Justin has grown up in a very different household than seen in canon. He is living on the streets when he is found by the Liberty Diner gang and is rescued - malnourished, exhausted and ill - and taken home by Brian. Can Justin be brought out of this hell he's been resigned to by his hateful father? Can Brian find the one thing that will make Justin whole again?
This story is based on a prior fic - 'Smolder' - by LovelessSouls. All credit for the haunting story premise goes to the original author, as well as my thanks for letting me repost the first two chapters of that story.
Categories: QAF US, Reader's Choice Award Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: 100k+ Word Count, Rimming
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Chapters: 43 Completed: Yes
Word count: 179383 Read: 147559
ePub Downloads: 77 Published: May 04, 2016 Updated: Sep 23, 2016
~~*~~ Thanks once again to Marny for the beautiful banner ~~*~~
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
If any of you read the short fic, 'Smolder' by LovelessSouls (posted on another site) you might have been as captivated as I was by the story. I loved the premise and the author's characterizations, especially the first two chapters. I really thought the story had a lot of potential. I love the way LovelssSouls writes these characters but I wanted more of it. I was haunted by this story - I thought about it endlessly and finally I decided I had to continue writing it in my own way. So, with the permission of the author, I am reprinting the first two chapters of this fic and then continuing it on after that point.
This is a MUCH darker fic than anything I had previously written. I hope you like it. I hope I wrote it in a way that will make LovelessSouls proud. I hope you don't all die from the angst of it all before I can get you to the inevitable happy ending. I hope that eventually, we can find world peace and everyone will live happily ever after. Ahhh! Hope! TAG
Reposted with permission of author, LovelessSouls.
This is the first chapter that I wrote beyond what was originally done by LovelessSouls. I have occasionally quoted directly from the original story, but the essence of the story is mine from here on out. Again, this is a VERY DARK FIC! Be warned accordingly. Justin is not happy in this AU - he's been very abused and it will be up to Brian to try to help him out of the dark place that Craig has left him. Hope you enjoy this. TAG
Brian is starting to get a deeper look at what Justin is going through. He wants to take care of Justin - he feels compelled to care for this street kid who so desperately needs someone - but this is far outside of Brian's usual comfort zone. It will be very, VERY hard for Brian to determine what Justin needs to make him whole. Enjoy. TAG.
P.S. There are still a few quotes here from LovelessSouls. All credit for these wonderful, compelling lines goes to the original author. I'm just borrowing them to further my own story. Thank you, LovelessSouls! TAG
Brian finds Justin and brings him back to the loft. Unfortunately, Brian still isn't really understanding what caused Justin to leave in the first place. When he finally does start to understand, it's likely to shatter his belief that he truly can help this boy. Angst to the max - warning! TAG.
Brian begins to get some clues as to what has happened in Justin's past to cause him to be like he is. Angst warning - Again. Very dark. But, a little Gus humor is added to lighten the mood a little. Hope this isn't too overwhelming. TAG.
More clues about why Justin is acting the way he is. Unfortunately, it all leads to some surprising mistakes on the parts of both boys. Hope you enjoy. TAG
Justin is finally provoked into starting to communicate enough that Brian begins to understand a little bit better. Can Brian convince Justin to trust in him enough to let him help? Major angst alert and totally OOC Brian warnings - Just my little fantasy about caring, protective Brian for all of you angsty die-hards. Hope you enjoy. TAG
Brian is working hard to find the thing that will let him break through Justin's shell and will keep him at the loft. He's getting very close. But, it's not going to be easy to combat years of psychological abuse and neglect. Go, Brian! Hope you enjoy! TAG
Brian is feeling rejected. Justin is feeling overwhelmed and is about to bolt. Gus to the rescue! What a threesome, huh? Plus, you get another glimpse, and a very scarey one at that, of what has happened in Justin's past. Hope you enjoy - angst and all.TAG
*** Warning - Major Angst. Also, description of childhood psychological abuse. ***
The day starts out so nicely for the boys. Justin is feeling more relaxed and he decided to go with Brian to Kinnetik for the day. But the second half of the day doesn't go quite as well. Funny how that happens sometimes.
