanks, I need to go find him. The longer he waits the madder Dad is going to be.”

Gus went down to the office where Brian  was still on the phone. Gus dropped into the chair.and stared at him. Brian wrapped up his call and looked at Gus.” Did you need something Gus?”

“Well, it would be ideal if my dads were together but when Dad realizes you have been lying to him, he is going to leave you. Oh he’ll wait until he knows you are doing better but he is leaving you for sure.” Gus watched Brian’s face fall and he circled the desk to hold him. “Pops, how bad is it?”

Brian grasped his son, “Everything is just blurry outlines. How did you figure it out?”

“You thought Jamie was me. I’m sorry, Pops. I really am but why did you lie to dad?”

“I didn’t mean to. It was just that he didn’t notice and… I don’t know, Gus. I just figured he didn’t need to worry about it. I kind of figured it would just go away before he noticed.”

“Pops, I love you, but you can be a real ass. He needs to know. I can tell him if you don’t want to but he needs to know. Tell him after Brinn goes to bed or I will tell him in the morning.” Gus walked out of the office as Brian’s head dropped to the desk.

When Brian came back to the living room he could see Gus,  Jamie, Brinn, and Justin. He now remembered what color Gus’ shirt was so at a glance he knew which was which if they weren’t talking. He walked over to Justin and wrapped his arms around Justin’s waist, letting his hand slip into Justin’s shorts. When he found what he was looking for Justin’s head went back to Brian’s shoulder.  

“Come on, guys, your children are here, your hungry children.

Justin kissed Brian and then pushed him lightly away. “Go wash your hands and come chop the salad.”

“Daddy, I can help!” Brinn piped.

“Why don’t you let your Dad do the shopping and you can do the tossing.”

Soon everyone was sitting around the table talking and laughing. Gus knew Brian was quieter than usual although he kept up enough not to draw attention to it but Gus figured if he noticed, his dad definitely did. Brinn showed off her painted nails and Jamie took special notice making her feel very special. There were only a couple nights left so they let Brinn stay up as late as she liked. She had climbed up on Brian’s lap about 10:30 and by 11:00 she was sleeping in her dad’s arms.

“Jamie, why don’t you pick Brinn up and we will bring her to her bedroom. My shoulder is a little sore. I think we overdid it last night.” Gus kissed Jamie and soon the two young men forgot they were in the living room.

“Um, guys?” Justin and Brian were both laughing.  

As Jamie picked up Brinn, Gus kissed Justin and then kissed Brian and softly whispered, “Tell him.” Gus put an arm around Jamie and they walked down the hall with Brinn.

Justin stood. “Where are you going?” Brian asked.

“I thought I would do a little cleaning in the kitchen.”

“Sunshine, we need to talk.”

“Talk?  Brian, this sounds serious.” Justin sat down on the couch close to the chair Brian was in.

“I, Gus…"

“Brian, what about Gus?”

“No, it isn’t anything about Gus. Justin, it’s me. Since the accident I haven’t been able to see normally. At first I thought it was just that my eye was swollen shut but it hasn’t gotten better. I can see shadows but no details.”

“Oh god, Brian, I knew you were hiding something. Why didn’t you tell me? You didn’t think I could take it? You didn’t think your vision was important? What if something was damaged that they could fix? You have delayed it days! What the hell were you thinking?” Justin got up and grabbed his cell phone.  

“What are you doing?”

“If you could see you would know I am calling the pilot and having switch our flight to tomorrow instead of two days from now. You need to see a specialist as soon as possible. Justin spoke to the pilot and then hung up. He started for the hall.

Brian stood and caught him as he was walking past. “Where are you going?”

“I’m going to start packing and then I am going to the guest room to sleep.” Justin pulled his arm from Brian’s grasp. “It’s been almost 19 years and you still can’t be honest with me. I guess I will never learn. You just don’t trust me or love me enough to tell the truth.”

“Justin, that isn’t it. You know I trust you with everything…”

“Brian, I knew you were hiding something and during dinner you were quiet but your sight? You didn’t think that was important enough to tell me about. Remember I am the person who promised to be with you forever, through everything but if you can’t... I’m going to go pack.”

Brian waited about 10 minutes before he went to the room. He didn’t know what to expect. He was almost hoping he would find Justin crying on the bed but if he was actually packing he was beyond talking to.

As Brian walked into the room, he heard Justin shutting a drawer. “I put some clothes out on the dresser that you can travel in tomorrow. I have the suitcases all together over by the chairs so don’t go over there or you will trip over them. The pilot will call but plan on leaving early afternoon. I will pack Brinn up in the morning and my paintings have already been moved to the airport thankfully.” Justin walked toward the door where Brian was still standing.

Brian reached out and touched his arm. “Justin, where are you going?”

“I’ll be in the guest room.”

