Chapter 8

By the time the arrived at the house Peter and Becca were waiting for them.  They had made some dinner for all of them. It took about five minutes before Peter and Becca realized there was something wrong.between Brian and Justin.  After Justin had gone upstairs to help Brinn unpack and Brian went to the office Peter asked Gus. “So what happened this time?”

“We were talking about Pop’s accident and his vision issues well he didn’t tell Dad about it for several days.  If he has any permanent damage it could be caused by not telling him right away. Why does Pop’s always do this? I don’t understand why he thinks he has to deal on his own.”

“You really don’t know, do you?”  Pete looked over at Gus.

“No, I know it has to do with Pops and his parents but he has never told me what really happened.”

“I really don’t remember Grandpa that well.  I remember him being kind of fun but I remember him drunk but then that’s how I remember Grandma most of the time too. Just talk to your dad.”

Gus placed an arm around Jamie’s waist and both men yawned.  Becca smiled at Gus and his lover, :”You two look like you could use some rest.  I’ll clean up down here.” Gus kissed both of them and he headed upstairs with Jamie.  

Justin got Brinn settled into her room and let her know he would be sleeping in the room closest to hers.  “Daddy, I hate it when you and Dad are mad at each other.”

“We will be fine, we just need a little time apart even if we are in the same house.”

“Good night, Daddy.  I love you.”

“I love you, too, Brinny”

Justin went to the master bedroom. He collected a few of his things.  He looked at the bed where he had spent so much time with Brian. He was scared for Brian. Brian had to be petrified.  Damn, he didn’t want to give in but his heart was overruling his head. Brian needed him tonight and who was he fooling, until he knew what this was he needed to be with Brian.  What if his sight didn’t improve or even worse, what if it was permanent? Justin picked up a bottle of Brian’s favorite cologne. Ok, face it, it was his favorite scent for Brian to wear. He breathed in deeply.  It just didn’t have the same effect without the undertones of Brian’s natural scent. He needed to talk to someone. He just couldn’t wrap his own brain around his feelings but he had been selfish. His husband had to be so alone right now.

Justin was lost in his own thoughts when the door opened and Brian walked in.  He looked so defeated, so alone. Justin realized Brian didn’t know he was there.  He moved tentatively, making sure there was nothing in his way as he walked. He stripped off his clothes and walked toward the bathroom, so near to Justin. He stopped as if he could feel his presence. “Sunshine?”

“Yes, I’m here.” Justin walked over to him, “I’m still mad as hell at you, but I’m here for you and I am not going to let you go through this alone.”  He reached up and pulled Brian’s head down toward his lips. They barely grazed each other. “Let’s take shower. I know I could use one. I will be in, in a minute.” Brian turned on the shower and as Justin undressed he watched him. He knew this was on him.  He had to come to terms with it. Brian was not going to change. He had to realize Brian couldn’t change.

Justin stepped into the shower and into Brian’s arms. He didn’t think he could live without these arms around him but ….. He stopped thinking as Brian’s hands located Justin’s ass and their lips fused.  Brian’s mouth ended up by Justin’s ear. “I’m so sorry. I don’t know why I did it. I am so scared.”

Justin felt Brian trembling and held onto him tightly. Brian’s fingers were busy exploring and soon one had slipped in and began stroking the interior walls making Justin’s need grow quickly.  “Take me, Baby, please.” Justin turned around and as Brian pressed him against the glass and entered him, Justin felt the expected pain but then the ecstacy of his love moving inside him. Brian was possessed.  Justin hadn’t seen him like this in a long time. The power in each thrust jolted him against the glass but he didn’t care. He needed to feel it all. “Harder, Baby, please harder! I want to feel you in the morning. I want to feel you tomorrow.”

Brian stopped and held onto him tightly.  “We have all night, Sunshine. If you want to feel it in the morning, I promise you will.”  Brian thrust a couple more times and simultaneously they came in a shutter. Brian turned Justin around and kissed him.  “Let’s finish in here.”

Several hours later Justin definitely felt used, nearly abused, but in the best way.  Brian pulled him close and his finger still was playing with Justin’s prostate causing his senses to go into overload.  “Sunshine, I know I screwed up and I know we aren’t good yet but thank you for being here tonight. You are always here when I need you.” As Brian kissed him once more he brought his hand around and firmly took Justin’s cock. He slid down Justin’s body and claimed his penis and brought Justin to one more earth shattering orgasm.

“God, I love you Brian Taylor Kinney. Why do you have to be such an asshole?”  Justin turned his back to Brian and Brian spooned up against him and they slept.  

Justin slipped out of bed and put on his robe as he left the room.  When he arrived in the kitchen he was surprised to see Gus holding out a cup of coffee to him.  “Thanks, Gus. I love having coffee with you but I expected you to be curled up next to Jamie.”

“Is everything OK between you and  Dad?”

“It will be.  We have some work to do but I know we have to work it through. So, what can I do for you?” Justin reached up and brushed Gus’ hair back and cupped his cheek.

“Dad, how important is it to you that Pops will bottom sometimes?”  

“Let’s sit down, Gus.” They sat by the counter. “Gus, do you want to talk about your experience?”

“It hurt so bad.  He was the perfect partner but I thought I was going to rip me apart and I know Jamie enjoyed the experience, not my hurting but his  being on top.”

“Did you enjoy it at all?” Justin kept touching  Gus for support.

“I came and, god, what he did to me with his finger.”

“The prostate is a wonderful organ, isn’t it?” Justin smiled. “So no other enjoyment.”

“The next morning when we did it again, it hurt like hell but I definitely had the pleasure.  I just don’t know if I could do it regularly. I keep thinking about the pain.”

“Gus, many couples always stay in the same positions.  As for the pain, right now I feel the ache so far inside me that I …. Sorry, you don’t want to know about your dads love life but, Gus, I enjoy the pain.  It may surprise you but we have an active play life and I really enjoy pain. Just thinking about Brian spanking me….” Justin started laughing when Gus’ mouth dropped open.  “Oh, Son, don’t knock it until you have tried it. If you ever want to borrow some toys we have a lot of them. You might enjoy exploring with Jamie.”

“I don’t think I will ever enjoy the pain,” Gus said in a dejected voice.

“If Jamie knows that he won’t want you to do it.  But if you love him as much as I think you do, if he needs to top on a rare occasion, you will do it for him and what you have to remember than is to enjoy that ache the next day and remember how happy you made him.  Brian is fine with it now but I know for several years, that is how your dad feels. He does it because he cares about me.”

“I hope Jamie and I can have half the relationship you two have. You are my hero, Dad.  You really have balls.”

“I hope that was never a question.,”  Justin started laughing. “Gus, I have never really regretted being with your dad at such a young age but I sometimes wish I had taken it a little slower.  Learn to love everything about each other and, Gus, the occasional pain is worth the pleasure it brings to your partner.”

Gus held on to Justin tightly.  “Thanks, Dad. I wish Jamie’s dad could accept him, accept us.”

“You know our home is his home as long as he wants it to be.  And let him know if he ever needs to talk to someone we are here for him, too, or John or Tony would all be willing to talk to him if he doesn’t feel comfortable with your dads.” Justin glanced at the clock, “Shit, I need to see if Brian is up.  Can you drop Brinn off at the Inn when she is ready? John and Claire are expecting her.”

