Chapter 3

Day 4

Oh Daphne,

I wish I knew if you would get this.  Last night I tried to send out several emails including you and mom but I won’t know if it went through until tonight.  I wish I knew where we were.  The guy at the rental car agency should be able to come close since he sent us both down the wrong road.

Daph, I am stuck  here with Brian Kinney.  Remember when I told you about the pompous ass at my job interview at Kinnetik? That is the man I am stuck with.  If only he wasn’t so damn gorgeous.  You can’t tell anyone but I had a little meltdown on night two.  I don’t know what took over me but, god, I hate to admit this. I slept with him.  You know I’m with Steven but I needed comfort and  it just sort of happened.  We drank way too much but he is the most amazing lover I have ever….  Enough about that. 

Last night I slept upstairs.  I have never slept in a room that was so cold. In fact.  I need to get off this now so I can go downstairs. I’m freezing and I don’t want to drain the battery completely.

Justin pulled on the ugly robe and quickly went downstairs.  He had put on a pair of long underwear he found in the drawers before going to bed and he had to admit, the bed itself was very comfortable and the weight of the blankets really was comforting.  First his mind kept wandering downstairs but soon he had fallen sound asleep. Now he walked downstairs and rushed to the bathroom.  He really needed to…. Although the bathroom door was open it wasn’t empty. Brian stood by the toilet emptying his bladder.  

“Shit, you couldn’t shut the door?”

“It’s not like you haven’t seen it before.” Brian shook off his cock and stepped away.  “It’s all yours.” Brian waved his hand and stepped back.

“You are not going to stand there and watch me pee.  Get out of here.”  Justin knew he couldn’t wait much longer.  Brian finally walked out and Justin slammed the door behind him.

When Justin came out of the bathroom he had dressed, leaving on the long underwear.  He had a feeling he would be going outside again today.  He knew it would be too much to expect Mr. Kinney to go out and look around.  There was one more building he was going to check out.  It should be easier now that he had snow shoes.  If he could find more gas would be perfect.  The only thing better than gas would be to find something that they could use to signal anything, planes, neighbors, anything.

He walked to the kitchen and found out Brian had at least heated the water.  Justin started asking Brian what he would like for breakfast and decided it didn’t matter what he wanted.  There was still plenty of bread he had made yesterday and he started heating the pan as he mixed some powdered eggs and powdered milk into scrambled eggs.  He tasted them and they were edible but they had a lot to be desired. He went back into the pantry and found some salsa.  He put some of the salsa on the plates.  He cut a couple large slices of bread for each of them and put them in a pan with a bit of oil just to warm it up.  He drizzled a little honey on each slice and then put eggs and bread on each plate.  He shivered.  He had a feeling the temperature had dropped drastically overnight.

Brian had stayed out of the kitchen and when Justin carried both plates of food to the fireplace. He was about to make a snide remark when he noticed Brian had a cup of tea waiting for him. 

“Thanks,” Brian said as he took the plate.  He took a big bite of the bread.  “Do you cook like this for Steve?”

Justin sipped his tea. “Steven and I usually cook together. We are a couple.  We share duties and enjoy doing things together.”

“And you really think you can do that for the rest of your life?  What do you do for fun? The laundry?”  Justin kept eating without saying a word.  “I know you go to the LBGT community center in your neighborhood for a thrilling night with all the other twinks.

Justin glared over at him but refused to feed into his taunting. Justin finished his plate of food and drank the remainder of the tea.  He set his plate down by the fireplace and then after going into the kitchen, came back with a pan of water and set it in front of the fireplace.  He had put on his outside clothes.

Justin finally spoke in a flat emotionless tone,  “I’m putting on the snowshoes and checking out the last building on the property.  The dish water should be warm in a little bit. Once those are done, check the wood supply.  And Mr. Kinney, if you can stay awake long enough, check on me if I don’t come back in a reasonable amount of time.  I will make some noise every so often letting you know I’m ok but if you hear a lot of noise come find me.”

“Stop calling me Mr. Kinney!”

“I’ll do that, Mr. Kinney.”  Justin walked out of the room and went out the door.

