Chapter 8

Justin was in bed with Steven.  He felt his warmth.  Reaching back he placed his hand on Steven’s hip and pulled him a little closer. He felt his erection pressing against the back of his ass. Then there was a noise in the room. Why was the furnace so loud this morning? 

“Good morning,” a deep sleepy voice said behind him.

“Shit!” Justin said loudly.  He tried sitting up but Brian held him in place. “Let go of me, you ass hole.  There is a plane or something!” Both men jumped up, slipped on robes,  and ran out into the cold house.  They didn’t take time to put on shoes so ran out into the snow in their slippers.  At first they didn’t see anything but could hear what they now could tell was a helicopter.   Soon it came back into view and this time something was dropped from a window and a small parachute opened on it as it drifted down. 

Justin ran to the spot and grabbed the box and read the note on the box.  “Wave if you are safe for now.  If safe, we will be back in 3-5 days by road.”  The copter moved around and Justin shouted back to Brian, “Wave!  I’ll explain later.  WAVE!”  Both men waved at the machine. It dipped low and a hand came out giving the thumbs up and then it moved away.

Justin rushed back to where Brian was standing and kissed him quickly as he rushed to the house.  Once inside they both rushed to the fireplace.  Brian added several logs to the embers still glowing in the hearth.  When he had done that, Justin handed him the note and then sat down and began to rip open the package.  Inside there was a longer note telling them the helicopter was mountain search and rescue.  It said that when they knew they had located them they would start working their way up to the location.  It also gave the second scenario that they would go refuel and find a place as near as they could to rescue them.

“It’s about fuckin’ time!” Brian said under his breath.  Justin looked up at him and for an instant though he saw something else in his eyes. “Finally, we are getting out of here.”

“Was it so horrible being stuck with me?” Justin asked as he turned to look him directly in the eye.

“No, Justin, I know if it wasn’t for you I would be in bad shape if not dead.  And you definitely were a pleasant distraction from time to time.” Brian stepped closer to him and kissed him. “Can I make a suggestion?” Justin looked at him but didn’t say anything.  “Let’s grab a bite and go to bed.  I want to fuck for the next 24 hours and then we can start organizing and packing up.  I will figure out how much I think is a fair price for the owners so when we find out who they are I can settle with them for both of us.  I am sure you and Steven survive but I also am guessing you don’t have a lot of extra cash around.”

Justin’s brain was swimming.  In just a few days they would be back in the real world and although he didn’t expect Steven to be back, he would have to face up to the fact that he would be back very soon and he knew he was going to leave.  Maybe he needed to find a job out of Pittsburgh so they wouldn’t run into each other, so their friends wouldn’t feel like they had to choose sides.

“Blondie, where’d you go in that brilliant mind of yours?” Brian gently placed his hand on his neck using his thumb to stroke the chord near the front of his neck, stepping slightly closer. 

As Justin looked into Brian’s eyes and felt the warmth of his hand, he gave into the need to feel this man once more. “It’s not important right now.” He sprang at him placing his hands on either side of his head and pressing the entire length of his body against him. After a kiss that hinted at what was to come, Justin brought his mouth to Brian’s ear, “I am going to bury myself so deep in you, you’ll never forget me.”

“Ya, right.  That’s not going to….” Justin cut off his words with another kiss that had Brian rethinking what he had planned to say. As the kiss went on Justin opened Brian’s robe and dropped to his knees.  As Justin took him all the way in Brian said,  “I don’t know who taught you to do that but …” Brian groaned.

Justin pushed him backward so Brian was sitting on the sofa. As Brian erupted in his mouth, Justin swallowed and then Brian pulled him onto his lap.  “When my mom complains I was a fussy baby I always tell her she gave me the wrong thing for a pacifier.”

“You actually say that to your mom?”

