And it was not a coincidence that Lee was blond…and his first words to Brian were “How’s it going? But…you are the first person to notice this and tell me…after 20 years. - Haha, really! But that was so obviously... no, I don't know. I think Justin's just always somewhere in the back of my mind... no matter what I read... I think at the beginning I was more fascinated with Brian and I love them as a couple but over the years I fell more and more in love with Justin - Randy is too blame, I must admit, I'm totally in love with an american gay actor - life sucks! :-)

Oh okay, I was just wondering ... Oh no, that's surely no reason not to read any more stories. I mean, I have to admit, when it gets too strenuous for me, I write with google translater. I'm not an English native speaker and so it takes sometimes a lot of time to write a review. Nevermind

Ah, it's okay, I think I don't try to re-write it. The only thing I want to say again, is, how hurtful and even disrespectful I find this scene with the hustler-gift which leads to the scene with the roses. I don't know if this exists, but maybe it would also be interesting to read about Justin's thoughts regarding this scene, this moment... How different would his face had brighten if it would have been something else... Sad scene...

Oh, I so love this. I always wanted to know how it came to the handstands and the juggling. :-) I love how you let them stay perfectly in character, how you just let the scene continue so naturally and perfect. Justin's "You're sure fit for someone...[your age]" haha and then the thing with the toothbrush... I remember watching the scene for the first time, not knowing what to think of Justin, of his innocent, his awkward manners... Watching it the second time I just found it cute. And your Justin is the same. It's as you wrote in "the look on his face": "I came to you with nothing but myself" -  and in a way, I think, that was what made Justin different... his innocent, his honesty, his openess, his curiosity, his eagerness to learn... I could imagine that many tricks try to impress Brian, but here we have Justin, plain and simple and open and beautiful. And I love this sentence, because I think you got that so perfectly right: "I had immediately wanted to protect him, a strange kind of protection". The beep of the alarm clock destroys this whole atmosphere even more than in the series, because your portrayal of that night is so much more intense. So this last part left me kind of sad, but yeah, that "rules were made to be broken" brought back a smile to my face. Amazing story! Thanks for sharing!

First of all briefly about your last answer. Thank's for saying this things about my reviews! Sometimes I feel rather uncomfortable that I write so much sometimes, but when a story speaks to me so much and triggers so many feelings and thoughts in me.... So, no, I can't say anything negative so far ;-) as I already told you, I won't read a few stories because it's just not for me, but that's not a negative thing.

This story: So beautiful what you say about love being rather a verb then a noun and the ability to love enough to let someone go, I totally agree. I just don't agree with Brian on the point that Justin confused thankfulness with love and that he wasn't ready to receive Brian's message already. I would rather agree with Brian that he failed to transmit the message. Justin wanted too much, Brian gave too little. For a short while they had this balance in S2, but then they moved in different directions. But I wrote this before, in my opinion Ethan had to happen. Oh, and like so often before - I love your end. Even if a story is so sad or depressing or whatever, there's always hope or a little bit of something positive at the end - love it! Thanks for sharing!

Yeah, maybe I'm misinterpreted John. Maybe I also just see him from the point of view from straight people. I truely believe you when you explain that losts of gay men were forced into a heterosexual marriage by society, but there are lots of straight men and also women who don't end a marriage for different reasons but have a affair, a love beside... Maybe that's how I see John. So, sorry, but in my opinion somehow it's not fair what he did to Carolyn and to Brian. And in my opinion it's tragic thinking that Brian has not just his parents but in some way also John and his marriage as real bad examples. If we imagine that this is something he experienced in his youth, his development is no wonder.

Hej, I wasn't sleuthing, I saw the link on FB! :-) And I agree, I don't like Justin going to California either - that was the beginning of the end... And let's not talk about the end... :-(

That was hot, hot and hot :-) And I already said that before - I love how you let them talk, let them stay so in charakter. And I hopefully will never get tired of saying this ... They are so good together, they complement each other, are stronger together. I love it so much when one just gives the other a little hint and this then triggers a big wave. Would Brian have started turning against Stockwell without Justin? "Some asshole told me that if you believe in something strongly enough you have to be willing to sacrifice anything" - one of my favorite scenes of S3. The last sentence was beautiful, but also a little bit sad.