“I got her.  I will go check on her now and see what time she wants to go.  Oh, and I might go see if Jamie is awake now.” The smile on Gus’ face told Justin what he had on his mind.  “Dad, let me know what happens at the doctor.”

“I will, Gus. I love you, Son.”

“Love you, too, Dad.”

Justin walked into the bedroom to find Brian sitting on the bed.  Brian held out a hand and Justin came and stood between Brian’s legs.  Brian wrapped his arms around Justin’s waist and buried his head into Justin’s abdomen.  “Thank you for being here for me. I know don’t deserve it. I never have.”

Justin pulled away, “Damn it, Brian!  That is your whole problem. You deserve everything I give you, everything I do for you.” Justin pulled some clothes out of Brian’s closet and put them on the bed. ”Get dressed.”  Justin went to his own closet and got ready.

It was a very quiet drive into the city.  As Justin drove, Brian stared out the window unable to see more than a colorful blur. Justin noticed Brian’s hands fidgeting more the closer they got to the city.  He reached over and took one and raised it to his lips. “We’ll see what the doctor says and we will deal with it.”

“And if the doctor says it could have been fixed last week when it happened but now it is irreversible.”

“We’ll deal with it.  Brian, we have both almost died.  We can live through this.”

“But will we survive, you and I?”

“Brian, this isn’t the time to discuss it.  We both know we just end up talking circles.” Justin parked and put his arm around Brian’s waist.

Brian pulled him close and kissed him. “Thank you for being here.”

“Where else would I be? You are my husband.”

Forty-five minutes later they sat in the exam room waiting for the doctor to come back in the room.  Brian couldn’t sit still but as he walked in the small room he kept running into things so Justin made him sit down and sat on his lap.  He started kissing him hoping it would sidetrack his racing mind. Brian’s hand instantly went to Justin’s crotch and by the time the doctor returned both men were breathing heavily. The doctor flushed a bit when he saw the men.  

“Sorry, Brian was a bit anxious so I needed to distract him.”

“Well, I would say you did a good job of it.” The doctor smiled, “I think I have some good news for the two of you.  It looks like there is inflammation but it doesn’t seem to be permanent, yet. I am getting you some pills and eye drops.  You need to rest your eyes and try to stay out of direct sunlight. If you need to be outside, where dark sunglasses. I need to see you a week from today. If your vision gets worse or if you have any pain call immediately.  Brian, I am fairly confident we got this in time but if there had been any real damage your waiting could have been much worse. Let your husband baby you. Listen to him and follow my directions and I would say a week from now you should be seeing much clearer.  In two weeks you should be back to normal.”

“Don’t promise me something I have never been, Doc.” Brian joked but Justin was being too quiet and he could feel how tense he was.

“Well, gentlemen, I have another patient waiting.  Here are your scripts. Get them filled on the way home and stop at the desk to set up appointments for the next two week. Oh, and just so you know, like many eye drops they are probably going to sting a bit.  That is normal.” He looked at Justin, “Do you have any questions?”

“If we hadn’t come in today, how long before this was permanent?”

“Justin, the doctor has another…”

“He has time to answer me, don’t you?”

The doctor looked at Justin, “I can’t say for sure it would have been permanent but it is likely that it wouldn’t improve on its own and the swelling ….. Well, it’s good you came in.”  The doctor walked out.

Justin took Brian’s arm without saying anything and guided him out to the desk.  He spoke to the nurse scheduled the appointment for the next two weeks. After they got into the SUV Justin still didn’t say anything and Brian had the feeling it was best not to say anything. He closed his eyes to rest them like the doctor had said.  Justin went through the drive thru at the pharmacy and then drove about another five minutes and pulled in somewhere else.

“Where are we now?” Brian asked Justin.

“I need to talk to Blake a minute. You can stay in here or come in and say hi to Becca.”

“I’ll go in and say ‘hi’.”  Brian reached over and took Justin’s hand.  “I’ll do anything you want me to, Sunshine. Anything to fix this problem.”

“The only thing you need to do is follow what you were told to do and not do.”

“I promise, Justin.”

Justin walked Brian to Becca’s office and he went in.  Brian heard Becca and although he was not able to see her clearly he was fairly sure she was crying. “Becca? I hope I am not disturbing you.”

Brian heard sniffling, “Oh, Brian, nice to see you.”  

Brian walked carefully over to her voice and before he realized it he had a sobbing Becca in his arms. “Becca, what’s the matter?  Is there something I can do for you?”

“It’s the kids.  The judge is giving them to a distant relative instead of to Peter and I.  We were all ready to take them home and….”

“Oh, Becca, I am so sorry.” Brian kissed her temple.  I know there is nothing I can do to take the pain away. He held onto her as she sobbed.  After she had cried for a few minutes he asked, “Does Peter know?”

She hiccuped, “He should be here anytime.”  

“Well, I am not going anywhere until he is here.”

Justin knocked on Blake’s door.  “Come in, Justin.” Blake called to him. “I heard you came back.  How was Ibiza? I hear you have a new place there. Maybe sometime when you aren’t using it Ted and I and the kids can spend a week there again.  Or even better yet maybe Ted and I can spend time there alone once.”

“Hey, any time you and Ted want to go, the place is yours. Blake, thanks for making time for me. I actually just wanted to ask if you would be willing to talk to me for a few weeks.  I need to talk to someone and the fact that you know Brian’s history it will save so much time. I just don’t know what to do…” Blake was around his desk before the first tear dropped from his jawline.  He took Justin in his arms.

“Of course, I will see you, Justin.  You and Brian are so important to Ted and me.  I take it this has something to do with Brian’s eyesight? Did you get bad news today?”

“No, just the opposite.  He should be good in a couple weeks, if he follows directions.”

“Justin, what can I help you with?”

“I need to learn how to accept Brian the way he is because he will never change.  It took me 19 years to realize that but I know I can’t live without him so I have to learn to….”

“Cope with Brian’s weaknesses.  And you know he has them because of his abuse as a child.”

“Yes, you know what love is.  You know it is never easy but it is so worth it.” Justin stated.

“How about we meet Mondays and Thursdays  at 3:00 p.m? We can meet here or someplace  else.”

“I will be here Monday.  Thanks, Blake.” And he left to track down Brian.

Justin was surprised to see a distraught Peter coming in the door.  “Peter, what are you doing here?”

“Becca called, we lost the kids.”

“Oh, Peter, I am so sorry.” Justin hugged his nephew.  “Brian is with Becca. I dropped him at her office without going in. I am sure she has been in good hands. We will leave you alone but you know if you need anything just call us.”

As they stepped into Becca’s office Brian was holding her in his arms on the sofa. Justin walked over and kissed Becca’s cheek.  “I am so sorry, Becca.” To Brian Justin softly said. “Peter is here. Let’s leave them alone.

“Oh, Bex.” Peter took his wife in his arms as Justin and Brian slipped out of the office.

Justin and Brian headed back to the house.  They stopped by Matti’s Inn knowing Brinn was there.  Justin had to admit he was ready to see this family. He missed John and Tony and couldn’t wait to see Jonna. “Uncle Justin!” Matti came flying out of the inn and into Justin’s arms. “I haven’t seen you in so long. I missed you.”

