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Brian told Justin to get some friends his age – what if the kiss Michael saw was misconstrued? What if miscommunication was only the start of it all? Just how far does the butterfly effect go?
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Ethan Gold, Justin Taylor, Original Male Character
Tags: Jealousy, Overdose, PTSD, Rage, Real Life Issues, Season 3, Tearjerker, What if...
Genres: Angst
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 36 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 195503 Read Count: 59865
Date: Mar 15, 2018 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 19
Holy shit....Emmett is the sweetest friend! He made a simple promise to Justin & kept it. That's a start & Justin won't forget it. Such sweet, subtle touches & movements between Em/Justin, Tommy/Em, Tommy/Justin. I think Justin really wants to let Emmett in & will with time but he breaks my heart....And then of course there's Michael. What a nightmare....at least he's in therapy & has admitted all his wrongdoings but who could blame Brian for wanting to kill him.
Author's Response:
Hi, baby!!
He made a simple promise to Justin & kept it.
That was an important observation; actions speak louder than words, remember... ;)
Date: Mar 22, 2018 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20
Holy shit...every week my heart continues to break for Brian...and Justin, Christ, it's just shattered...I am never disappointed with your written word, you're amazing & this story is epic!
Of course Justin sees his own lost innocense in Tommy, oh my goodness, he's such a great friend. I'm so glad Justin allowed Brian to touch him and speak to him and gave him silent permission to come back...
Brian will never forgive Michael, I don't see their friendship ever repairing after this.
I wish you had enough time for 2 chapters a week, damn real life! lol
Author's Response:
I adore you, Gloria, seriously!! But on a more serious note, you picked up on a theme there - silent permission. ;) Brian having to read actions and silences - let's see how well he does. ;)
Date: Mar 30, 2018 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 21
Holy shit....you seriously want to tear our hearts out don't you Kerri? Lol omg so so heart wrenching, listening to Ian...um I mean Ethan tell his story of the day Justin tried to kill himself. Poor Brian.....kinda sweet seeing the pair of them actually comforting each other....wow! A new chapter of every Wednesday evening/Thursday morning always makes my day but of course I end up in tears.
Author's Response:
*Squishes you tight*
Date: Apr 05, 2018 Title: Chapter 22: Chapter 22
Holy shit....I am SO PISSED at Jennifer right now! What the fuck was she thinking mentioning shit for brains Craig?! Everyone knows what a trigger Craig is for Justin. Seriously ,why doesn't she clear things with Alex first? Christ I'm so pissed! So sad that Justin's trio of buddies no longer trusts Alex....Oh Teddy....you're such a good man & friend. So glad Brian came 'to the rescue', as it were and instinctively knew how to help Justin & just what to do. I think Alex is learning a lot about our boys connection.
Author's Response:
Alex is learning, but then, so is Brian. ;)
Date: Apr 13, 2018 Title: Chapter 23: Chapter 23
Holy shit....I'm still so pissed at Jennifer! She caused Justin to withdraw, she should be banned until Justin can decide for himself whether he wants her there or not. Love how he responded to Tommy's touch.
Roman & Tommy were completely hot & I enjoyed them but I wanted more Brian & Justin....
Author's Response:
*Hugs*
Date: Apr 19, 2018 Title: Chapter 24: Chapter 24
Holy shit....Justin is back! Thank God! They were sooooo adorable together and really communicating. That scene when Justin was finally looking at Brian for real....magic!
I'm still pissed at Jennifer! Of course Justin doesn't trust her. I wonder how long it'll take for mother & son to be good again.
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon.
Date: Apr 29, 2018 Title: Chapter 25: Chapter 25
Holy shit......that scene with Mel had me in tears...I think in a way, it was good for Justin that he was all business there for a little bit, he was thinking clearly, taking care of himself properly, legally while reconnecting with Mel. Omg though, I'm so glad he's accepted her again! But then... he's become so cynical & closed off from love or even the very thought of it. Brian has a lot of work to do, convincing Justin of his true intentions, motives & feelings. I hope Justin actually tells someone of his plan to leave the Pitts...
God I love Daphne so much! Keeping it real, telling Brian like it is and always having Justin's back! Awesome!
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon. And, yeah, he is cynical now. It'll be hard to convince him of any version of the truth that doesn't line up with his own.
Date: May 12, 2018 Title: Chapter 26: Chapter 26
Holy shit....that, I did not expect. Wow, Gardner has a heart, I could have really liked this version of him. AND he's Tommy's dad! What a twist, very nice! Bravo my friend!