Brian watched him walk out.  He didn’t know if he had ever met a man that aggravated and intrigued him so much at the same time. He knew he would be in big trouble if he wasn’t here with him.  He got up and did the dishes in the warm water.  He emptied the dirty water into the sink and put the clean dishes away.  He went back into the living room and pulled out his computer. He started it up and started an email:

Ted,

Fuck, I hope you are taking care of my company.  I hope you got my email from last night so someone is looking for us.  We are at least warm and fairly comfortable although I would kill for a long, hot shower.

(Especially with Justin. His mind wandered off to that powerhouse body that had made him feel so amazing. Brian heard a knock from far away.  Justin must have made it to the building.)

At least Justin knows what he is doing.  If only I could convince him sleeping together would keep us both a whole lot warmer and I would be a whole lot happier with him in my bed.  

Ted, I hope you get this and I hope you find us soon.  I’m not sure how long I can eat powdered eggs for breakfast.

Brian shut off his computer and looked out the back door Justin was just poking his head out of the building and banging two pieces of wood together so Brian knew he was alright.  Brian looked up at the sun and saw a halo around the sun.   He knew it had to be cold out there. He found himself pacing.  He wasn’t sure why but he wasn’t going to relax until Justin was back in the house.  He added wood to the fire and then to his relief, he saw Justin coming across the yard pulling a sled which seemed to be full.  

“Brian!” Justin’s excited voice called out.  “Come grab this stuff.” 

Brian came to the door and Justin handed him a box and then grabbed one himself and carried it in. “More whiskey?” Brian asked.

“We aren’t going to get through what we already have of that. Open the box! Inside the box were jars of home canned meat  “And in here there is jerky.  That little building is just  the entry to a storm cave.”

“Do you think it is safe?” Brian asked.

“They are all sealed tight and they are dated last summer.  They should be fine.  I’ll try it tonight. I am going back for one more load.  I found a lot more wood  I want to bring back and it looks like another storm is coming in so we will need all the wood we can get.”

“Justin, why don’t you warm up first.”

“Daylight is going to be leaving soon.  Once those clouds roll in, I don’t want to be out there.”

“Why do I get the feeling you aren’t telling me something?”

“Well, I’m not sure what to tell you but I saw tracks out there.  I don’t for sure what they are.  I don’t think they are big enough for a bear but they remind me of dog tracks so maybe it is a wolf.  I would just as soon not have it  wandering around here at all but if it shows up I don’t want to be out there.”  With that Justin turned and walked out the door. 

Brian watched him go.  He was such an irritating little…. Brian didn’t finish the thought.  He didn’t think he could do what he was doing.  He knows there’s a wolf out there.but he still just walked out there again.  Maybe he should go out with him. Brian shivered. Justin would just call him Mr.  Kinney again.

He opened his computer and opened his computer again and added to his message to Ted.

Now he went back outside and he knows there is a wolf out there. He is to hot to get eaten by a wolf.

As Brian closed the computer he saw it was already 4:00 pm.  It surprised him how fast the time had gone today.  They had eaten late and then he had done the dishes and then stocked both heat sources.  While Justin had been outside he had gone upstairs.  That room Justin had slept in was so cold.  How did he sleep up there although the bed did look very comfortable?  His mind traveled back to the night they shared downstairs and…  Eventually he went back downstairs.

Now Brian realized he hadn’t heard anything from Justin.  He walked to the door and looked out.  As he looked out he was sure he saw something on the edge of the woods.  He had to be imagining it.  Didn’t he?” The sun was setting quickly and he  focused past the building Justin was in.  There was something moving there.  He stepped outside and started banging two pieces of wood together, so Justin would notice him.  He saw the sled was nearly loaded with wood. Justin came out and looked over at him.  He moved his hand telling Justin to come back to the house.  Brian would swear he saw him roll his eyes from across the compound.  He went back into the building but then Brian saw him come back out, drop some logs on the wagon and then he closed the door.  It was then that he saw him look around and notice the movement in the woods.  

What does he want now? Justin had thought when he heard Brian making noise to get his attention but now as he closed the building up tight he noticed what Brian had probably seen. Looking back at him was a huge gray wolf. For a moment he froze but then he started to move.  He tried not to run which took his full control not to do but he couldn’t run in the snowshoes and pulling the sled.  Brian’s focus went from Justin to the wolf.  