Hope you like this one. So sorry that it's a super long chapter. There just didn't seem to be a better place to break the narrative. I know you all hate when I write a lot anyway, but I guess you'll just have to deal. TAG
As one of the reviews commented - we are getting progress but not complete resolution. Justin comes to a decision about whether or not to stay with Brian. But, that decision has some interesting side effects. Brian is once again put in an awkward position forcing him even more OOC. But, he handles it with aplomb as always. Go Brian! Hope you enjoy this emotion packed chapter - I added just a sprinkling of smut for all you lusty readers, as well as a little bit of humor since I felt the need to balance out several past chapters of over the top angst. Enjoy! TAG
Brian is still trying to be the noble gentleman and avoid jumping Justin, but Justin isn't happy about it. Justin had a plan and Brian isn't complying with it. How can they resolve this? Brian comes up with a 'Plan' of his own - I'm not saying its a good plan, an ethical plan or even a workable plan, but it is a plan. Which is a start, right? TAG
Brian starts with his 'alternative' form of therapy. It doesn't go all that smoothly though. You'll see. TAG
*** Warning - graphic descriptions of child abuse ***
This chapter is the beginning of the better times for Brian and Justin - it was much easier to write and hopefully a little happier, although things are not always going to go smoothly for the boys in their new 'therapy program'. But, so far, so good. Enjoy! TAG
Justin is making a lot of progress and it's all thanks to Brian's patience. Not that domesticated, patient Brian is going to stay the norm, though. For now, things are going pretty well for the boys. Hope you enjoy the relatively light angst. Oh, and I threw in a nice little shower scene too, just for fun! TAG
This chapter came out more as fluff than substance. Sorry. But, I needed to get some happy feelings in here for a bit to relieve the mood before the coming angst hits hard in the next few chapters. Enjoy. TAG
Extra long chapter for you here. Brian is reacting, as expected, to all the domesticity from the past few days with Justin. The incident brings up a lot of insecurities in our poor Justin. So, the boys are finally going to have to start dealing with the tougher questions now. Lots of issues to deal with. Can Brian handle it all? We'll see. Read on! TAG
Lots of dialog and lots of angst - take warning! Justin's still not through with his 'mad' and he's really taking it out on Brian. Brian is being remarkably open and understanting about it all too. What's with that? Anyway, the boys are getting into the nitty gritty of what is bothering Justin. Read to see what they discover. TAG
Per Reader Linda's request, we have a small pleasant interlude for you before more angst. Justin gets his first ever paycheck and has absolutely no idea what to do with it. Plus, a little Gus time. Enjoy! TAG
Lots of foreshadowing of what's to come. Warning - some cute Gus moments included. Hope you enjoy. TAG
We are reaching a climax here together, readers! Aren't you excited! Sorry about a shorter than usual chapter, but it kinda had to end where it did - you'll see why. Lots of Angst mixed in with Lots of Cute Gus moments in this chapter so be warned. But, for Flossee and any others who can only take so much Gus cuteness before their gag reflexes kick in, you should know that if you can only make it through this one more chapter then Gus's role will have been fulfilled and he'll be much scarcer for the rest of the story. Hope you all enjoy! TAG
When I was writing this chapter, I remember thinking: 'Ack! Somebody stop me. I just can't stop writing this fic. It's taking over my life.' I got very good at typing my stories on my Iphone using the Google Docs app during my breaks and lunches and bus rides. Plus, it helps if you just can't sleep because you're too excited about writing. One big revelation here - but thanks to Justin's new attitude, ala Gus, he's not freaking out over it the way he might have at the beginning of the week. More revelations to come, hot and heavy, in the next few chapters. Other things are likely also to be cuming hot and heavy, but you'll see that for yourselves as you keep on reading! Enjoy! TAG
Can't sleep. Have to keep writing. So tired.. . . . Very important chapter here. Justin is getting so much closer to a stable life. Brian still has a lot to do though to get Justin to where he can be a confident, whole person again. He's trying to restore a life to Justin, little piece by little piece. It may even work. Hope you enjoy! TAG
*** Chapter dedicated to my Banner Goddess, Marny - Hope I get this posted in time so it's there for you when you wake up dear. Good Morning! ***
Are you ready for the big night? Brian is. He's got a ridiculously romantic DATE planned. Yes, I said it - realizing that it's OOC and everything - Brian's taking Justin on a DATE. But, if Brian were going to take Justin on a date, I just know he'd go totally overboard and do it magnificiently, right? Well, here's my version of what Brian MIGHT do if he were so inclined. Hope you enjoy. TAG