Thanks! Great story and I agree... It's good to know how it may have come to this scene and your story makes totally sense. That Justin only came by to show Brian the new issue of Rage and that Brian had arranged this "11 o'clock trick-date" without knowing that Justin would come over. Nevertheless, I have to admit in the series this scene has made me a little bit sad when I watched it for the first time. Surely, Brian admits that Justin means more to him than every trick, but didn't we know that already. And I also understand that Brian wouldn't give up tricking just because they are back together again, I know that they are not monogamous, I know that Justin now understands what he means to Brian, but somehow... I don't know, it just made me sad. Maybe I just wished that he would have thrown the trick out immediately because he has something much better with him, something that he has missed so much and he is so happy about to have it back. Whatever....

Hi Paul! I've seen that you published several others of your stories. So, this one. As always very well written and yeah, I agree, your story is true-to-character Brian. That's what he would do in his misery. I have to say, I love this scene in Babylon. Do I feel a little sorry for Brian? He wouldn't want that anyway. ;-) But I think it's great that you also showed that it can happen that way and that not every man falls immediately on their knees in front of him, either to suck him or to be fucked by him. Great. There are also men who would rather have something with Justin. As a big Justin-Fan I love that. The bath-scenes... I don't know. Is that still pain-management? But it is true to his character. I love Brian, really, and I love the picture of this onion which you once described, but in my opinion he really needs therapy.

Thanks for sharing this story! I'm looking forward to read some of the others. Some I won't read. As I told you in one of my reviews before, I'm just not interested in all these fucking between Brian and other men. You've complained that some readers have complained that some of your stories don't feature Justin. I'm not complaining. I can also imagine that Brian has been in love or been involved with one or more other men in his past - maybe not. There are so many posibilities how Brian's past has unfolded. And I loved both "Prometheus Unbound" and "Requiem". Very well written. Very realistic. I loved that you wrote it from the point of view of the present and always put in those little romantic moments regarding Justin somewhere. So don't get me wrong, I won't read for example  "Rumours" not because I find it kind of bad that Brian has sex with other men or that Justin doesn't appear in it. I won't read it, because I'm just not interested in Brian fucking lots of other men. But I think you are a very good writer and very talented. Warmest regards!

Oh wow! That was... perfect! Grand and intense! Hot, but in some way again ridiculous romantic and also tragic. Brian is so fucked! The comparison of both situations shows that very clearly. Sex with a trick could never replace Justin and Justin could never be a trick - and he wasn't even at their first night -  because in the end it's Brian who ends the game here. You show these two sides of Brian so perfectly here! And I was almost a bit disappointed that Brian ended "the game" early because if he kicked Justin out after that like he would have done with a trick, Justin would never have had a reason to be jealous of a trick ever again. Because who wants to be treated like that? By the way, you also made me laugh... "what animal would you be?" Haha! Really Justin? Ah, cute!

Hi and thanks for another chapter! Oh, so the next trouble manfestiert in a visit from Queen Jennifer herself. Hm, I liked Jennifer in the series. After some initial trouble (let's not talk about the scene in S2 where she asks Brian to stay away from Justin and about not telling Justin the truth about Brian's every nightly visits at the hospital), she did turn out to be very positive. There's not much positive to say about S5, but I just love that scene where Jennifer is with Brian and he tells her that Justin turned down his first marriage proposal. Her reaction is just splendid. "Du hast was...?" .... "Er hat was...?" :-) Oh, I love that... Well, now I'm hoping for a miracle and that Queen Jennifer will let herself be wrapped around Brian's charm just like the Jennifer we know.... Looking forward to Sunday and warmest regards!

Hi! Thanks for another chapter. Oh, I didn't expect this twist - that Lindsay's parents would play a role here. What they did is really pathetic and if I would like Lindsay, I might feel sorry for her. Except, unfortunately, I don't like her.... So, looking forward to Sunday and warmest regards!