“I missed you too, Matti.”  Justin picked him up and spinned him around. “You should probably go say hi to your Uncle Brian, too.”

“I heard Uncle Brian had an accident.  I didn’t want to hurt him.”

“I am fine, Matti.  My eyes just aren’t working quite right so I am having a little trouble seeing but I would love a hug.”  Matti came running over to Brian now and hugged him, too. “Matti, we would love to see your sister. I bet she has gotten bigger.”

“She is still little but Daddy and Papa are getting more sleep now.  Grandma helped find milk she likes better.”

“Where is Brinny?”

“Last time I saw her she was feeding Jonna.”

The three went into the inn and Matti led the way to the apartment.   Brinn sat in the rocker holding Jonna. She sang softly as she snuggled her.  “Daddy! Dad! How was your appointment? Justin snagged Jonna from Brinn. “Daddy, I almost had her asleep.”

“I’m sorry, but I needed to snuggle this little girl for a minute.”

John walked over and kissed Justin and then went to Brian and kissed him. “It is so good to have you back. Uncle Brian, how did the appointment go?”

Justin spoke up more hostile than he meant to, “If he had waited any longer it could have been permanent”

“But I should be fine in a couple weeks,” Brian said as he pulled Brinn into his arms. “I just have to take some medicine and my eyes should clear up in the next couple weeks.”

“I’m so glad, Dad.”

“Brinn, why don’t you take your dad and Matti and find Tony and Claire so we can all have a cup of coffee,” Justin suggested.

“Come on, Dad.  Obviously, Daddy wants to get rid of us.”

“Oh, Miss Thing, you never change,” John laughed as Brinn, Brian, and Matti left the apartment.

Then John turned to Justin, “Now, what is up with you?”

“I am just so mad at him.  If we hadn’t figured it out he could have lost his sight for life and he doesn’t know why I am upset!  Damn it, John! It will never end! He will never totally trust me.”

John didn’t say a word but put an arm around Justin, who still held Jonna.  

“I feel rejected by him.  But, I know he can’t help it.  I know it is because of his childhood.  It just hurts so bad to know he still can’t be truthful to me.  I am going to talk with Blake. I need help learning to deal with him because he isn’t going to change.”  John took a sleeping Jonna out of Justin’s arms and after laying her in the crib he took Justin into his arms.

“I hope Uncle Brian knows how lucky he is to have you. You’re right in thinking he can’t change the way he processes situations.  Blake will help you. Justin, I know you only want what is best for Uncle Brian.

Tony and Brian came through the door to find Justin in John’s arms.  They separated and Justin went to Tony and gave him a hug and the four men sat down for coffee.  Claire had Brinn and Matti in the kitchen of the inn eating cookies and drinking milk. Justin made a point of lightening the mood as they talked about the new villa and the wonderful time they spent at the beach.  They talked about Gus and Jamie. Tony and John had liked the young man when they met him earlier that day when they dropped Brinn off. And they talked about Gus being head over heels in love with him.

After catching up, Brian and Justin headed back to their house with Brinn.  Justin told Brinn she could do some school shopping on her favorite clothing site.  He would let her put as many things as she wanted into the cart. She would then decide what she really wanted and Justin would review and pay for them later.  “Hey, Brinn, are you Ok for about an hour?”

“Sure, Daddy. I will be fine.”

“If you need us we will be in our room. Just knock. I think your dad could use a nap and he needs to rest his eyes.” Brinn ran off to her room already figuring out what  clothes she needed for the new school year.

Justin put his arm around Brian’s waist as they walked into their room.  “I owe you an apology, Baby. I shouldn’t have snapped at John and Tony’s.”

Brian collected Justin in his arms.  “I wish I could change. I would do anything for you but no matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem…”

Justin started undressing Brian and he did the same of him.  “Baby, I finally realized that and that’s why I am going to talk to Blake.  I just need to figure out how to not take it personally. I love you. Now get in bed.  I am going to put your eye drops in and then,” he kissed him. “You need to rest but I will rest with you.”  He read over the caution on the dropper bottle. “It says this is going to sting a bit but it will help your eyes relax more.”

Justin added the drops and Brian flinched as it burned for a few seconds.  Brian shut his eyes and Justin kissed the closed lids. His mouth moved lower and brushed Brian’s lips

Brian turned his back to Justin and he was sure what Brian was asking.  “Relax, Baby. I will be gentle.” He inserted a finger and massaged Brian slowly as he felt him both relax and become aroused at the same time.  He pressed inward and brought his hand around Brian, placing his slayed fingers on the flat of Brian’s stomach. Justin didn’t move. Softly he said, “Sleep, my love. It’s time to rest.” Justin kissed his shoulder blade and felt Brian relax.

Justin wasn’t sure why but just having made the decision to approach Brian’s issues differently had him feeling so much better. After hearing Brian’s breath deepen and his body go lax he slipped out of Brian, dressed quietly, and left to find Brinn.  Together Justin and Brinn made several selections and then spent some time talking about school. “Brinn, you know we have talked about going to our place in California. How would you feel if we did that? I mean you would have to leave school and either attend school there or, I ‘m thinking, a private teacher might be better.  I know you get bored in school and you won’t be lonely because there are kids at the vineyard for you to play with and we can share my art studio. I think you will love it there.”

“Daddy,” Brinn crawled onto Justin’s lap.  “I know you and Dad will always choose what’s best for me. I just want to be with you and Dad.”

“Oh, Brinny,” he hugged her tight.  “I wish I could get that in a recording so in 10 years you would remember that. Want to help me make some dinner for the family.  I am afraid it won’t be long before Gus and Jamie get back on the road with the band.”

“I don’t want Gussy to leave or Jamie.  I will miss them.”

“I will too, Sweetheart. Let’s go make one of his favorites.”  As they took the back stairs Justin didn’t have to guess if the young men were home or not. He moved Brinn along quickly and headed for the kitchen.

Gus was still on top of Jamie coming down from the last orgasm when Gus said, “At dinner we are going to have to tell dads that we are leaving in a couple days but it isn’t going to surprise them.  Gus moved to lay beside Jamie. “Hon, will you screw me?”

“Gus, are you sure?  I know it is so painful for you.”

“But, Jamie, I know you enjoy it and I don’t know if we can pull it off on the bus.  I want you to get the pleasure you crave, too.”

“Oh, Gus, don’t ever feel like I don’t enjoy feeling that amazing cock of yours so deep in my ass…” Jamie reached down and stroked his already hardening dick.

“I know, my love,” Gus kissed him deeply, “but I know you enjoy it and once I get past the pain it is amazing for me, too.  I am guessing we have plenty of time before dinner to….” Jamie’s hand found Gus’ firm ass and began traveling the valley between the globes.

“Lay on your stomach, Gus. Let’s loosen you up to make the strain be much less painful.”  After his discussion with his dad Gus had borrowed a few things from their toy collection and Jamie was going use some of them now.   He started with a back rub and worked his way down. As his tongue traveled down Gus’ spine Gus sighed in anticipation as Jamie’s tongue entered him.  His whole body trembled. “I’m going to insert a vibrator, Gus. It will relax your ass and then I will help it stretch a bit. Jamie inserted the prostate massager.