Justin glanced over his shoulder every couple steps  When he was about halfway to the house, he could tell the wolf was getting closer to the building, which meant Justin wasn’t making much progress putting space between them. 

“Come on, Justin.  Walk as fast as you can.  I’m watching him!  Just pull the sled into the porch.  Keep coming.  He is not coming closer right now.  He’s still at the building.” Brian kept talking until Justin  was at the door.  He came straight into the cabin with the sled and all.  The door was barely closed before the first howl went up.  Moments later they heard several more yips and calls in return.

Justin’s eyes went big and Brian pulled Justin into his arms and squeezed him tightly.  Justin felt Brian’s whole body tremble  He looked up into Brian’s face, “Why are you shaking? I’m the one that almost became a chew toy,” Justin smiled at him.

“It isn’t funny.  You could have been….Oh, god.”  Brian’s face was as white as the snow outside.’

“Well, I’m in here safe and hope to be warm soon if you’ll let me in.”

“Oh, ya sure.” Justin walked into the kitchen while Brian quickly moved the wood off the sled and cleared the path to the back door.  “How can you be so calm?”

“Obviously, I was nervous but with you  making noise over here, I didn’t expect him to come after me.   Of course I didn’t know the rest of his gang was that close by.” Justin pulled off all the outer close and then looked closer and Brian.  “Are you alright? You don’t look very good.”

“I just don’t like….if you haven’t noticed I am not the outdoorsy type.  That kind of shit just scares the crap out of me.”

Justin really looked at him and he could tell it was genuine fear.  “Mr. Kinney, Brian, we are perfectly safe in the house and I don’t see either of us going out after dark so truly are in no danger.” Justin reached out and touched his shoulder but he drew it back quickly.  There was no doubt there was a physical tug between them.  “I’m going to get on those warm slippers and then I will make dinner.”  Justin walked toward the kitchen and Brian followed him. He almost asked him to stop but Justin saw the look in Brian’s eyes and didn’t say anything.  Justin put the slippers on just as the pack of wolves started howling.

“Are they closer?  I think they are closer,” Brian said nervously.

Justin smiled gently at him, “Come on, tough guy.”  Justin linked arms with Brian and they walked back to the kitchen.  “I was thinking we could try the meat I found and some potatoes?”

“I’ll help.  What can I do?”

“Why don’t you make the potatoes?  Just follow the directions on the box.  I’ll take care of the rest.” Justin was glad the wolves calmed down.  He wasn’t sure Brian could deal with it all night.

Ten minutes later the meal was ready.  Justin had tasted the meat and it didn’t need any seasoning.  All he had to do was thicken the juice a bit.  To finish off the meal he opened a can of vegetables and Brian split the potatoes between the two Brian gave them each a serving of the meat and split the vegetables.  “I’ll put the rest of the meat out on the porch so we can finish it tomorrow or the next day.”

They walked into the living room.  Brian tossed another log on the fire and they both sat down. Justin made himself slow down. He had to admit he was really hungry.  Walking in the snow had worn him out.  He yawned as he finished every last bite.  

Brian looked at him, “I didn’t know you could even can meat in a jar like that but that was really good.”

Justin stifled a yawn, “Ya, it is really good.”

“Justin, why don’t you let me wash up the dishes.  If you take care of the leftover food, I’ll do the rest and then you can do the internet first tonight.” 

“I can help,” Justin said.

“You’re right, you can.  Put the meat away and I got the rest of it. I should be done in less than 15 minutes so you can send your emails while I finish and then I will send out mine.  Hopefully, someone responds to one of us.”

Once Justin had taken care of the food he got his computer out.  He called up the email he had ready for Daphne and added a couple sentences.

‘I did a little exploring today and met one of our neighbors, a wolf.  He has brought more of his buddies with him tonight but we are safe inside for the night. However, Mr. Kinney isn’t fond of them anywhere in earshot but he has helped out a little more today. And fuck, he is so hot.  I love Steven.  I do love him.  I plan to be with  him for the rest of my life.  Please, Daph, I hope you can see this. Love, Justin’

Justin crossed his fingers and turned on the wifi unit.  He waited and waited but nothing came through on his email account.  He hit send on the email to Daph and then shut the computer to let it charge. Brian brought the dirty dish water to the kitchen and emptied it into the sink and then he refilled it again.  He brought the tub back to the living room and put the tub near the fire.

