Hi again! The weekend was too short as always :-) But... Only a few more days and then I'm on vacation!

And once again, I had to collect my thoughts and think about what you wrote and how you present those characters. Brian and his role as a father... And somehow I can understand the critic you got, because after reading the last two chapters for the first time, I also thought, how could you let Brian behave this way? But, in the series itself there were (unfortunately) only a few scenes with Brian and Gus. Everything what could come after that, how much contact he would have with Gus and yes, even how he would behave if Gus would lose Mel and Linds, is fiction. And it was never discussed in the show what should happen with Gus and JR if something would happen to Mel and Linds. So, in fiction everything is possible. That doesn't mean that I like the way Brian behaves here. I think I'm just too influenced by many stories I like very much in which Brian immediately assume this responsibility for Gus without thinking about it in such a situation. But this is how I like to picture Brian, or better, how I would want him to behave... But I know we‘ll getting there.... I think, what I would‘ve liked to read a little bit more, is that Brian isn‘t so cool with the situation, but may show a little more feelings, that he‘s more torn about his decision. So, I‘m still very curious about this reality check, hope it happens soon, and as I said before before somthing happens to Gus!

And I still wonder who‘ll be the one who‘ll be seriously injured. So far your story‘s always been a little different from what I expected, so ... At the moment I fear that it‘ll be Nathan and that this may be the reality check Brian needs to realize how important Gus is to him and that he wants to take care of him himself. But as I said, I've been wrong so many times before... Maybe I should stop expecting something specific or guessing so much :-) Have a nice week!

Hi again! Until January the 13th! I envy you a little! So, there will be time for the next chapter soon! ;-)

Oh and you‘re so evil. :-) Of course, we wonder how Gus fared! Hopefully, he‘s safe!

I still don't really get Nathan... On one hand I‘ve got the feeling - as I wrote before - that Nathan accepts Brian and Justin as a couple. I mean, he called Justin to tell him what‘s going on and in previous chapters he often thought of Justin as a friend. On the other hand, the way he favors Brian to ride with him in the ambulance instead of Josh... I thought Nathan would be over his crush on Brian and sees Brian more as a friend or some kind of big brother. And in my opinion, Josh seems to exaggerate a little bit... „Nathan loves Brian" How can he love him? What does he know about Brian? Sure, he had a big crush, but love...? But from Josh‘s point of view his agitation is understandable, because as Justin correctly states, Josh has a big crush on Nathan himself - and that for a while. I really hope that something will develop between them! Josh really cares for Nathan and is worried. I really like the way you portray Justin here. He‘s sure of Brian's love and encourages him to take care of Nathan in this situation. They‘re at a really good point in their relationship, there is trust, support, love... Can't wait to read how this whole disaster continues...

Hi again! Yeah, I‘d a good start into the New Year, but the past two weeks have been a bit more stressful... work... kids... doctor appointments...Jeez, I wish you a speedy recovery with your ankle. Are you on sick leave? More time to write... :-)

Oh, I was so happy to read that Gus is fine and that he seemed lucky to have met a good person. And even if he doesn't see it that way himself, it‘s good that the truck driver has informed the police. So many bad things could have happened...  And I hope Brian will now understand how unhappy Gus is in this situation. Brian cares so much about Nathan, I think he should care also much more about his son. But I also hope Gus will change his attitude about Brian. I really don‘t like this „he‘s a fag". That‘s not a very respectful way to talk about your father or anyone...

And I have to say, even though I really like that Brian is so generous and concerned about Nathan and will pay for his treatment, I also can understand Justin's first reaction to it ... But I'm really glad that this didn't cause a major argument between them. So, not so many chapters left... I‘m looking forward to read more!

Hi again! Oh dear! I hope you are better and I wish you a speedy recovery! Hopefully your streak of bad luck is over and everything will be better from now on!
Even if I think their relationship would‘ve worked at Pittsburgh, maybe it's a good idea that the two move away and leave everything behind and start over with Gus! Warmest regards and all the best for you!!

Hi! It‘s good to read that you‘re better. I wish you farther a speedy recovery! Unfortunately I‘ve never been to Canada, but my son was there last autumn for a three month school exchange and now, the canadian boy is with us. He‘s so nice, polite and interested, I don‘t think he‘ll run us ragged (whatever that means - because I don‘t understand that therm ;-) ). He‘s from Ontario.

So, the last chapter! Thanks for that story! Although I gave you a hard time at the beginning, I liked your story and I was looking forward to your updates and liked our exchange. As you know, I wasn‘t always content ;-), but I think almost every story and every writer deserves our appreciation and respect! I would have liked a little more closeness and warmth between Justin and Brian and by that I don't mean sex scenes, but rather the charisma and chemistry that the two have when they‘re together. But overall I liked how they themselfes and how their relationship developed. And I think there were more than just 3 people who read your story! I wish you all the best and warmest regards!

Hello again! I just have to say something again, please don‘t be annoyed, you asked for our opinions. So, just like Simon‘s story in earlier years, also your story seems to causes a little stir :-) I must admit, I haven‘t read your story, because I just couldn‘t. You mentioned Simon‘s story and also - and I‘m very thankful for that - tagged it as a Brian/other story, so I knew what to expect. Nevertheless, I was curious and skipped to the end to see if there maybe is a chance that they‘ll get their happy end... I have to say, just this conversation between Brian and Justin at the end broke my heart. To see Justin still suffering after all this time. Painful! So, no, I can‘t read it - it‘s just not for me.