“Sunshine, please…”

“Not now, Brian. I just can’t listen to your bullshit right now and I don’t have the energy for the fight it will cause.”

Gus lay in bed with Jamie but he was too distracted to even notice Jamie was trying to get his attention. Jamie finally turned Gus’ face to him and kissed him. “Go, check on them and come back and screw my brains out,” Jamie kissed him sweetly. “Your heart is one of the reasons I love you, not to mention that amazing cock you have.”  

Gus kissed him. “Thank you, Jamie.I will be glad to oblige when I come back.”

Gus entered the master bedroom and glanced to see who was in the bed. He was surprised to see the bed empty. He glanced out the door to the patio and saw Brian standing there. He walked to the door and opened it. “Sunshine, is that you?”

“Sorry, Pops, it’s me. I just wanted to see how you were. Do you need anything?” Gus walked up to Brian and put his arms around him. “You fucked up.”

Brian turned and held on to his son tightly. “How mad is he?”  

“I haven’t talked to him yet. He may be mad at me too because I found out and didn’t tell him.”

“He won’t be mad at you. You only knew a couple hours. We are leaving tomorrow afternoon. He already has an appointment scheduled at an eye specialist for me.  I can’t lose him, Gus, I can’t live without him. I won’t live without him.”

Finally, Gus said, “Um, Pops,” Gus kissed Brian’s cheek. “I want to go check on Dad, too. I will make sure he is all right. Get some sleep. It will be a very long day tomorrow. I will make sure Dad is Ok.”

Gus led him to the bed and then left the room. He went to the spare across the hall. He knew Justin wouldn’t go far away incase Brian needed assistance. He opened the door and softly said, “Dad, can I come in?”

“Sure, Gus, come on in. I won’t be sleeping anyway.”

“I’m sorry, Dad. I just found out a couple hours before you did. I told Pop he had until tomorrow or I would tell you.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for. I know why he does it but after all these years he just can’t trust.”

“Pops knows you love him.”

Gus sat cross legged on the bed next to Justin. “Brian just can’t get over the fact that he is worth loving. Your grandma was a piece of work. She made him feel like shit about everything in his life. If it wasn’t for Debbie I don’t know what would have happened to him but, damn it, I can’t do this anymore. He could have done permanent damage to his eyes just because he can’t let me know he may have a weakness. Why can’t he remember I loved him when he nearly died. I wiped his ass for god sake. I breathed for him and he did for me. I just can’t do it anymore.”

“Dad, he loves you. Yes, he’s an ass but he can’t live without you. He really can’t, so please don’t do anything too rash. We are family. We need to stay together.”

“Go to Jamie, Gus. We are cutting your time on the island short. Enjoy your night and you can sleep all the way home. By the way, Gus, you know you are in love with him, don’t you?”

“Yes, I have told him. I am in love with him. I know I am young but... I guess you don’t choose when you fall in love.”

“Go love him, then. I will be fine. I might just go sleep with Brinn. At least I might get a little sleep.”  

Gus kissed Justin and then left the room. As he stepped into his room, Gus saw Justin slip down the hall to Brinn’s room.

Gus saw Jamie lying on the bed naked and dropped to his knees to feast on Jamie’s cock and then ass.  His tongue darted in and out taunting Jamie until he was frantic. “Gus, please, I need you now. I need you so…” Gus just kept rimming him until Jamie began to shutter. Gus’ mouth moved to Jamie and sucked him dry so quickly Jamie screamed as he couldn’t control himself. Gus flipped him making Jamie get on his knees as he began to thrust over and over. Gus used more force then he had ever done before and Jamie for the second time in a few minutes had another earth shattering orgasm and as he clamped around Gus, he pulled Jamie up and held him tight against his chest  as Gus spasmed over and over. The remainder of the night Jamie and Gus made love and dozed.just long enough to make love again. As the sun came up they laid in each other’s arms and fell asleep.

“Daddy, Daddy, are you awake? What are you doing in here?”

“Good morning, Sweetheart.” Justin held his daughter close and started kissing her on the top of her head and then her cheeks and nose. “We have had a little change of plans. We are going back home today.”

“Why? I thought we had a couple more days here?”

“Well, your dad needs to go to a doctor in Pittsburgh. I don’t think it is anything serious but he could get an appointment tomorrow so we need to go.”

“That’s Ok. I miss Matti, and I bet Jonna is growing. Plus school is coming soon. What grade am I going to be in this year?”

“Can we talk about this later, Sweety? I need to get dressed and pack up your stuff and let Luke and Maria know we are going today. Why don’t you get dressed and start packing. I will be back in a little bit and help.

“Daddy, are you and Dad… you never sleep with me unless I am sick or you and Dad had a fight. Did you have a fight?’’

“Oh, Brinny, it is complicated.”

“I’m pretty smart, Daddy, I could understand.”