“I do, now. My mom came around as soon as she dumped Dad.  He has disowned me. I know I mentioned that earlier.” Brian’s hand had found its way under Justin’s robe and he began to massage his ball sack. Justin laid back and let Brian’s touch roll through him.  When Brian’s hand moved below and stroked his way backward.  Brian moved just a bit so he had a better angle and as one hand kept up the massage he inserted a finger on the other hand and began to stroke his prostate.  Justin could not contain control and when he came it was almost earth shattering. He lost total control of his body and for a moment his mind.

“Brian Kinney, I need to know and I need to know right now.  Once we leave here, what are we?  Friends? Lovers? Acquaintances?”            

“How about employer, employee with a significant raise and many fringe benefits from the boss?”     

“A job? Fringe benefits?” Justin looked at him. “I can’t just be the boss's piece of fluff."   

“Justin, it is obvious you are no one’s piece of fluff. I have seen some of your work and you are so talented.  I want you to come and work for me but first, Justin….I just want to cum, and cum, and cum and…” Brian pulled him up to his mouth and almost savagely kissed him.  “I hope the fall from the roof didn’t do anything…..”

Justin stood and offered his hand to Brian.  “It’s good.” He didn’t say another word as they walked back to the bedroom. Once in the bedroom, Brian threw another log on the fire and they both dropped their robes.  Justin turned Brian away from him and began running his finger up and down between his cheeks. Brian leaned over and put his hands on the mattress to brace himself as Justin began demanding entry with his finger.  He continued massaging until it slipped in. Brian shivered a bit and Justin could feel his breathing slow as he tried to relax.  Soon Justin bent and brought his mouth down and he began to probe Brian now began to tremble ever so slightly, fighting to regain control.  When Justin replaced his mouth with his finger and began to stroke his prostate, Brian dropped his chest down.  

Justin spread Brian’s feet further apart and then he grabbed a concom.  He now pressed inward and Brian sucked him in.  Justin gave him a chance to adjust and then began to move in long steady strokes that had Brian fighting to hold on and the second Justin reached around and touched his balls he nearly screamed as he came in wave after wave.

They both fell on the bed side by side.  “Damn,” was all Brian said as he flipped over to his back. “Just Damn.”

It was about 2:00 pm before Justin turned over and said, “Are you as hungry as I am?”

“God, I am. You’re like the energizer bunny.  I lost track of how many times...”     

“Does it matter?” Justin kissed him and walked out of the room wrapped in a robe.         

They sat in the living room and ate until they were full and then they turned on the radio.  The news came on and said that two men were spotted and they fit the description of the missing men.  They stated that work had been started to clear the road to their location. 

“Mr. Ted Schmit of the Kinnetik advertising company said they were anxious to have their founder back with the agency,” the announcer said. He continued saying, “Family of the other missing man, Justin Taylor, are also relieved.  Mr. Taylor’s fiance who has just returned to the country, stated that he was very relieved to hear they would soon be back together.”

As the report continued Justin moved into the rocking chair.  They learned that the cabin was owned by the estate of a couple who passed away from an accident in the fall.  The family planned to come out once the snow melted to sell the place.

“Well, not that I was worried about it….” Brian looked over at Justin who was staring off into space. “You’ve left me again.” When Brian touched his knee Justin jumped.   “You alright?”

“Weren’t you listening? Steven is back in the country and I was sure I was going to say goodbye  to him but knowing he cared enough to end his internship early.  He needed that class to graduate.”

“I think that will just mean he will need to take a few more credit hours while you work for me and we can…” Brian slid his hand up Justin’s bare leg.

“Are you serious right now? I will be going back to the man I love and who I know loves me.”

“Well, it sounds like you have made up your mind.”

“The problem is, I haven’t.  I love him but I am not sure I am in love with him anymore.”

“Well, if it’s good sex you need, marry him and come work for me.”

“Brian, I’m not like you.  I could never be married to one man and sleep with another just for the fun of it.  The person I marry will need to be someone I can live with.   Who makes me happy.”

“Blondie, it takes more than shaving each other or cooking a meal together.  I have seen your sex drive. A comfortable roll in the hay isn’t going to  keep you happy. Has Steven ever made your body sing,” Brian’s hand now moved under the robe and he wouldn’t be stopped.  As Brian began to squeeze Justin’s balls,  Justin became fully aroused  instantly.   Justin pushed Brian back and rushed past him, running upstairs.    