“Oh, my, god!” Gus wasn’t sure how long he could control himself with that on.  

Jamie prompted him to turn on his side and they began to kiss.  The world melted away for both of them. Softly Jamie said, “I guess if we want to be rock stars we need to leave this room but I love being here with your family. He reached around and began moving the vibrator as they kissed.  He pulled away for just a minutes and picked a new toy to insert. He knew this would be a stretch, literally, but he also knew neither of them could hold on too long. “Take a deep breath, Gus, and then push gently as I put this in.”

Jamie saw Gus grimace in pain but he could see, once it was in place he was uncomfortable but not necessarily pain. “Touch me, Gus, feel me.”

Gus did as he was told.  His hands and mouth touched and tasted Jamie.  As his tongue grazed the tip of his engorged cock he could taste the precum.  How he loved the taste of him. Jamie moaned. “Gus, I need to be inside you. I really need it now.”  Gus turned his back to Jamie and Jamie removed the obstacle to his desired spot and pulling Gus close he pushed to gain entry.  Gus felt the pain but soon it turned to pure pleasure.

“Oh, Jamie, I love you so much.  Please, a little harder and a little faster.” It didn’t take long before both men began to tremble and then simultaneously  they shouted and orgasmed so hard it took both of them time to recover.

Jamie turned Gus over to look at him and as their eyes locked Jamie softly said, “I am in love with you, Gus Kinney.  I know we are young but I hope we can spend the rest of our lives together.” Gus’ arms wrapped around Jamie’s neck so tightly Jamie could hardly breathe.  They kissed and for the third time in an hour made frantic love.

Justin and Brinn completed the meal and had it in the oven.  Brinn had gone to watch a movie in the theater and Justin was doing some cleanup in the kitchen. Strong arms came around him from behind.  “I missed you when I woke up.” Brian whispered in his ear. “I was hoping to make love with you when I woke. Where is everybody?” Brian’s hand slid into Justin’s pants and pressed Justin’s ass against his own rising cock. Brian’s tongue got busy on Justin’s ear as his hand kept massaging his penis.  

“Brian Baby, Brinn is right in the theater.”

“I can be quiet.  Can you?” He turned Justin so one hand was down the front and the other was down the back, instantly searching for his core.”

Justin bit his lip as Brian was already taking him past the point of no return. Brian was stroking as deeply as he could within him. “Damn it, Brian.  Take me now. Fast, hard, make it hurt and then later you owe me extra attention. We still have a paddle or two, don’t we? Oh, god…”

Brian didn’t remove either of their pants. He just slid them down far enough for the entry.  Brian knew this had to be painful for Justin but he could also see how turned on he was. Justin turned his head so Brian’s lips could absorb the sound he let out and as Brian joined him. Brian was still inside Justin when they heard Gus and Jamie coming down the stairs.  As they came around the corner both Brian and Justin were zipping their flies and were very flushed.

“God, dads,”  Gus laughed. “Seriously! You couldn’t go to the bedroom?” As Gus walk to the counter Brian noticed his slow gate.  

“If I’m not wrong, and I never am, you have been up to some games of your own and I noticed the toy box had been ransacked.”

Both Gus and Jamie blushed at that. “Brian,” Justin began, “Why don’t you and Jamie set up one of the tables out there for us to eat by. The plates are there. Oh, and go talk Peter and Becca into joining us.  They need to be with family.” Jamie and Brian went out to complete their tasks while Justin sidled up to Gus. “So, spill it. Has it gotten better?”

“It was so amazing today.  Obviously, I still haven’t learned to take it like you do considering two minutes ago….”

“That’s enough detail, Gus.  If it makes you feel better I can still feel him there and it is my favorite feeling in the world and though your dad hasn’t always been a fan, the longer we are together the more we reverse the rolls and the more he  will even ask me for it. I hope I am not overspeaking but some night just let him enter and fall asleep spooning like that. I can’t think of anything more amazing then just that feel, that fullness. It doesn’t have to be over the top. It is just the contact you will never forget.”

After helping Justin get dinner out of the oven, Gus went to get Brinn.  “Hey, Miss Thing, dinner is ready.”

“Gussy, are you really leaving tomorrow? She put her arms around him.”

“I am afraid so. Jamie and I need to go back on tour now that my arm is better and the judge cleared me to leave.  I could have been in so much more trouble if the accident had been my fault. I can’t drive for a couple more months but I can deal with that.  I still feel bad for the man’s family.”

“Gussy, never drink and drive again. I need my big brother!”  She tugged on his arm and he bent down to hug and kiss her.

“I have learned my lesson and Jamie will make me behave.”

“I like him.  I hope he stays around for a while. Are you in love with him?”

“You are awfully noisy for a little sister.  Yes, I am in love with him.” He knelt down and she automatically wrapped her arm around his neck.  “I know, I will be careful of you hurt arm.” She kissed his head as he carried her to the backyard. She then laid her head on his looking very sad.

Jamie dropped Brian at the guest house.  He knocked on the door. “Pete, Becca, it’s Brian. Can I come in?”

The door opened and Peter stood in front of him.  Brian hugged Peter. “How are you doing?”

“Well, I’m not going to say good because that would be a lie but Bex is a mess.  I’m scared Brian. She won’t leave the bedroom. She won’t eat. She won’t talk. All she does is cry and she won’t even drink water.”

“Peter, go up to the main house.  Have some dinner. I will talk to her and hopefully get her to join us.”

“I can’t….”

“Go, Peter. I’ll take care of her. You trust me, right?”

“Of course I do.”

Brian held him for a minute.  “Let me talk to her.”

Peter walked out the door and Brian grabbed some water and went up to their bedroom.  He tapped on the door, “Becca, it’s Brian. I’m coming in.”

“Brian, I don’t want…”

“I didn’t ask if you wanted me to, I was just warning you.”  He opened the door and walked in. Becca was curled up in a ball on the bed. He dropped down next to her and opened the bottle of water and set it down on the nightstand.  “Sit up, Becca.”+

“Brian, just leave me alone, please.  I just can’t face anything right now.”

“That’s too bad because you have to.   Sit up and drink some water or I will get you up.” He reached over and started to take Becca’s shoulders.

“No, don’t touch me, please.  I can’t…”

Brian pulled her into his arms and held her tight.  “Becca, I can only imagine how much you are hurting and I know there are a lot of things involved.  I checked into the relatives the kids were moving in with. They seem like they are good people so they weren’t the kids for you but there are hundreds of kids that need parents and you and Peter will be amazing at it.  Don’t let one disappointment ruin it for some needy kid.”

“I just don’t know how often I could do this.  I can’t open my heart and then have it disappointed often.  My life was so full of pain and heartache. Brian, I just can’t do that.”

“Becca,” Brian handed her the bottle of water and without thinking she took a big swallow and then two more. “You could always look for a private adoption.  I know you want to help a needy child but any child that needs a home is needy. Maybe abused children are too close to home for you. But, Becca,” he prompted her to take another drink and she did. “You have a family that loves you so much.  We can’t deal with our cheerleader needing to be cheered up. And if you ever want to hire a surrogate you know we are here for you. Now, so I don’t get on Justin’s bad list, please come back with me. Well, and I can’t get back on my own.”