“I am not sure I understand, Sweetie, but remember, no matter what, both your dad and I love you to the moon and back.”  

“I know that, Daddy. I don’t know any other kid that is loved as much as me. But, Daddy, remember you and Dad can’t live without each other. I have heard you say it.”

“Brinn, for now you are just going to have to let your dad and I work this out. We are both still your dads and you will just have to leave it alone, Brinn.” Justin used a tone he rarely used with her. He gave her a quick kiss on the head and left the room.

Justin stepped out and quickly got dress. As he left the spare room he ran into Gus. “Gus, can you check on your sister. I kind of snapped at her. She may need an extra hug but I just…

“I got it, Dad.” Gus kissed him. “And you are so right. It scares me how much I love him. Once things calm down can we talk?”

“Of course, we can.”

Justin headed to the master bedroom and walked in. Brian stood there naked in the middle of the room. When he realized someone was there he said, “Justin, please.”

That is when Justin saw the circles under his eyes. Brian dropped to his knees. “Please, Justin. Don’t do this to us.”

“No, you aren’t doing this to me. I’m not the one who was withholding stuff. I… I can’t do this now. Please pull yourself together and go spend some time with Brinn and I will finish our packing. Eat something, too. We need to be ready to go in about 2 hours.” Justin was glad Brian’s vision wasn’t good right now as the tears streamed down his face.

The plane was in the air before Brinn came up to Justin. “Daddy, I am sorry about this morning.”

Justin collected Brinn in his arms. “I am the one who owes you an apology. I love you bunches.”

“I know that, Daddy.” Brinn hugged him tightly. “I love you so much.” Brian was sitting a row behind them on the other side. “You told me you and Dad would talk to me on our flight home.”

“Oh, ya, I had forgotten.” Justin lied. He had hoped Brinn had forgotten.

“Dad, come up here. You and Daddy promised me the sex talk.”

Three rows back Jamie nearly choked on the soda he was drinking. Gus would have found the whole thing hilarious if he didn’t know his dads were hurting so bad. “Brinn, maybe now isn’t…" Gus started.

Brian moved up a row  so he was right across from Brinn and Justin. “Brinn is right, we did promise her, Brian said.

“We could just show her what tickling is about.” Gus chuckled and kissed Jamie. Brian threw something in Gus’ direction.

“Gus, why don’t you and Jamie just go sleep in the back room. I am sure you didn’t sleep much last night.” Justin suggested.’’

The two young men stood up and disappeared through the door in the back.

“Brinn, come sit by me.” Brian said. Brinn climbed on Brian’s lap. “What do you want to know, Sweetheart?”

“When you have one of your tickle parties what do you really do?”

“We love each other. We touch a lot, and kiss a lot and usually we lose ourselves for a while.”

“What do you mean lose yourself?”

“We kiss and touch and feel each other’s skin….” Brian’s voice drifted off for a minute. “When two people love each other they want to touch and kiss. They want to make their partner happy and be as close to them as they can be.”

Brinn looked at Justin. “Daddy, you are very quiet. Isn’t Dad telling it right?”

“Brinny,” Justin began, “You know how much your dad and I enjoy touching. When we make love we get as close as two people can get. And we love each other so much.”

“But, right now you and Dad aren’t happy with each other. If you really love each other….”

“Brinn, your daddy is upset with me, and I understand why but that doesn’t mean deep down we don’t love each other. It just means we have to work some things out.” Brian said looking over top of Brinn at Justin but Justin looked the other way. Brian couldn’t see his beautiful face clearly but he could tell Justin turned and looked out the window.

Justin’s reaction did not get past Brinn. She turned and faced Brian. “Daddy told me you had to go to the doctor. Are you sick, Daddy?”

“Oh, no, Sweetie. It is just that when I had my accident I hit my head pretty hard and it kind of messed up my vision. I am sure a doctor can fix it.”

‘Tell her the truth, Brian. Tell her you lied to me. Tell her you hid it from me!' Justin wanted to scream this at the top of his lungs but instead he stared out the window, petrified at the thoughts he was having. How was he going to work through this?

The remainder of the flight was quiet. After a while Gus came out and grabbed some bottled water. He invited Brinn to join them in the back room while they watched old comedies.   

Brian and Justin continued to sit on opposite sides of the same row. After an hour of complete silence, Brian crossed the row and sat next to Justin. He reached for Justin’s hand but Justin pulled away. “Don’t touch me. Just don’t touch…” Brian slid the back of his hand down Justin’s cheek and impulsively Justin leaned into it but then jerked away. “Brian, you can’t just make this go away. You can’t block me out of your life and then expect me to fall into your arms. We have done this too many times. I am not sure I can keep this up. I know I can’t live without you but I am not sure how to live with you either,” Justin turned back to the window. “Please move. I’d like to sleep the last hour. I didn’t get much rest last night.”