Chapter 4

Over the next couple of months Brian and Justin tried for a baby and kept trying hard. As Justin had said, practice makes perfect. They had more sex than they usually had and while Brian certainly got fucked a lot more than he normally did in an average month, they both also made sure that their normal activities didn't fall to the side and that Justin's ass still got the attention it craved as well.

Neither of them wanted this whole trying for a baby to become mechanical or like a task they had to do, so they tried not to let it rule their lives and especially their sex lives. They had always had a pretty active sex life and now it had just gotten a bit more active than before.

Both Brian and Justin had agreed to keep their attempts to become pregnant a secret from their family and friends. Not because they didn't trust them or didn't want them to know, but mostly because neither of them was looking forward to having Debbie and Jennifer call them at all times of the day, asking if Brian was pregnant already. They would find out if it was to happen and if not, they would be none the wiser.

They had decided not to tell Gus and Luke either that they were trying for an addition to their family, deciding that they could tell them when Brian was pregnant. They were both pretty sure that both Gus and Luke would be fine with it and would be excited at the idea of having a younger brother or sister join their family, but neither of them felt ready to have either boy turn into a bad copy of Debbie and Jen and keep pestering them about updates about a possible pregnancy.

If it happened it happened and then they would find out. That was what Brian and Justin had agreed on and that was what they had done. And who knew? Maybe they would have to tell something soon, Brian thought as he once again retched and vomited the contents of his breakfast into the toilet bowl.

“Brian? Are you okay?”

“What does it sound like?” Brian snarked as he took a deep breath, hoping to calm his stomach down.

Justin came into the bathroom and looked at Brian who was leaning his head on his arms, taking deep breaths. Brian's stomach had been acting up for a couple of days now and he had been suffering from nausea, but only ever after breakfast, being absolutely fine for the rest of the day. Both men knew what this could mean and they had already made an appointment with Brian's doctor for later that day.

Brian retched some more and emptied the last contents of his stomach into the toilet bowl once more, when Justin knelt down at his side and gently rubbed his back. “Was it like this with Luke as well?” Justin asked quietly when Brian stopped retching and the worst seemed to be over.

“Yeah,” Brian just sighed. “God, I forgot how much I hated the morning sickness...,” He turned his head and glared at Justin. “I should have never let you near my ass without a condom. Ever!”

“Awwww, come on. You don't mean that. You and I both know how much you enjoyed it,” Justin teased, before he helped Brian up.

And the blond was right, Brian had to admit grudgingly. He had enjoyed Justin's dick up his ass without anything between them very much.

A smile spread on his face as he thought back to the first time Justin had topped him without a condom between them.

“Oh God... oh God, Brian... You're so tight and... God, this feels so amazing... Why didn't you tell me how amazing it felt...,” Justin breathed heavily as he pushed in and out of Brian's ass, fucking him to within an inch of his life.

A bit earlier that night, Brian had fucked Justin bareback for the first time ever in their relationship and it had been magical. Both Brian and Justin had been amazed by how different the whole experience of having sex felt without a condom and how much closer and more connected they felt when there was nothing between them.

It was amazing how much difference the thin layer of latex made. Who could have known?

“God, harder... Sunshine... So good... so amazing,” Brian moaned when thrust after thrust rocked his ass and he met each thrust with his own movement of his hips. This felt amazing. Just as amazing as fucking Justin had felt earlier.

The sheer memory of thinking back to that first fuck, of thinking back to him cumming in that tight channel of Justin's ass... God, Brian felt his balls tighten once more and felt his dick harden even more. Not that he had thought that was possible.

He could imagine how Justin was feeling right now, because he had felt exactly the same earlier that night when he had fucked Justin.

“God, I don't think I can last... Can't last, Brian,” Justin muttered, still pushing in and pulling out of Brian's ass at a steady rhythm.

After a couple of more thrusts, the younger man came with a loud, primal groan and emptied his seed into Brian's willing, welcoming ass.