“What’s that for?” Justin asked as he stretched out on the sofa.

“I thought some hot water to wash up would feel good.” Brian grabbed his computer and turned it on.  “Did you have any luck?”

“It didn’t look like it although it said it sent.  Maybe they got ours even if we can’t get theirs.”

“None here either.  I hope you’re right.”  Brian finished up Ted’s email.

Ted, there are wolves out here.  I hate nature.  Get me out of here.

Brian, YOUR BOSS

Brian closed his computer and looked over at the sofa.  He couldn’t see Justin’s face.  His blond hair looked like strands of gold in the firelight.  That was one beautiful man.  He went to get a couple washcloths and towels, along with a bar of soap. It was a bar he had brought with him.  He stood in front of the fire and stripped off his shirt. He washed above the waist and then glanced at Justin, who was still asleep, and slipped out of his pants to finish.  

Justin’s eyes opened and he watched Brian in silence as he cleaned himself.  Justin held his breath as he watched Brian.  He was so beautiful.  Justin put a hand over his growing cock and a soft moan slipped out before he could stop himself.

“Oh, you’re awake.  I’m about done so the water is all yours.” He pulled on some briefs and slipped on a robe he had found somewhere.  “Do you think the wolves are gone for the night?”  They had heard one a couple times through the evening but they had been further away and it had been a while.

“You know we are secure …” he stopped.  This was obviously a fear he couldn’t control. “I can’t be sure but they have been staying further away.” He smiled over at him.

Brian’s cock reacted instantly.  He had never had just a smile do that to him.  Brian dropped into a chair and crossed his legs.

“Seriously, you’re going to sit there and watch me.”

“You watched me,” Brian smirked.

Justin was going to protest but instead he stripped completely naked and took his time using the fragrant soap Brian had used and took his time washing himself from head to toe.  By the time he had finished, Justin could see Brian’s erection through his robe.  Justin slipped on the robe and carried the tub of water to the bathroom to empty it.  He came back through to pick up his computer and filled a glass full of water.  “Good night,” he said and he went up the stairs.

Brian’s hand went under his robe and he began rubbing his cock.  Why wouldn’t that little twit just share his bed? They would both feel so much better. As he began to cum he spoke out loud, “We both would.” As Brian groaned with relief, a yip could be heard clearly followed by a howl. “Fuck!  I hate those things.” Brian stood and picked up his computer and walked to the bedroom.  He stoked the stove so it would burn most of the night and, although he knew it was stupid, he put the little chest in front of the door. What did he think, the wolves would come in from the door?

Brian opened his computer but then set it back down.  He couldn’t think about a future campaign.  All he could think about was the attractive man upstairs and the wolves out in the yard.  Brian laid down and pulled the blankets tightly around his neck and closed his eyes, wishing for sleep. He felt like such an idiot.  Why did those big dogs outside  terrify him to his very soul.

Justin had dropped into bed the second he got upstairs.  His body was sore from all the physical labor he had done today and he really hoped that tomorrow he could spend some time on his art.  He missed it and if his muscles were telling him anything, he didn’t plan to leave the house unless there was an emergency. Maybe he would pull out his sketch pad and a …. Brian Kinney confused the hell out of him.  He really could be sweet but his cockiness overwhelmed that part of him.  And why did he use the word cockiness….his cock….wow, did he know what to do with that. As his eyes fluttered shut in the distance the wolves continued to make their presence known.

Everytime Brian dozed off something woke him up.  As he laid there he was sure he heard footsteps and he was sure it was more than one animal but he wasn’t about to look and see.  Brian sat up and pulled on the robe. He got up and paced first in the bedroom and then he went out to the living room. He was a bundle of nerves.  Even when a log crackled, he nearly jumped out of his skin.  When he was sure he heard a wolf on the front porch only a couple feet from where he stood in the house.  Without thinking about it, he opened the staircase door and after pulling it shut tightly behind him, he took the stairs two at a time.  It was freezing up there, literally freezing.  How did Justin sleep up here, he thought as he stood outside the door but then when a choir of howls and yips sounded he rushed in.