Brian watched him disappear. All the sudden he couldn’t wait to get out of this place.  He wanted to stand in a hot shower for an hour. He wanted to go to Babylon and spend time in the backroom.  He wanted to be able to have a parada of men in and out of the loft door.  Brian went to the bedroom and started to organize the few things he had brought with him.  After that was done he pulled out a small notebook he found and started trying to calculate what he would pay the family back for the use of the cabin.    

Brian realized they had been there about 45 days after hearing the date on the radio now.  He wondered why they hadn’t used the radio earlier but he realized that might have been a good thing.  If they had been able to listen early on when no one knew where to look for them, it might have been disheartening.  He reflected back to the young blonde who helped him into the house in a raging blizzard.  He would have died that first night.  He was sure of it.  

After he let his imminent death soak in he tried to calculate the cost of the food they ate.  He pictured Justin going outside as he stayed in the cabin more than once.  If he had made it to the cabin he probably would have starved or gotten sick from eating food prepared incorrectly. Brian pictured Justin walking across the yard pulling the sled with the wolf closing the distance between them.  Justin was far braver than  he had ever been.  

How did he ever get me to tell him about those weekends?  He had never told even his best friends all the details but he told Justin.  He did want Justin to work for him and he wanted Justin to share his bed from time to time.  Just the thought of never having that ass again but that wasn’t fair.  He really enjoyed being with him but he knew Justin wanted marriage and a family.  That was never going to happen with him.  Brian Kinney would never settle down.

Justin lay under the covers on the bed. He was so confused.  He was never confused.  He knew what he wanted and he would get it.  Now he couldn’t decide anything.  He loved Steven.  He had for years but he was in love with Brian which was so stupid because Mr. Kinney didn’t know how to love.  He said it himself.  But Justin knew that was wrong.  He just needed to learn to trust and Justin knew Brian trusted him.  The problem was, Brian didn’t trust himself. 

Justin started straightening up the room.  He wished he could wash the sheets and clothes they had used.  He wondered what would become of this place.  Maybe he would bring Steven…. who was he kidding. If he ever came here again it would be alone to mourn the loss of Brian Kinney.  Mr. Kinney really was a bastard! He used people and spit them out.  He refused to wait around and be a cast off. Mr. Kinney was not going to win.  He was going to leave this place with his dignity.  He wasn’t going to take the job Mr. Kinney was offering.  

Justin also wasn’t going to stay with Steven.  It wasn’t fair to Steven.  He would break it to him over time.  He didn’t want to hurt him.  He was in no rush.  He was young and had lots of time to find someone to settle down with.  He knew it would take a little while to get over Brian. He would allow himself lick his wounds but then he would live again. If this time had taught him anything it was that he had what it took to succeed. If he set his mind to it, he could succeed.

Justin realized he had cleaned up everything and put it away. It was getting dark out and he realized he had to use the bathroom.  Maybe he would try to clean up a bit. He could heat a large tub of water and sit in it.  Oh. to sit in a tub of water.  All of the sudden he felt disgusting.  He needed to clean up. How could he do that without Mr. Kinney getting involved? Maybe he could set it up and tell him it was for the morning but then come down in the middle of the night.  It wouldn’t take long to heat up the water  if it was already warming by the fire. 

Justin found Brian listening to the radio.  “The announcer just said they hope to get here by dark tomorrow.  Steven was just talking.  He sounds like a real nerd.” Brian looked up and saw pain in Justin’s face. “I’m sorry. He sounds like he really loves you.” Brian stood and took a step toward Justin.    

“I need to pee.  Then I’ll make dinner.” When Justin had finished using the bathroom he came back and went into the kitchen. He first pulled out the big old galvanized tub out of the back of the pantry. 

When he walked back into the kitchen he nearly ran into Brian. “You making dinner in that?” Brian smiled mischievously.