I also can‘t share your opinion regarding Steve. But I think, to be honest, I could hardly like a guy who brings so much pain either to Justin or to Brian. And this scene in Simon‘s story at the party when Steve returns and Justin found them nearly fucking in the pantry and everythings what follows was so painful and terrible.... So, no, thanks very much, that‘s not for me. I think real life is often painful enough, so I don‘t need to see such things in a fiction regarding Brian and Justin. For me, they are the most beautiful couple in all film history and their love for each other is so deep and strong, i don‘t want to see this destroyed. Here, I can totally agree with Calliesky. I can accept them having other partners for a short time, I can accept a little cheating or being fascinated with someone else for a short time or such stuff, but at the end, it should be Brian and Justin.And many fictions handle this in my opinion quite well, because most of the time, when they meet again for what ever reasons after breaking up for whatever reasons, it‘s immediately clear, that no other man stand a chance any longer. And especially Brian - for me he represents this guy who loves only once in a lifetime (ridiculous romantic, i know, but who cares :-) ) So, no, I can‘t see him falling in love with someone else and especially not at the expense of Justin‘s feelings. And the same goes for Justin, but regarding Justin in my opinion I would say, he‘s able to fall in love more often, but deep inside he loves only Brian. And I also have to say, I‘m a sucker for their love, for their chemistry, so, yeah, I‘m here to read stories about them and not about one of them falling in love and building a longterm relationsship with another guy while the other one is suffering. For me it‘s not only painful, but I also have to say, I have just no interest in such stories. Of course, everyone is allowed to write what they want, but I would simply wish that, if one want to see Brian in a serious relationship with another man, just let Justin out of the picture at all and not make him suffer so much (the same goes to Justin).

So, I wish you all the best for further stories in this AU, and I really wish you would bring them back together, but that‘s your story to tell! Although, wouldn‘t it be quite a writing challenge to bring them together again? ;-) Warmest regards!

Hi again! Another great chapter! Thanks for that! And it's somehow funny... After your answer to my review, I just couldn't get the fate of Justin out of my head and I wondered what went wrong and if the others hadn't noticed anything... And I got my answer ... Michael and Em tried to speak to Brian about him and he stifled every conversation ... I could really shake Brian. He just left Justin there really without looking back or a simple thought, didn't give a shit about him, doesn't even ask about him once and then after three years it occurs to him that he could see what Justin is doing ,.. I'm a little pissed of Brian, but well, that's what he was like at that point ... and at least, it's great, that he had changed, had matured... I'm really curious and also a little scared for Justin... As always you captured me with your story! Warmest regards!

Hi again! Great chapter! I'm so sorry for Justin. We know how much he loved Brian and I can well imagine that in this situation, without a supportive background, with the wrong friends, he quickly got on the wrong track. I've lost a couple of friends because of drugs and alcohol, so I know how hard it is, if you can't stop. Hopefully for Justin it's not too late (I know that it's not because I know you would never do him longterm harm :-) ) I really loved your idea with those pictures. That shows that he still loves Brian. Poor guy! And I'm glad that Brian slowly realizes how strongly not only Justin felt for him but that there was also more than just sex between them. I'm soooo curious about their first encounter! Warmest regards!

Hi! Thanks for another great chapter! It's so heartbreaking that Justin has to steal fruits to get something to eat. Makes me so sad! And I really think Brian's absolutely done the right thing, buying him something to eat, giving him his card and letting him know he can come to him any time he wants or needs to without pressuring Justin. And I'm really curious if or when Justin will go to Brian and how this will turn out! Stay safe and warmest regards!

Hi again! What a cliffhanger! That was really an exciting chapter... Oh, Brian... I was really astonished! That he took this high risk to go looking for Justin... He really cares... That is really so much more what you would  do for someone you've just known... for someone who was just a fuckbuddy... And I'm soo glad that there is also something left in Justin... Now I just can hope that Brian will be alright and also Justin... I think it's time for a little break and a little positive stuff??? :-) Warmest regards!

Hi again! Thanks for another great chapter! That was very brave of Brian to go back there in spite of everything! Jeez, even if I won't miss Danny very much, I wonder what impact his death will have on Justin ... It seems as if Danny kind of protected him …
“Friends”??? - I can understand that Justin reacts to this with sadness and doubt. Jeez, I could have understood if he had reacted completely differently or with anger. Were they really friends? And if they were friends, how could Brian leave him behind like that? He broke off all contact with him and even prohibited his "friends" from even mentioning Justin's name. I am curious and also sure that you will bring up this topic again and I’m curious what Justin thinks about having been friends with Brian in the past... Warmest regards!

Hi! Thanks for another great chapter! And again we don't find out what Justin did to Michael... It seems I've to stay patient. But I'm glad Michael wants to support Brian. It's going to be hard enough and Brian will probably need all the help he can get. Maybe he should hire some professional help, a nurse or someone ... Looking forward to Sunday! Warmest regards!

Hi again! What a awesome chapter! That was moving and very emotional. Very well written, one can feel Justin's pain and dispair and it broke my heart imagining Justin when he told how he felt when Brian left for NY. And it's a start, that they beginn to talk about what happened and yeah, it's a good talk, but everytime Brian is saying something like "we were friends", I want to shake him...  It's also a start that Brian confess to Justin that he was an important person back then, but if I were Justin I would have asked why he broke off all contact then...  But okay, I'm sure you'll deal with this issue later... ;-)
When I imagined Justin sitting in this armchair I got the idea that Brian should get Justin some sketchpad and pencils... Maybe it would help Justin to get back some spirit! Great chapter! Can't wait! Warmest regards and stay heatlhy!