Two dogs… Randy and Harry… I expected the second to be named Gale… J

Okay, so Michael had convinced the others Justin would be better without them? But nevertheless I’m a little bit disappointed about Emmett. I thought him to be different.

Hi again! I really love this chapter. First it shows, that it seems as if this time it is Brian who doesn’t want to let Justin go… Seems as if he has grown up, overwhelmed some of his demons! And I also like that Justin’s grown up, he is very self-confident in a good way. And then this beautiful and cute scene with Brian and Gus…

Michael is such an asshole. Always was, always will be… I’m glad that the Brian-and-Mikey-show seems to be over and that Brian is standing up for Justin against Michael. It’s good that he no longer let himself be so much influenced by Michael. I would have loved to see this New Year’s Eve in the show.

It’s so sad that Brian is so damned afraid to talk to Justin about his thoughts, his feelings and his fears. It’s so sad that he can’t even imagine that his fears are needless. It’s so sad that Brian can’t see that all Justin ever wanted wasn’t monogamy but a Brian who would be a little more open by showing or even talking about his feelings or doing little things like buying one fucking flower or a picnic on a floor.

“Call off the wedding, sweetie. Lindsay told me Justin had been talking about wanting to move to New York before the two of you got engaged. Let him go. Let him explore life on his own for a change.”

And again, I just can repeat myself. It’s good that Deb tries to talk some sense into them, but also again, I think she also tries to influence them too much, tries to make decisions for them, which are only black and white, yes or no, marry him or let him go. In the show we got the impression that it was only Lindsay, but now, here in your story, there’s also Deb and while reading it the first time, at this point I was really really afraid…

 “But . . . but now . . . But now maybe he wanted to revise some of those choices . . . not all of them, but some. At the very least, he wanted to choose love over loneliness . . .” – Again, your words break my heart!

And I anticipate, but I thank you so much for the next chapter!

First, thank you for not letting this conversation stop where it ended in the show. You’ve given them another possibility - and in my opinion, it’s a real good one. And regarding the tricking… I always imagine Brian to less tricking as time goes by, as a natural development. It was kind of funny for me because this was one of my reviews for another story (one by Wren):

“And I haven’t understand this whole marriage discussion. Why not getting married? You don’t have to change everything so fast just because of that. For me it feels as if it would have been good for them, just some kind of small commitment, just an official sign that they belong together no matter what, no matter if Brian still tricks a little bit or if Justin goes to NY or stays in P., drawing there, maybe with an agent who supports him. Why had it to be all or nothing. Life is about growing up and also about compromises. And maybe it would have been good, giving Brian a little more trust in Justin (in case he would have gone to NY) and Justin a reason to return….”

I would have loved to see your version in the show, because the end they’d showed us, broke my heart. And after all Brian and Justin went through they haven’t deserved such an end. You’ve done a great job and I’ve loved to read your story – although it was also sad and heartbreaking, but the end was worth it all (although I would have loved to read more...) Thanks for the whole story but especially for this last chapter. It was hot, awesome, cute, beautiful….  Thanks for sharing this story! Warmest regards, a.

I really like your writing-style and how you again and again go back to this sentence and always shows us more and more glimpses to understand how this scene has arisen. Okay, it was a tv show, but I’ve always missed the details. But you know, If it has been my way, this series would have been just about Brian and Justin… :-)

If it wasn’t so sad, because it already leads to so many complications between the two, it would be almost funny, as everyone (including Brian and Justin) thinks to know what Justin thinks about wanting or not wanting monogamy (excuse my terrible English)….

And this “I love you so much” is so heart-breaking. Justin doesn’t have a clue, and Brian is so desperate. He wants to try so hard, because he loves him so much but he feels that this isn’t himself. I’m always amazed how a single sentence can touch one so much! Thanks for sharing this story!

Although I also feel sorry for Brian (because everything – even if it’s wrong – he does because he loves Justin and thinks this is what he has to do to make Justin stay), I really really feel sorry for Justin “What had he done to deserve being treated like that?”- I think he’s right – he hadn’t done anything except maybe not stopping Brian, talking to him… But I think he was also afraid of losing Brian.

I’m not sure what to think about Deb. I mean, it’s good that there is someone who helps them to open their eyes, to force them to see the truth, to think about it. But what makes me so angry about her, is, that it’s only black or white – there aren’t any solutions in between, no ideas about compromises.

“Let him go, Sunshine,” she whispered. “Let him be who he was – and not who he is. Let him be a heartbreaking son-of-a-bitch who only thinks of himself. It’s who he is. And if you can’t love him for who he is, then you sure as hell shouldn’t marry him.”- This statement made me angry. Because that’s not all Brian is, he never was someone who’s only thought of himself, it’s not only fucking and sucking and being an asshole what makes Brian be Brian and be happy – it’s also Justin. Brian has already changed in the last five years since knowing Justin. And if you love someone then you have to stay true to yourself but it’s also about finding compromises. But again, she’s so right with questioning him if they don’t talk to each other….

This chapter, this conversation with Deb was really heart-breaking, very good written, but I’m so glad that you let them find their own way!

And again, I’m so in love with your writing-style and how you describe Justin’s thoughts. They’ re kind of funny but also so tragic because somehow, he feels what’s going on, but can’t stop it. He loves Brian so much but he doesn’t recognize the extent to which Brian thinks he has to go in the event of a marriage to make Justin happy. Tragic! Warmest regards, a.

God, what a mess they’re in! But again, I’ve to say, you’ve done a real great job in explaining how it could come so far, to this scene with the cuddling where they decided to cancel the wedding. If only they would talk to each other!!! I must admit, at this point in your story (while reading it the first time), I was very afraid about your end of story, because we all know to what a terrible end it led in the show…

By the way, the thing with not having a condom is so funny. Makes me again laugh with tears in my eyes. Warmest regards, a.

I’ve already thought so. Justin told Brian before, he would be okay with him tricking again after giving birth. But he’s not, and somehow, it’s understandable. I just hope their rules will function.

Oh Lindsay is such a bitch. How can she try to separate them, separate not only Justin from Brian but also from his kids??? That’s so awful. I’m so shocked.  I’m so fucking angry at Lindsay right now. As if she would have done this when there hadn’t been the kids. But I would have a solution for them. I don’t know if this exist in the USA, but here in Germany, you can take parental time over three years. Brian just could accompany Justin with the kids. This would be so great and Lindsay would be so angry….

The end of the chapter is so beautiful. They are so great and cute and beautiful together. Please, don’t separate them…

You broke my heart. Again. Maybe it would be right if they would be separated for some time. And they’re really in a mess. Brian – it’s great that he changed so much for his kids, I would have never expected him to be so absorbed in his role as a father – and Justin – it’s not okay to accept this scholarship without talking to Brian before. But – the same as in the show – I don’t like the way Lindsay interferes with their relationship and what I like even worse is that Brian let her have her way. She loves the house, too? She’s not the one who has to love it, she won’t live there. It should have been Justin there by his side when he bought this house. But both are to blame – why aren’t they talking to each other…