“Give me a minute to comb my hair at least.”  

“I’ll wait downstairs for you.”  He quickly texted Justin and said they were on their way.

“I don’t know how he did it, Pete, but they will be here in a couple minutes.  He definitely has a way of conning people,” Everyone laughed.

Peter met them several yards away. He took his wife in his arms and kissed her.  Brinn ran over and guided her dad to the table where Justin leaned over and kissed him. Very softly he said, “I love you.”

Becca sat at the table and was quiet but she ate some and drank another bottle of water.  An hour later she was smiling and enjoying her family. Peter and Becca said goodbye to Gus and Jamie and then Becca approached Brian.  She kissed him on the cheek and then walked back to the guest house arm in arm with Peter.

Brinn curled up on Gus’ lap, not wanting to let go of her brother.  She yawned and Jamie carried her upstairs followed closely by Gus.

“That little girl is going to miss her brother so much. I would say as soon as your eyes are officially on the mend we head to California.  I have to admit I am very excited to get this art show ready with you by my side. They are talking about getting the prints made in limited additions and the one critic who saw them wrote a rave review. Brian, I know I have been fairly successful but I think these might put me on the level with….well, that people in the art world will want my work.”

Brian pulled Justin into his lap, “You have always been on a level of your own and as for work, I think I promised to work on something for you tonight.” Brian tweaked Justin’s cock through this pants. “I haven’t forgotten.”

“I need to clean up out here before…”

Brian took a firm hold of Justin’s crotch.  “There is nothing out here that won’t be here in the morning and I can think of a couple things that just can’t wait.”

“One of them being your medicine.  I need to put the drops in again and you need to take the anti-inflammatory.”

“And you are going to have to take it like a man.” Brian’s hand made contact with Justin’s covered ass. “I can’t wait to get my hands on that skin and get it nice and heated.”

“Oh, do you know how to flirt.  Let’s go.” Justin got off Brian’s lap and took his hand.  “Please, I think I need a lot of guidance tonight.” Justin held onto Brian’s arm and laid his head on his upper arm.  “I am going to miss Gus so much. I need a distraction tonight.”

Half an hour later  Justin was leaning over the arm of the chair, bare ass in the air, with tear streaked cheeks. The round globes in the air were glowing red and Brian had tossed the paddle and was now rubbing the heated area with his hands.

“Please, Baby, just a few more.”

“Oh no, I have something more than that planned.  Remember in Ibiza we talked about ways for me to go deeper. Well, I got something I have never tried before if you can believe it.”  He pulled out something and slipped it on, attaching it around his waist. “I tried it on earlier to make sure I knew how to tie it on.  If you need me to stop you know the safe words, Gus slow down, Brinn means to stop.” With that Brian pressed the flexible head against Justin and began to push.  The texture on the extension instantly had Justin moaning and then when Brian began pressing into area he had never been able to reach using his own dick. He could feel there was more resistance and from Justin’s reaction he was experiencing a new sensation.  As Brian made the final thrust and felt Justin heated ass up against his pelvis, Justin made a noise Brian had never heard from him before, “Sunshine, what do you need?”

“Fast and hard,” he said in a shaky voice.

Laying side by side, Justin’s body was still shaking.  Every nerve ending was on fire and his throat hurt from screaming as he came.  “Take your pill, Baby. I will put your drops in once my body quits shaking so badly.”  Five minutes later Justin was leaning over Brian with the dropper. “I’m sorry this hurts you but sometimes a little pain comes with the healing. Now, you should be sleeping.  Remember the doctor said you needed extra rest.”

“I don’t know if I can sleep.  Between Peter and Becca trying to pull their life back together  and Gus and Jamie leaving, not to mention how Brinn is going to miss them, it is just hard to turn off everything to sleep.”

“Let me help relax at least one muscle,” Justin very slowly started massaging Brian’s lower abs and worked his way down until he felt the base of Brian’s cock.  He used long, slow strokes and was surprised Brian actually seemed to be more relaxed. He seemed to be focused on what Justin was doing, letting the rest of his mind shut down. Justin took Brian’s cock in his mouth and as he swallowed Brian’s cum, he could sleep too.

By 9:00 a.m. Gus and Jamie were gone and tears had subsided.  Peter had texted Brian from bed, thanking him again for being there for Becca.  He ended the text with, ‘I am taking GOOD care of Bex today’. “Well, it sounds like Becca and Peter are working through it,” Brian commented as he came into the kitchen. He walked over to Justin and kissed him.  “Get out of the kitchen. I have hired people to do that for us.”

“I know.  I just….”

“If I didn’t have work to look at I would definitely find ways to occupy you,” his hand over Justin’s ass he saw him cringe just a bit. “Did I hurt you?”

“In all the best way.  I still feel you every move and I am horny as hell.” He pressed himself up against Brian letting him know he was not lying.  

Brian groaned, “I have a conference call coming in.  I know it is the weekend but I am trying to get everything in place so when we leave for California I can work from there.  And, Sunshine, you are beautiful this morning.” He put his hands on either side of Justin’s face and kissed him deeply.

“Does that mean you can see me?” Justin’s whole face lit up with hope.

“It isn’t perfect yet, but up close like this,” he kissed him again, “Thank you.”

“For what?” Justin pressed himself tightly against Brian, trying to get closer.

“For loving me enough to make me go in. I think I was just too scared of the outcome to face it.”

“That’s why will never leave you.  Someone has to be the grownup.” The men began to touch and taste as they stood in the kitchen. Their breath was beginning to come in shorter gasps when from beside them they both heard a voice.

“Excuse me, Daddies. If it isn’t too much trouble, I was coming to get a snack.”

Brian and Justin looked into each other’s eyes for one more second and kissed once more and then moved apart. Justin attended to their daughter as Brian went to the office.

“Brinn, it looks like we will be going to California in about a week. Because of that I don’t think we are going to sign you up for school here.  We have talked to the school and they will keep a spot for you for when we return. I will need to get a tutor for you, too.”

“Daddy, I know you are smart enough to teach me.”

“Well,  I think I could but I will be in San Francisco part of the time and I will need to work while I am there.  I am hoping we can get someone to come in every morning and then your afternoons can be more free.” Justin gave her the apple he had cut up.

“Ok, Daddy.  I love you.”

“I love you too, Sweetheart, more than you will ever know.”

“Daddy, you always tell me how much you love me but you know what’s more important?”

Justin looked at his daughter quizzically. “And what is that, Brinny?”

“You always show me.” With that she took her apple slices and ran upstairs, leaving Justin with a lump in his throat and a heart overwhelmed with love.

The week went by quickly.  Brinn spent time at the inn while Brian and Justin both spent many hours working and preparing for the temporary move to the vineyard.  Justin had narrowed the tutor list down to 5 and after talking to Brian they came up with two names. They were sure there were many amazing men tutors out there but at Brinn’s age and their crazy schedules they decided to hire a woman.  Both of their finalists were grad students in education. They had different specialties but both came highly recommended. They would interview both with Brinn and after she chose they would make the final decision.

Justin drove Brian back to the doctor’s office and  with the doctor’s blessing they put the final plans in place.  Brian had everything set at the office and Justin had everything in place for his business out there. After a big family dinner and lots of hugs the flight was set.