“I thought we could both use a bath before other people see us. If we fill it up tonight and put it by the fireplace, it should be warm in the morning and then if we add a couple pots of really hot water….it should feel wonderful.” Justin let his emotions show for a second but then, keeping the tub between Brian and himself, he set it in front of the fire and then started filling it while he heated some of the home canned soup.  By the time the tub was full, the soup was simmering.  Justin cut up the last of the bread he had baked earlier in the week and they still had some butter in one of the canning jars. He had warmed the bread and as he handed the plate with the bread and bowl or soup to Brian, he felt.his heart weep a bit.

There was very little conversation along with the meal but when they had both finished, Brian took the dirty dishes and washed them up before setting them in the cupboard. He came back and looked at Justin, “I was hoping….”

“I think it would be better if we make a clean break.”

Brian encircled Justin’s shoulder and brought his mouth to his ear. “Justin, you know we’re good together.  We both know it.  Please come to work for me, Justin.   Come be my….”

“Be your what? Your fuck buddy? Your bitch at the office?”

“To be my newest art director and a  friend with benefits.”

“Well Mr. Kinney, I do appreciate the offer but I need to feel like a man. I would always wonder if I got the job for my skills or my ass.”

“Justin...You….”

“Mr. Kinney, why don’t you just use the bathwater tonight.  I will use it in the morning.  And you don’t have to worry, I will leave you alone.”

Justin was almost at the steps when Brian caught up with him.  Brian turned him around and held him close.  Justin braced for a crushing kiss but instead Brian’s lips barely touched his but they fluttered first on his mouth and then his jaw and then the pulse in his neck.  The next time his lips landed on Justin’s the kiss went deep, yet tender.  Justin let out a deep sigh as his body melded against Brian.

“One last time, Mr. Kinney.  Just one last time.” Justin’s mouth went back to Brian’s and he gave himself to him.  If this was going to be their last time together, he wanted Brian to always wonder if he should have let him go. 

Once in the bedroom,  Justin pushed Brian onto the bed.  Once he had pulled off Brian’s shirt, Justin pushed him onto his back. He straddled Brian and before Brian could take off his shirt, Justin linked his fingers on both hands and leaned over placing their hands on either side of Brian’s head.  He slowly lowered his mouth onto Brian’s and he barely joined their lips.  Justin kissed below one ear and then left a trail of nips and kisses along his jaw to the other ear.  He then went to the hollow of his neck.  Although both of them were still wearing pants, Justin started rocking gently causing friction between them.

“Oh, god,” Brian said as Justin began moving lower.  He spent several minutes on each nipple and then moved lower.  By the time Justin’s tongue fluttered in and out of his navel Brian’s hips began to thrust.  “Please, get rid of the pants.  Please!” 

Justin got off the bed and unbuttoned Brian’s pants.  As he began to lower the zipper he began to tug on his briefs with his teeth, making contact with Brian’s cock through the fabric.  He tugged off Brian’s pants and dropped them on the floor.  He then drug his tongue up Brian’s inner thighs, until Brian whimpered as Justin gently blew on Brian’s erection. Brian literally had tears in his eyes from the stress of holding on.

Justin backed away from him and then slowly, he unbuttoned his shirt. Brian took some deep breaths and boosted himself up on his elbows and watched as Justin slowly undressed in front of him. Once he got his shirt off he drew circles around his nipples and then drug his fingers downward and he began to tug the pants he was wearing, downward.   He turned his back to Brian and heard breath sucking in as he spread his cheeks slightly.  Before he realized what was happening, Brian had him pinned to the bed face down.

Justin put his knees even with his hips causing his ass to thrust in the air.  Brian spent minute after minute invading Justin with his tongue until Justin was nearly incoherent.   And then Brian rolled him to his back and, after putting on a condom, he propped Justin’s legs on his shoulders.  He locked eyes with Justin and slowly entered him.  Their eyes locked as Brian moved in long, slow motions and as he folded him over to kiss him, Brian couldn’t wait anymore.  He had hoped to prolong it and he usually could control himself but the look in Justin’s eyes put him over the edge.  It was the look of love and for the first time in his life he  was sure his own face said the same thing.                      