He then collapsed on Brian's back, making them both tumble down onto the mattress. In his own bliss, he hadn't even noticed if Brian had come or not and felt slightly bad about that, but his own orgasm had just been too strong. He was sure something had short-circuited in his brain.

They lay like that for a couple of minutes, before Justin slowly started to pull out of Brian. When he started to pull away, he felt Brian move and felt his hand come around his backside, keeping him in place.

“Don't,” Brian whispered, slowly moving his head, so he could look up at Justin. “It feels amazing... Stay for a bit longer, please.”

Justin could only nod at that heartfelt request and stayed where he was, starting to leave small kisses on Brian's back and his neck.

They stayed like that for the longest time, before it was Brian that released his grip on Justin's round globes and turned his head once more, to meet Justin's for a quick kiss.

“That was amazing, Sunshine. God... otherworldly... Thanks...”

Justin could only chuckle, then started to slowly pull out of Brian, knowing that the older man was ready to let him go now.

“You felt so amazing,” Justin whispered once he had pulled out, leaning down next to Brian, their gazes meeting. “I can't even describe it. I think you fried my brain there.”

“Well, you're still able to talk and you were able to fuck me... I think we'll be fine,” Brian joked, before he turned onto his side and Justin saw the stain of cum on the bed beneath him. Okay, so Brian had come after all. Justin was glad for that.

He led his hand to Brian's cum and said silently. “I am sorry. I was so into it... I didn't even notice if you...”

“Don't worry. It was amazing. There was no way I wouldn't have cum.”

Justin smiled and they met for another kiss, before they headed for a quick shower and changed the linen of the bed.

Yeah, it had been amazing indeed and Brian had enjoyed it very much indeed. As had Justin.

Walking over to the sink, Brian quickly brushed his teeth, looking at Justin who was meeting his gaze in the mirror. “You know, this better not be just a stomach bug. I'll be so pissed if it is...”

“A stomach bug that only bothers you in the morning?” Justin raised an eyebrow at that.

“Well, you never know. I am just saying...”

“If it is, we'll be fine and we'll just keep trying, won't we?” the blond looked at Brian from under his long lashes.

“Of course we will,” Brian agreed, drying his face after he had used some cold water on it. “Just saying.”

“Does it feel the same as it did with Luke?”

“Well, it's vomiting. How does it feel really?” Brian mused, then turned around to meet Justin's gaze directly. “I guess we'll know soon enough.”

“Aren't there any other symptoms? Anything else?”

“What? Like a tightness in my tits?” Brian groused, making a face that showed Justin what he thought of his question.

“How would I know? Just asking,” Justin shrugged, before he turned around. Brian knew that he had hurt Justin with his thoughtless comment and he knew that Justin was only trying to show an interest in him and how he was doing. And Justin was right, how would he know? He hadn't been there when Brian had been pregnant with Luke and he had never been pregnant himself. Of course he couldn't know.

“Hey, Sunshine. Wait,” Brian walked after him and grabbed his hand, pulling Justin close until their chests touched. His voice was gentle when he spoke next. “At this stage, there would only be the morning sickness. Maybe some tiredness, but a lot of that can also be blamed on being sick the whole time, so... I guess not really. All the other symptoms like bloating like a whale, feeling the baby kick and all that stuff... that comes later.”

Justin nodded, accepting Brian's answer. When they left the bedroom, Brian remembered that there was something he had promised to do that morning. He had promised to take the boys to school. Shit! He had completely forgotten.

“What about Gus and Luke? Shit, we'll be so late...”

“Don't worry. I drove them. They both made it to school on time.”

“You did?” Brian raised an eyebrow. He hadn't even noticed that Justin had left.

“Where do you think I disappeared to while you puked your guts out?” Justin couldn't help but laugh, wondering what was going on in Brian's brain. Why else would he have left Brian on his own in the bathroom for half an hour?

“How long was I in there?” Brian frowned, having thought he had been vomiting for only a couple of minutes.

“About 45 minutes now,” Justin replied quietly, before they made their way into the kitchen and Justin put the kettle on to get Brian some tea to help him calm his stomach.