Gus called them the night before they left.  “I hope you have a great trip. I was just letting you know I am actually going to be in Pittsburgh next weekend so I will be staying at the house probably two nights.”

“What’s going on here in Pitt?”  Brian asked.

“It’s J.R.  Mama is sending her down to Michael’s but they thought I might be able to help.  She’s not even 16 and has gotten into the wrong crowd. Mama thinks she’s into drugs.  I know she has to be. She has changed so much. She doesn’t know it but I am going to help Michael get her into treatment with Blake.”    

“Oh, Gus, I hope you can talk to her, help her understand she needs help. You know you can stay as long as you want.  It is your home, too. Will Jamie be staying with you?” Justin asked.

“No, he decided he should go home.  He hasn’t seen his father for about two years.  If everything goes well there I will go meet his family.”

They could hear the excitement in his  “Oh, Gus, I hope that goes well.” Justin heard the hint of nervousness, too.  “Just be yourself, Son. Jamie loves you.”

“I know that but his family is different than us.  Last time he tried to talk to his dad….well, let’s just say it wasn’t positively received.”

They talked a little while longer and than Gus talked to Brinn for a few minutes before they said goodbye.

Brinn was very excited after landing.  She couldn’t wait to see the new house and meet her new friends.  Brian and Brinn headed up to the vineyard but Justin had to stay in San Francisco to talk to the manager of the art gallery. He would join his family the next day if all went well.

Brinn chattered all the way to the vineyard.  She squealed as they came around the last curve of the drive and the house came into view.  “Oh, Dad, I love it. It is just the right size for us. I love our house but it is so big. This one is just right for you and Daddy and me and I bet there is a room for Gus, too.”

“Of course, there is a room for Gus.  And there is a little house behind ours that you and your daddy will use to paint.”  Brian pointed off the main drive to a side drive, “Just over there is where the vinter and his family live and the huge barn that is used in making the wine.”

“Can I go meet my new friend?”

“I was told they wouldn’t me home today.  They went to the city for school shopping but they will be back tomorrow. Do you think you and I can fend for ourselves tonight?”

“Sure, I can unpack my own stuff and if you need my help I will make dinner.”

Brian laughed loud and hard. “I think I can manage dinner for the two of us. How would you like to go for a walk around our new place after I take a little nap to rest my eyes.  I probably will need you. My sight is almost back to normal but sometimes it still gets tired and since I drove up here my eyes are pretty tired but with your help I am sure we can get around just fine.” Brinn tried to hide a yawn.  “Would you like to lay down with me? I am sure you aren’t tired but I could use the company without your daddy here.”

“Ok, Dad, as long as I don’t have to kiss you like Daddy does.”

Brian was stunned for a second.  “Oh, Sweetheart, as much as I love you, I will never kiss you like I do your daddy and no other man should either.  That is something special for couples. If anyone ever tries to kiss you or touch you like couples do, will you promise to tell me or your daddy?”  

“I will, Dad.  I know about bad touch and I know that all my family will protect me. Now you show me where our bedrooms are and we can take that nap.”

Justin  arrived at the gallery. His long time agent Peter Gold,  met him at the door. “Justin, I am so glad you could come today.  I will be gone tomorrow and wanted to be the one to introduce you to the man in charge here.”  He turned and waved a man over. “Justin, I want to introduce you to Chris. Chris, this is one of the most talented artists you may ever meet, Justin Taylor.”

Justin offered his hand, “Taylor-Kinney actually.  I just don’t sign my paintings that way.”

“All I know, Mr. Taylor-Kinney, is that your latest work is beyond amazing.”

“Justin,” Mr. Gold said, “This is the exhibit that will put you on top.  You have done well for years but his last set of paintings of you and your husband has left anyone who has seen it, breathless.”

“Or hyperventilating,” Chris added.  “I have never seen anything so sensual.  It is as if you can reach out and touch the skin and feel the water droplets.”

“My  husband is a very attractive man.”

“I can vouch for that.  How is Brian?” Mr. Gold asked.

“He is fine.  He and our daughter are up at our vineyard.  I will join them tomorrow I hope. I would like to see the paintings in the display room.”  As he walked into the room, he caught his breath. They were displayed perfectly and if he said so himself, this was his best work.  Just looking at them made him wish Brian was there. He thought he could actually feel the warmth of his body coming from the portrait.  “You have outdone yourselves. Now I would love to see the mockups of the prints. I am fading fast after the trip here. I will plan to come in for the Friday showings for the next couple weeks as we have in my contract and after that, I will be just a couple hours away if I need to come in for approvals.”

When Justin arrived at his hotel he checked in and ordered room service.  After heating it wasn’t late but he was still on East Coast time. He ran a hot bath and got in before calling Brian.

Brian had just finished cleaning up the kitchen and kissing Brinn goodnight when his phone rang.  “Hello, Beautiful. I miss you already.”

“Oh god, Brian, all I can do is picture you naked in front of me. I know I painted them but those pictures make me so hot I can hardly….”

“Where are you now, Sunshine?”

“I’m in my room in the bathtub wishing you would walk through the door.”

“Touch yourself,  Sunshine. Take your cock in your hand and begin…”

“Oh, Baby, I am picturing your amazing cock as I stroke mine.  Can you feel my mouth on yours? I’m hot and my mouth wants to taste you.”

Both men stroked themselves off.  Justin then thought to ask. Did Brinn like the new place?”

“Yes, she loves  it. She just went to bed. She is very excited to meet Chantel tomorrow.”

“Well, I hope they get along well.  The more time she is busy, the more time we can have alone.  Did you take your medicine and drops?”

“Yes, Sunshine.  How soon will you be home so we can work on other positions for you to paint.”

“Maybe I can do one with that extender you have.  Please tell me you brought that along. I want to feel that again very soon. Ok, I have to hang up before I decide to make a trip to the grocery store for a zucchini. I love you, Baby.  I think I should be there around noon,” and the line went dead.

By 3 :00 a.m.  Justin gave up trying to sleep and left for wine country.  The sun was just peeking over the horizon as he turned onto the vineyard drive.  He hoped Brian was still tucked in bed and ready for company. Justin snuck down the hall and into their bedroom  He dropped his clothes on the floor as he walked toward the bed. He was thankful Brinn wasn’t in there with Brian. Brian was laying on his back near the edge of the bed so Justin dropped to his knees and leaning over took Brian’s cock into his hand and then into his eager mouth.  His tongue focused on the tip. He licked it over and over and soon Brian was moaning

“Sunshine, what are you doing home?  Get up here,” Brian pulled Justin by the hair gently until Justin was lying on top of him.  Justin began sliding up and down as their cocks rubbed against each other.

As they were kissing Justin finally separated long enough to say,  “I couldn’t sleep. I need you inside me, please.” Brian moved Justin off of him and with little effort was buried deep inside Justin. Justin instantly relaxed and within seconds was nearly asleep. Justin mumbled, “Needed to feel you,”  and he was sleeping. Brian pulled him close and they both slept peacefully.

Justin woke up an hour later and as he started to move he felt Brian still deep inside him. Justin began to work his muscles hoping Brian would begin to respond.  Soon Justin felt Brian begin to stretch him a little further, so Justin began to rock his hips and after just a little movement Brian began to thrust hard but then he pulled out.  “Brian, no, I need….”