For a split second, Justin saw something on Brian’s face but then Brian looked away and it was gone.  Brian fell off to the side, pulling Justin close.  “Brian, I….”

“Unless you are accepting the job offer, shut up, Blondie.”

Justin closed his mouth and decided to just enjoy the moment.

When he opened his eyes, Justin saw sunlight streaming in.  He slipped out of bed and went to the living room.  He turned on the radio as he heated the water for a bath. There was some mellow pop music playing.  After adding a little more boiling water to the warm water already in there, Justin managed to sit in the tub.  He sighed at the feel of the warm water on his body. He took the washcloth and soap he had laid out the night before, and began to rub his skin.  As he enjoyed the feel, the music stopped and the newsman was on the radio. “They county sheriff believes they will reach the Miller Cabin today.  This is the location of the two missing men.  We have the fiance of one of them here with us this morning.  Steven, how are you feeling right now?”                                                                                 

“As soon as I heard Justin was missing, I dropped what I was doing and rushed home,” Steven’s familiar voice filled the room.  Why did the sound of it make him wince.  He should be weeping because he missed his love so much but instead he almost resented the fact that Steven was here.  This was not Steven’s place.  This place was only for him and Brian.

The announcer continued, “Word has it, the men should be rescued in about two hours so,   gentlemen, if you can hear me.  Get your things together. We are almost there.”  Justin’s head slumped onto his knees and felt tears in his eyes.

He wasn’t sure how long he had sat there when he heard, “Justin, you Ok?”         

“Oh,” he jumped.  “Ya, I was just relaxing.  They will be here in a couple hours.  Do you want the water? I don’t think the water is too dirty.”

“Ya, obviously I can’t sit in it but I will stand in it and rinse off at least.” He walked over and offered his hand to Justin as he began to step out but Justin grabbed his arm out of reach. “What’s your problem?”

“Steven was just on the radio.  He is just down the road.  He was on the radio talking about how much he loved me and what have I been doing?”

“Fucking the hottest guy you have ever had?”

“Mr. Kinney, you are such an asshole.”  Justin grabbed the towel he had laid out and rushed up the stairs where his bag was still located.

Brian felt an ache somewhere in his chest that he had never felt before.

An hour later they both heard the sound of motors.  As it got louder they could tell it was a snowplow and then for the first time in six weeks, they saw another human being.  The snowplow pulled up the road and right behind it was a four wheel drive police vehicle.  The next two hours the men spent answering questions.  They found out that the rental car agent had been arrested after people overheard him laughing about sending the two city slickers on a wild ride.  “Mr. Kinney, your associate, Ted, will probably be landing about now.  By the time we get back, he will be there.”

As they pulled into town Brian tried to take Justin’s hand but he pulled away.  As the sheriff pulled into the police lot and they got out of the vehicle they meant at the front of the vehicle.  Brian extended his hand, “Well, Justin, if there is ever anything I can do for you…” Justin shook his hand.  “Thank you, Mr. Kinney.” The name was bit out sharply.  “I hope you figure out what you want.”  

At that point two men rushed out the door.  The young one, Steven rushed to Justin where they kissed and held each other for several minutes.  “Oh, baby, I am so glad you are safe.  Tell me all about it.”

Justin kissed him once more, “Do you have a room?  I just want to …. To be alone with you.”  Actually he just wanted to be away from Brian.

“Oh, of course, there is no rush.  We have the rest of our lives.”  Steven put his arm around Justin and they headed to a police car that was waiting to take them anywhere they wanted.

“Brian, I am so glad you’re back.” Ted hugged his friend. He saw that Brian’s eyes never left the blond that got out of the car with him.  “Let me guess, you didn’t mind your captivity too much.  How long did it take to tap that ass?” 

“Ted, he’s not like that.”

“Brian, that guy didn’t get under your skin, did he? Did he actually…?”

“Schmidt, if you want to stay employed, shut the fuck up.”