Justin couldn’t see much in the room.  There was a bit of moonlight coming through the window but he still had to blink several times for his eyes to adjust.  “Brian, what are you doing in here?”

“Justin, I just can’t be down there. I can hear the monsters outside my windows. There has to be hundreds, well at least ten.  I wish I knew why but…. I don’t want anything else… well I want but I promise I won’t do anything.  I just need some sleep.  I just….”  Brian’s tone told Justin all he needed to know.  Justin moved over and Brian got in.  “How do you sleep up here? It is so fricking cold!”

“Trust me, you will warm up quickly.  I have enough blankets on this bed to warm anyone.”  Justin moved a little closer to him and put his hand on his shoulder. He jumped but then he relaxed and moved back a little bit so he could feel the heat from Justin’s body.  Justin draped his arm over Brian’s still trembling body.  “Do you just not like dogs?”

“It’s not really dogs. It’s more predators in general.  I know it is absurd for a grown man to react like this. I know it is irrational.”  He took a deep breath, “I really don’t want to talk about this.  I just want to get some sleep.”

“Sure,” Justin moved closer to him instinctively as you would a small, scared child. He wrapped his arm more tightly around his waist  and felt Brian’s body finally relax and go to sleep. Now it was Justin’s turn to struggle to find sleep.  He could feel the lean muscle under his fingers and his body wanted more.  Eventually his mind wandered to the night they spent together and he drifted off wanting more.

Hours later Brian woke to the feel of Justin pressed tightly against him.  He felt his dick react as he felt Justin’s pressing against his ass.  He had promised Justin he wouldn’t try anything  but if he rolled over in his sleep and pulled him close….  Brian turned over and in his sleep Justin rested his head on Brian’s chest.  Brian kissed his forehead and then his temple.  He couldn’t resist and dropped a kiss on his lips but Justin’s reaction took him by surprise. Justin’s arm went around Brian’s neck and, with his hand on the back of his head, he took the kiss far deeper than Brian had planned. As Justin’s body pressed against him, he pulled his hips tightly to his. As his hand moved into the long underwear Justin was wearing his body went rigid.

“What the….” Justin began to protest but as Brian’s hand moved over the bare skin of his ass he looked into Brian’s eyes and gave in to his needs. He left all inhibitions behind and as he moved down Brian’s body and took his erection in his mouth, pushing the briefs out of the way.  He moved his hand between Brian’s legs and began massaging his perineum.  Brian could barely hold himself together.  This young guy he had been with only once, knew just how to take his breath away.  

“Oh, shit, Justin, I’m going to cum do you want me to fuck you?”

Justin’s tongue didn’t stop.  As Brian shouted and began to shoot, Justin caught and swallowed it but with a little gizz still on his lips he looked up at Brian.  “I’m figuring it’s your turn. Flip over!”

“Oh no, I don’t bottom.”

“Well, then, neither do I.” Justin moved away from him, “And when the wolves start up again..”  When he noticed Brian’s face he stopped.  “I’m sorry, that was a low blow.  I shouldn’t have gone there and I won’t again.  I guess I’ll get up and….”

“No,” Brian pulled him close.  He hoped he had made some progress this morning.  He could take it once for more nights like this.  He offered Justin his back.

“I wish I could do this the way I want to but it is less than 32° in here so we are going to have to settle for the basics.” Justin’s hand moved between Brian’s cheeks and began to gently massage Brian’s bud and as he worked it, Brian let his sphincter relax.  After Justin had worked first one and then a second finger deep inside of him and as he moved them, Brian was already fighting to control himself.  Then Justin positioned himself, put on a condom, and in one slow but steady movement he entered him up to the hilt.  Justin didn’t move for several moments but when he started again he angled himself just a bit so every stroke was felt through his very soul. Brian was powerless.  Wave after wave of pleasure ran through his body and as Justin stopped moving and then thrust three more times Brian nearly wept. He had sex thousands of times but he had only made love a handful.  Someone had just made love to him and it rocked his soul.

Justin withdrew and then rolled on his back and stared at the ceiling. “I shouldn’t have….Damn! I’m in a committed relationship!”  Justin refused to look at Brian.