Brian flipped him to his back and reentered him.  His mouth came down and crushed Justin’s mouth and then said, “I needed to see your face, Sunshine.”

After they climaxed together they lay nose to nose kissing and nibbling each other.  “I love you, Baby. I couldn’t sleep without touching you after having to look at every inch  of those paintings.” As he talked, Justin’s hand began to explore down Brian’s back and then into the crevice of his ass.  His finger began to tease and just as he broke the surface, the door flew open.

“Hey Dad, are you awake?” Brinn barged into the room.  After seeing Justin in bed she ran to the bed, “Daddy, when did you get here? Dad said you wouldn’t be here until lunch.”

He gave her a long hug, making sure the sheet stayed in place over him and Brian.  Brian’s arm came around both of them. Brinn began to crawl under the blanket.

“Um, Sweety, now isn’t the time for you to join us under the blankets.” Justin kissed her nose.

“In fact,” Brian began, “You know your daddy and I were just saying good morning.  Do you think you could go see what there is in the kitchen for breakfast? We will be there in maybe thirty minutes.  You can explore the house. We didn’t look at everything but don’t leave the house. The porch is fine but no further.”

Brinn smiled at her dads.  “You finish your kissing. I will find stuff for our breakfast.”  She kissed both of them and was out the door.”

“That was very clever, Mr. Kinney,” Justin repositioned his hand where it had been when they had been interrupted. “Does that mean, Mr. Kinney,”  Justin’s finger entered deeply, “that I have permission to make entry?”

“Oh, Sunshine, you  know if you want me I am always here.”

“I know, Baby, but I would never…. I want a willing partner.”

“With you, I am always willing.”  Brian said and to prove his point he got on his knees with his chest on the bed.

Justin’s mouth dropped open.  He couldn’t remember Brian every offering himself like this. Justin did not question it.  Justin took his time and entered him but then lost control as he felt the heat of his husband. Once more they came at the same time and they finished together.  Justin rolled off and lay on his back. Brian glanced at his face and started to laugh. “What is so funny, Brian?”

“Your face is just stunning. I would love to spend our day here but we have a daughter that will come back soon if we don’t go find her.”

“I love you, my darling.” Justin kissed Brian once more and then went directly to the shower.

An hour later the family was eating French toast, bacon, and eggs and their new adventure was beginning. The upgrades to the kitchen had been completed, as well as a few other minor repairs to the house.  Brian went to speak to Chris and Justin took Brinn out to the little building he hoped had been set up for his studio. Brinn was instantly infatuated with the little house and the view. “Oh, Daddy, this is like a little magic fairy house.”  Justin decided she was right and as he watched her explore his heart skipped a beat. He loved his daughter so much. Live was never boring when she was around. It made him miss Gus so he called him.

Justin left a message for Gus and a few minutes later the phone rang, “Hi Dad.”

“Hey, Gus, I was just missing you.  How is everything? Where are you?”

“I’m heading to Pittsburgh right now. Mom told Michael he had to let me talk to JR and he agreed because he wants what is best for her. I know Blake is expecting her tomorrow.  I just hope she will go without a fight. I am worried about her and I know Michael and Ben are, too.”

“Gussy, let me know what happens.  And call me if you need to talk. Everything good with Jamie?”

“He left for his parents.  I’m a little nervous about the outcome.  What if his parents reject him?”

“Then we will welcome him to our family.  You know that. You love him and we love you.”

“Love you, too, Dad.  Say hi to Brinn and Pops. I have to go now. It’s time to board the plane.” and he was gone.

Justin had an ominous feeling hanging over him. He wasn’t sure if it was because of JR or Jamie.  He should be worried about JR. She was so young to have that much trouble. He couldn’t imagine having those kinds of issues with a child.  It has to be killing all the parents involved.

Gus landed in Pittsburgh and Ted had sent one of the office cars to take him into the city and to Michael and Ben’s house.  He hadn’t seen either of them for over a year and hadn’t spoken to Michael for over five. Ben was always polite and tried to be neutral.   But no matter what, Michael always had his kids first. He just didn’t always think things through. The car pulled up to the curb and Gus grabbed his duffel.  The car pulled away as he approached the house. He rang the bell and waited. Ben answered the door.

“Hey, Gus, Wow you have really grown over the summer.  Well not grown but grown up.”

“Ya, it has been an eventful summer. Has JR gotten here?”

“She got here about two hours ago.  She hasn’t’ left her room since and Michael’s been outside of it trying to talk to her.  She isn’t happy. It appears she got drift of going to treatment. We are really glad you are here.”

“Are you sure Michael is glad I am here?”

“Gus, I know you have had your differences but you both want what is best for JR.”

“I know that, Ben.  I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t think he cared.” Gus responded. “I’ll head upstairs.”

“Thanks, Gus.”

Gus took the steps two at a time. He saw Michael sitting outside the door and nodded to him.  Michael walked toward him so they were a few feet away from the door.

“Has she said anything.  Ben said she got wind of why she was sent here.” Gus stated.

“Ya, Mel and her had a blowout when she was getting ready to come.  She won’t talk to me.”

“I’ll see if she will talk to me.”

“Gus, don’t…

“Michael, I know you don’t want me here and you don’t trust me but I only want what is best for my sister.”  

Gus walk to JR’s door and knocked, “Hey, JR, it’s Gus.  I flew in to spend the weekend with you!”

He heard her on the other side of the door, “Is my dad out there?”

“I am the only one at your door, JR, now come on!  I flew in from Chicago to see you.” He heard the door unlock and the door opened slowly.  “Hey, little sister.” He saw JR standing in front of him. She didn’t look good at all. Her eyes were unfocused and if he wasn’t mistaken she was trembling. He opened his arms and she stepped into her big brother’s arms.  He held her for a few long moments. “So, JR, what’s going on here. I have been out on tour and got this call from our moms and….they’re really worried about you.”

“They really want to be in my business.  You know how they are. I can’t do anything right in their eyes.”

“So why aren’t you speaking to your dad?”

“He wants me to go to some place.  He thinks I need help. Why would I need help?”

“JR, something had to have happened for them to think something was going on.  I am not saying you have but what do they think you have done.”

“They don’t like my boyfriend and I did get home a little late a couple times.”

JR and Gus sat next to each other and she curled against him.  “Why don’t they like him?”

“Well, they think he is too old for me for one thing.”

“How old is he?”

“He’s your age but he’s a great guy. He would never do anything I didn’t want to do.”

“JR, I am guessing you are having sex.”

“Well…..”

“Come on, Sis, it’s Gus.”

“Yes, yes we have been having sex but I want to.”

“I understand that, JR, but I’m confused.  There has to be more going on.”

“Gus,  they just won’t let me breath, you know what they are like.  They …..You left me with them. Now they only had me to focus on.  I just came home drunk once and…”

“JR,  you are really young to be out drinking.

“I know it was stupid but we just smoked some…”  she caught herself but it was too late.

“JR, what were you smoking?”

JR quit talking and moved away from Gus curling herself into a ball. “If I go get you a soda and some food will you let me back in?”  She didn’t speak but nodded.