“Shit, really? Fuck, I need to give Ted a call. I'll never make it for the new Eyeconics pitch on time,” Brian sighed.

It had been Brian's plan to get the boys to school and then go into Pittsburgh into the office for the morning, so he could do the Eyeconics pitch, before he would return after lunch, so he and Justin could go and see his doctor about his vomiting.

“I called him on the way back from school. He knows you're not coming in today. I told him you still had that stomach bug. He'll do the presentation and he'll do fine. So don't fret about it.”

Brian made a face which only made Justin laugh. “I don't fret.”

“Yes you do and you know it. Ted has it all under control. You know that. Let him handle this and give your body some time to relax,” Justin urged, handing Brian the cup of fresh tea he had just prepared for him.

“Yes, mom,” Brian said mockingly which only earned him a snort from Justin in return.

“Kinky, but no thanks...”

“Are you sure?”

“Pretty damn sure... I might be blond and have blue eyes, but I don't do ice queen well,” Justin joked in reference to Brian's biological mother Joan.

“Well, Luke sure seems to do,” Brian winked, reminding Justin of that time when Luke had been in a Frozen phase and had loved to dress up in his Elsa dress that Emmett had gotten him. He had to laugh when he thought back to his stupid comment about him looking like Elsa in drag and how angry Luke had been with him for days afterwards. “And boy sure knows how to hold a grudge.”

“You deserved it,” Justin teased, coming over to Brian's side and bumping his shoulder against his partner's.

“Moi?” Brian theatrically lip-synched and raised his hands in innocence.

Justin just shook his head in amusement, then pulled back. “Are you okay? I was thinking of getting some more work on the large canvas done before we head to the doctor's.”

“I am fine,” Brian said in a serious voice, nodding towards the tea before him. “With you taking such good care of me, how could I not be?”

“Don't get used to it,” Justin said, before he moved to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water for himself.

“Oh, I intend to. At least for the next 9 months. Isn't that the deal? That you spoil me endlessly while I am carrying your child?”

“My child? And here I thought it was our child,” Justin huffed in good humour, looking at Brian from shining eyes.

“On good days it will be our child, on bad days or right after morning sickness, it will obviously be your child. That's how it works.”

“Why did I agree to this again?” Justin asked dramatically, as he walked back over to Brian's side and kissed his cheek gently.

“Because you love me and our sons oooooooh so much and can't wait to have another baby to love.”

“Right, I knew there was a reason,” Justin smiled, before he leaned in for a quick kiss. Once the kiss ended, he pulled back and looked at Brian from stern eyes. “Don't work too much, you hear me?”

“Well, since you already called in to the office for me and I don't have to do the Eyeconics pitch, how about I take a look at the new Dandy Lube designs and then yell at the art department because they will be shit for sure.”

“If only you knew an artist that understood you and your ideas,” Justin joked, then yelped when Brian gave him a clap on his ass as he walked away.

“I do, but he's too successful on his own and has show after show and refuses to come to work for me,” Brian said seriously.

He and Justin had been over this several times. Every time Brian got angry and frustrated with his art department for not getting his ideas and visions, Justin would just take one look at Brian's plans and would create a sketch that captured exactly what Brian had had in mind. Justin just understood him like no one else did and they worked together well.

Brian had suggested more than once that Justin should take on the job of head of art department at Kinnetik. When Justin had refused, Brian had offered him an advisory role which Justin had refused as well, claiming that he just didn't have the time with his own career and that really, he didn't want to become a part of the corporate world. He loved being an artist, he loved being independent and being able to create whatever came to his mind at whatever time he wanted and Brian knew that Justin was right.

Justin's career was going great, he was a well established artist with several shows a year, at least one or two of them international ones each year. Justin always made sure to schedule his international shows during the summer, so Brian and the boys could join him in France, Italy or wherever his agent sent him and seeing the joy on Justin's face when a show opened well and his paintings sold, Brian knew that he would never take that away from Justin. By now it was mostly a teasing game between the two of them. Justin knew that Brian respected and supported his own career in any way he could and was his greatest cheerleader and Brian knew that he would never ask Justin to give up his career or to change its direction.