“Justin, have you ever heard of the Gay Man’s Handbook?”

“Is that something off of the best seller’s list?”

“No, it is more a list of dues and don’t gay men have followed for years.”

“Ok? What about it?”

“Well there is a law about stepping out of a committed relationship.  If there is more than 400 miles between you a one night stand is allowed.”

“So what’s your point.  It’s been twice now.”

“Well,” Brian reached over and ran his finger along Justin’s jaw, the only part of his body above the blankets, “If your significant is out of the country for more than fourteen days all bets are off.”

“You’re making that up.”

“Actually, I have a friend, Emmett that knows all the rules and I can’t remember how he words the fourteen day rule but  it’s there.” Brian had a twinkle in his eye as he smiled at Justin.

“Well, that’s not the agreement I made with Steven.”  Justin was uncomfortable with this conversation so he turned it on Brian, “So what did cause your fear of wildlife?”

Brian’s face changed.  Justin could only say it was the look a small child would have when they were unsure or scared about something.  “I just came from a really screwed up family.  I only remember one family vacation.  I think my dad had won some raffle at work.  Well, never mind.  You don’t want to hear this.”

Justin turned and looked at Brian, “Actually, I do.” Justin couldn’t resist brushing the hair off his forehead.

“I think the only person my mom and dad hated more than each other was me. I was about five or six and my mom didn’t want me to get dirty so she told me I had to stay on the porch.  Well, I was a kid. I went exploring.  Mom lost her shit when she saw how dirty and told Dad about it.  After Dad beat my ass black and blue he told me about all the big, dangerous animals in the woods and then left me in my room without dinner.  That night there was a wolf or coyote that came through the area and I lay in my bed listening to the howling for what seemed like hours.”

“Why didn’t you go to your parents during the night?” Justin’s hand had found a resting spot on Brian’s chest.

“That wasn’t allowed. I know it is stupid to still be afraid but I could only picture the stories my dad had told me about being ripped apart by a bear or a wolf.”

“No child should have to go through that.  My childhood wasn’t perfect, not even close, but I could always count on my mom.  I still can.  You never crawled into their bed and snuggled or got on your mom’s lap for a story?  Who kissed your booboos?” Justin laid his head onto Brian’s chest.

Brian laughed at that,  “When I got to Junior High I made a best friend. Michael’s mom, Debbie, although a bit of a flake, was the first person who, in her own crazy way, showed me what it meant to have someone love you.  That’s when I decided if I made it without love for the first 14 years, I could probably make it the rest of my life.”

“You don’t want to find someone to love? Who will love you?” Justin looked up into his face. When you want to be you are very lovable. He gently bit Brian’s chin and then his mouth moved up. “Loving someone is what makes a person complete.  We were made to be with someone.”

“Oh, I never have trouble finding someone to be with.  Hell, there are weeks I’m with three or four different people.”

“But who do you call, who do you want to be with when you are having a bad day?”

Brian thought about that for a moment, “Well, sometimes I’ll call my friend, Mikey.  He has always been there.  He knows me better than anyone.”

“So, you’ve been lovers?”

“Oh, no, nothing like that. He just knows me.”

“I’m sure he does but until you are in a real relationship where you share everything, including your body, it’s not the same. Having someone look you in the eye and saying, ‘I love you’. There is nothing like it.”

“That kind of love is just a fairytale, especially for people like us.  Gay men were not meant for manogomy.  We just aren’t made that way.”

“We are humans, we are made to love and be loved.” Justin took a condom and slipped it on Brian.  Then straddled his body, under the blankets he slipped down onto Brian’s dick.  He then laid forward onto Brian’s chest and kissed him once before flinging the blankets back  As the frigid air hit both of them, Brian began to raise and lower his hips rapidly and with Justin meeting him move for move, it wasn’t long before they found release once more.  

Justin jumped up, slipped on the robe and slippers before grabbing his computer bag and he dashed down the stairs.

Brian laid in the bed and felt the goosebumps rise all over his body.  He wasn’t looking for a relationship.  He didn’t believe in relationships.  He believed in fucking.  Maybe Justin was right.  They shouldn’t be screwing around.