Gus had been in there an  hour with her already he knew Michael and Ben would be wondering what was going on.  He found them in the living room, Michael jumping up when he saw Gus.

“Well, what has she said?” Michael asked him.

“Michael, do you have peanut butter and grape jelly by chance, and a couple bottles of water?  If you don’t have pb & J maybe an apple and peanut butter?”

Michael just stood there staring at Gus. “Food, but what have you learned?”

Gus looked over at Ben.  “I’m not sure we have grape.  Will strawberry preserves work?”  Ben asked.

“That would be great.” While been put the food together, Gus used the restroom.  When he came back to the kitchen Ben had a plate with a couple sandwiches and a couple apple as well as some water.

“Is there anything else you need?” Ben asked putting his hand on Gus’ shoulder.  

“A couple ounces of vodka?”  Gus asked cautiously.

“Absolutely NOT.  We think she has an issue and you want to feed into it?”  Michael approached.

“I can see she is starting to get shaky.  I just think a small amount will take the edge off when we are talking about it.” Gus said this directed to Ben.  “I need to get her to agree to go. She’s talking to me. If she is in withdrawal she may not be able to focus.”

“I don’t like it, but I  see where you are going with it,” Ben said and pulled a bottle out of the cupboard. “Here’s a little rum.” He again lightly grasped Gus’ shoulder.  Whatever you can do to convince her we just want to get her help.”

“I’ll do my best. Thanks, Ben.”  Gus glared at Michael as he walked past. “Thanks for nothing.”

Gus brushed past him and went back to JR’s room.  She was just rushing back into her room from the bathroom. As soon as they were both in the room she locked the door again. Gus dropped to the floor, back against the bed frame.  “Come sit with me and eat something.” He could see she was definitely shaking now.

“I’m not hunger,” her voice was shaky.  

“Will this help the appetite?” He pulled out the bottle and took a swig before passing it to her.  She quickly finished the bottle.

“Thanks,” she said softly and then took a sandwich off the plate and began to nibble on it.

They sat in silence as they ate the sandwiches and then Gus picked up an apple and bit into it. He looked at JR and softly said, “I think you need help, Sis.”

JR looked over at her brother as her eyes filled with tears. “Gus, I’m scared. Our moms have already thrown me out and my dads….especially my bio dad, is already having a cow.”

“JR, you need to check in for treatment.  Blake’s place is really good. My cousin’s wife works there, too, and my dad is talking to Blake for treatment himself. They will be able to help you, JR.  Please, Sis. I don’t want to lose you. I almost died in that accident a few months ago. I don’t want anything to happen JR.” He reached over to her and she dissolved into tears in his arms.

“Will you take me tomorrow?”  

“I can’t drive yet but I will go with you and I will stay with you all night if you want me to.”   He felt her nod. “Let me go talk to your dads and then I will be back, alright?” Gus left the room and found her dads.  “She has agreed to check in tomorrow. I‘m going to crash in her room so I can go with her. I am guessing you will drive us?”

“Thanks, Gus.” Ben responded.

Michael swallowed hard and looked at Gus. He did not speak but nodded and walked into Ben’s arms. Ben looked over Michael’s head and nodded at Gus. Gus turned and went upstairs.  JR got in bed. Gus laid on top of the blankets and pulled JR into his arms. He kissed her temple and said, “I’m always here for you, Jennie Rose. That’s what big brothers are for.”

Once was asleep he texted his moms and dads. It said, ‘JR checking in tomorrow. I am staying with her tonight.  Michael is still an asshole’. Gus got two responses. Mel returned a message, ‘Thank God! Thank you, Gus. Love you.’ He responded with a love you both.  Next text was from Justin. ‘So glad it went well. Talk soon. You did good.’

Brian and Justin had just said goodnight to Brinn when the text came in.  She was worn out from meeting her new friends and playing all afternoon. She talked a mile a minute as they ate dinner. She told her dads about how great it was having friends that lived so close and then the subject turned to hiring the tutor.  Brian and Justin were going to interview the two finalists tomorrow. They hoped she could start in the next week or two. If they had to wait another week or so Justin would start her classes. It would all work out. Justin had to be in San Francisco on the weekends once the gallery put the pictures on display.  They date had been set for the end of September so Justin hoped he didn’t have to leave the vineyard for a couple weeks.

Brian took Justin’s hand and led him to the porch where they sat side by side on a swing. Brian wrapped his arms around Justin and kissed him.  “I wanted to smell that fresh air and then,” He buried his nose in Justin’s hair, “I want to smell you. Our son is pretty special, isn’t he?”

“Gus is amazing.  He has grown up so much over the summer.  It hasn’t been easy for him but it has been a good learning experience. He grew from a boy to a man.” Justin turned on the swing putting his legs over Brian’s lap.  He took Brian’s hand and places it on his own crotch and then brought his lips to Brian’s. As his lips made contact, there was an audible sigh from both of them. “I think it is time for bed.  I had only a couple hours of sleep last night and I am getting really tired.”

“Sunshine, as much as I love to get into that hot little body of yours, let’s go to bed to sleep.  We can play the rest of our lives. Time to get some sleep. We will probably get an early call from Gus in the morning and we need to be there for him.” They walked through the ranch style house and into their room, falling asleep in each other’s arms.

Gus held JR’s hand as the walked up the steps of the clinic in the morning.  He carried an overnight bag for her and stayed with her until they got through the intake paperwork.  Before the took her to the closed area, she hugged her dads and then turned and hugged her big brother. “I’m scared, Gus.”

“You have my number.  You call me anytime you need me.  I know they won’t let you call for a couple weeks but after that I will always be there for you.”  He hugged her once more as she went through the door.

As Gus left the clinic he took out a phone to call for a ride out to the main house.  “Hey, Gus, can we give you a ride?” Ben put a hand on Gus’ shoulder.

“You don’t need to go out of your way. I can get a car.” Gus responded.

Michael walked up to Gus.  “I owe you an apology.”

“Don’t bother if all you want to do is make yourself feel better. Nothing you did or didn’t do caused JR to drink. You can take that off your check list of things you have to say. Now I am going to make my call.”

“Gus, please let me talk. I should have done this years ago.  I know what happened with Hayden wasn’t your fault. She convinced me of that a long time ago and I know I should have apologized but I kept thinking that it takes two and you had some guilt in this.  I know I should have realized you were young. I don’t know what to say. I was wrong. I was so wrong for not coming to you. I was just picturing your father and the way he had been. Gus, you are your fathers’ son.  You got the best of both of them and I am so sorry I hit you and accused you. I saw you with JR and you are a good man. She is lucky to have a brother like you.” Ben put an arm around his husband.

“We are really thankful for you, Gus.  Your calm and love for her got her to come today.”

“She’s my sister.  I love her and my dads taught me to do anything for family.  And they also taught me to accept sincere apologies.” Gus offered his hand to Michael who shook his hand and if you were serious about the offer I would like a ride out to the house.   I am really hoping my boyfriend will be calling me to join him soon and there are some things I need to pick up there. And please if there is anything I can do for my sister, let me know.”

Gus’ phone rang as they were pulling up to the house. He grabbed his bag and waved as he answered the phone.  “Hey, Jamie, great timing! How did your dad react to the news you are in love?”