Not after everything they had both sacrificed, so that Justin could have this career.

“Pity,” Justin threw over his shoulder with a laugh before he left the kitchen and left Brian on his own. Brian knew that he would be locked away in his studio for the next couple of hours and that he would probably have to remind him to have some lunch and to get ready for their appointment with his doctor. Once Justin got lost in his painting, he forgot all about time and the world around him and if it wasn't for Brian or the boys pulling him back to reality every once in a while, Brian knew that they wouldn't see Justin for days on time at times.

Watching after his partner as he left the kitchen, Brian couldn't help but smile. He really had gotten luckier than he deserved when Justin had forgiven him and had given their relationship another try.

Once he had finished his tea, Brian moved to his home office and got some work done. After a quick call with Ted to see how the Eyeconics pitch had gone (obviously Ted had done well and they had been as impressed as ever by the new campaign), Brian prepared a light snack for himself and Justin and decided to get his partner out of the depths of his studio before he got too lost in his own work.

Two hours later they sat in their doctor's office. Brian had just described his symptoms of nausea and vomiting and since the doctor had known about their attempts at having another baby, he immediately agreed that these could very well be pregnancy symptoms and he ordered a pregnancy test and ultrasound for Brian.

While they waited for the official results of the test, the doctor prepared the ultrasound and when Brian laid down, baring his stomach, Justin couldn't help but feel very nervous.

Brian sensed the nervousness in Justin and grabbed his hand, giving it a quick squeeze. “You alright?”

“Hmmm,” Justin nodded, his eyes glued to the screen where nothing was happening yet. “Just nervous.”

“Don't be,” Brian whispered, before the doctor started the ultrasound and started to spread the gel on Brian's lower abdomen.

After a couple of minutes of silence, he pointed to the screen and pointed at a small black dot that looked like nothing much to either Brian or Justin.

“I don't think that we'll have to wait for the results of the test to come back. Congratulations, you are pregnant!” The doctor announced, then turned to the men with a smile on his face. He then pointed at the screen once more, pointing out the head, a leg and some more things that were mostly only recognisable to him, but didn't mean much to Brian or Justin.

They trusted the doctor however and Justin was the first one to react. “Pregnant? Really?”

“I would say you're probably around the 8th week by now, but give me a minute to do some more measurements to be sure,” the doctor smiled at the couple that was clearly emotional.

Brian turned to Justin with glassy eyes, clearly feeling emotional. He wasn't surprised when he saw that Justin was actually crying. Justin had always been more emotional than him.

“We're going to have another baby,” Brian smiled, squeezing the smaller hand that was still holding on to his own.

Justin just nodded as the tears ran down his face, looking at Brian from shining eyes. He couldn't believe it. Well, yes, he could. After all they had been trying to have a baby for a couple of months now, but he couldn't believe it had really worked and that Brian was really pregnant. Which was ridiculous really, because they had been talking about pretty much nothing else for the last two days since they had recognised Brian's nausea and stomach problems for the morning sickness they now knew it had been. Yet it still felt amazing to have an official confirmation and to know for sure.

“I... I can't believe it,” Justin just whispered, his happy face turning to Brian's and leaning down for a quick kiss. He didn't care what the doctor thought, he just needed to kiss Brian right now.

Thankfully the doctor seemed to be used to such displays of affection and gave them a couple of minutes and just smiled at the men gently.

He pressed the button to print the ultrasound pictures, knowing that expecting parents loved to have the ultrasound images and then urged the couple to join him back at his desk.

Before they left, he gave them some information, confirming that Brian was indeed between seven and eight weeks pregnant, that his due date would be at the end of March of next year and that he wanted to see Brian again in four weeks time for another ultrasound, just to make sure that everything was alright, but that for now everything looked great and there was nothing to worry about.

Both men felt as if on a high when they left the office and if Gus and Luke noticed that their parents seemed extremely giddy and happy for some reason, they didn't comment on it, just thinking that it was just one of those things they would only understand when they were older. Something they often heard from both their fathers and everyone else in their family.