**** Warning - Ridiculously Romantic Drivel complete with possible sentimentalism and maybe even true emotion. Read at your own risk!! ****
This is for Charming1 - Not satisfied with a light, fluffy, romantic chapter, huh? Well, here's your rauchy, filthy, sweaty for you. Next time, have a little more faith - I'll get you there, Baby! Hope you enjoy! TAG
Okay - It's a little bit schmoopy but with just enough smut thrown in to keep my critics happy, I hope. Please don't be too mean to my OOC Brian - he really is trying to be a heartless asshole but it's tough with a beautiful naked Justin around all the time. Still having trouble coming up with good ways to keep them out of bed now that they've fallen into it. Keep those ideas coming, readers. Hope you all enjoy. TAG
Lots of big changes in this chapter and those coming. Will Brian adjust to the idea of Justin living with him full time. Will Justin ever become fully comfortable with who he is and the concept that he is a person in his own right. We'll answer these questions and many more in the next episode of . . . . Smoldering. TAG
*** Warning - Topsy! Justin scene - Don't like, then don't read! ***
Everyone's heading for a trap. Brian's already been captured by Justin - that's a given - but now Justin might just be trapped into having to deal with his mother before he's ready. And Craig is walking into his own, very personalized trap. Just look at little old me - the Spider - luring them all into my web of traps. He he he. I'm doing the evil laughter thing while I write... TAG
You knew things couldn't keep going that smoothly, didn't you? Nothing is that easy with our boys. Unfortunately. Really, what did Brian think would happen if he took Justin out to Babylon? . . . You'll see. Enjoy! TAG
It's a very angsty resolution to last chapter's cliff hanger. I'm not sure how well you will like it. I expect to see LOTS of 'Poor Justin' comments. Can't wait to see how you all like this one. TAG
Daphne to the Rescue! With her keen mind and sharp wit, Daphne Chanders can topple even the biggest load of Bulls**t! Watch her work, ladies and gentelmen. Enjoy! TAG
Watch Daphne take on the Big Bad Brian. See him cower in abject fear of her mighty powers of logic. Run! Hide, Brian. You are no match for . . . The Daphne! (Or for your own emotions, you big dolt!) Hope you enjoy! TAG
Finally, Justin and Jennifer meet. I don't think it's going to be as easy as Jennifer thinks though to just get right back into her son's life. We'll see. Hope everyone enjoys! TAG
**** Chapter dedicated to reader DavidR, who was onto me from the start with the whole 'Meeting Jennifer at the Diner' plot twist, even though I tried to convince him otherwise. How'd you see that coming? ****
This chapter has a little for everyone, I hope. A little bit of light hearted fun for the boys first. Then, a little bit of smut for my hard core readers who were missing that element in the past few chapters. And, then the angst when Brian finally finds out the worst thing that Craig did to Justin - as if he didn't have enough reason before to drag the monster into financial ruin and public notariety. Hope you enjoy. TAG
OOOOOOHHHHHH! The plot thickens - very, very thickly now. Brian's schemes are going so well. Everything looks like its going to be a piece of cake. Craig is going down and so far Brian has steered clear of any problems. Mwa ha ha. Not likely! Get ready for all that foreshadowing you've picked up on my dear readers to start to come to fruition. Can't wait to hear the reviews I get after this chapter! He he he. Enjoy! TAG
Here it is - all the repercussions of Brian's evil machinations are coming back to bite him in the a**. Hope you enjoy! TAG
Welcome to the Continuing Adventures of Brian Kinney and his amazing pants-free rescue attempt. Enjoy! TAG
The conclusion to the hospital scene. For all you 'Hate Craig' folks, this one's for you. Enjoy! TAG
Why is it so hard to write the end of a story? There's this almost physical aversion to sitting down at the computer to write the story after you get through the big climax. I did manage to write a bit more, but I'm still not quite done yet. Mostly, I just felt like writing lots and lots of smut so I could avoid finishing the plot. I know you will all hate that, but oh well. Enjoy! TAG.
Just a short little follow up chapter. I hope you enjoy the little nuggets of humor I tucked into this wrap up chapter. Enjoy! TAG
It was so hard to write this final chapter. I didn't want to see the story end. It turned out really, really great though, so even though it's almost midnight here, I just had to post it right away.
***Warning: Lots of Sentimental drivel ahead. Plus a little bit of smut, too!***
I hope you all like the resolution I've given our boys. Enjoy! TAG
Here it is folks - All wrapped up with a neat little bow. Hope you like it. Thanks to all my devoted and inspiring readers. I wouldn't have done it without your encouragement. Enjoy! TAG