Author's Response:
Thanks, baby; but to give you a giggle, if you go back over the chapters where Tommy is introduced properly, and when Justin is talking about him to Emmett, you can see where I was leading this back then. lol! I told you....tiny little seeds, planted in every chapter. ;)
Date: May 19, 2018 Title: Chapter 27: Chapter 27
Holy shit! Omg poor Justin...he's so hurt and in so much pain....he honestly thinks he was, and is still nothing. Nothing to Brian especially. God this breaks my heart! What is the time line here Kerri? How long has it been since the Rage party til now? I'm sure it hasn't been all that long so Justin must have a very long road ahead of him still. Having Brian in the next session would be so good for both of them but also very hard and painful yet something they clearly have to go through to move forward.
So glad to hear he's having better relationships with most of the gang! Real progress. Love love love this story so much! Even though at times it can be so heartbreaking...
Author's Response:
Thanks, babe!! Timeline wise for this fic;
Rage party happened and four days later is when Justin tried to take his life.
Brian found out about his attempt three months after the Rage party.
Justin discharges himself from the unit three months after Brian finds out. By the time the next chapter goes up, it has been roughly seven months since the Rage party, and Justin's attempt. If you remember, after chapter 10, which is when the boys meet up at Boytoy, Justin then stops going to his sessions and avoids everyone for five weeks. Then he is put into the hospital for several more weeks. So it's a flow on effect, instead of a jarring jump. As for the road that Justin is on, it is a long one, and at the moment, still very bumpy.
When my BF was battling depression, at her lowest point, she was like Justin for nine months; her recovery is what I am basing Justin's on. The ups and downs, the steps back and forth. That nasty little voice whispering lies in his head... she got through that period in time by sheer grit and determination, and even now, over fifteen years later, she still feels it snapping at her heels some days. That is why this fic not only reads as 'real' but why it is so hard for me to write at times; it's because I've lived it. I've got the mental scarring that matches hers. But, she's my girl; I love everything about her, from her foul mouth to that dark little cloud that hangs above her head. And that's never gonna change. *Shrugs*
Date: May 29, 2018 Title: Chapter 28: Chapter 28
Holy shit.....our poor boys....oh my God! The tears and heartbreak are killing me! 😔😕😓 I have no more words.....
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon. x
Date: Jun 09, 2018 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter 29
Holy shit....one step forward, three steps back. Those damn voices in our heads sometimes, so completely tragic....Justin is so self-destructive. Alex was so thoughtful and compassionate, more than just a therapist. He's a wonderful therapist but he was really being Justin's friend too.
I can understand Alex approaching Jennifer & Brian in regards to apologizing to Justin but Craig never will, which is another tragedy in itself. I can also understand his anger. Christ, I'm angry and these are fictional characters! You are one of the BEST writers out there Kerri! Love your work....
Author's Response:
THanks, babe!!
Date: Jul 13, 2018 Title: Chapter 30: Chapter 30
Oh my God...so much pain...everyone is in so much pain...when I first started reading this I hoped that it wouldn't all be about Michael but it had to be said. So much more has to be said from Michael's POV. Your writing Kerri is so poignant, so moving, so completely mournful at times, so tragically heart-rending...you have the ability to touch so many people with your words and your gift. I am in awe of you!
I hope your mom gets better soon hun! You & your family will all be in my thoughts & prayers...much love!
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon.
Date: Aug 04, 2018 Title: Chapter 31: Chapter 31
So good! God, I loved it! Well done boys well done! Real progress...hearing each other, accepting what the other needs vs wants. Brian is a lot braver than he thinks he is. And that ever so gentle kiss Justin gave him...perfect!
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon. ;)
Date: Nov 16, 2018 Title: Chapter 32: Chapter 32
Holy shit! What beautiful self realization! Well done Sunshine! I am very surprised Brian wasn't still there with him. Why did he leave? Doesn't he want to make sure Justin understands he's ready to be there for him, really be there for him....I was disheartened when he woke up alone. So happy to see this update Kerri, thank you hun!
Author's Response:
Thanks, baby. Yes, it was a moment of self-awareness, something he had been missing. As for Brian, you'll find out in the next chapter.
Date: Dec 10, 2018 Title: Chapter 33: Chapter 33
Holy shit! The first part of this chapter was pure poetry. Beautiful!
The second part was hot, lustful & sexy...yum! God! I can't wait until Justin is ready for Brian again, physically. Can we get a flashback maybe? Bottom Brian perhaps?
Author's Response:
Thanks, hon.
Date: Jun 10, 2019 Title: Chapter 34: Chapter 34
Holy shit! God, I've missed you & this story! Kerri, you are fabulous babe! This was perfect! Brian & Justin are making huge strides together, good for them. I'm glad life has slowed down some for you, hope you're doing well. Thanks for this, I really needed it....(((hugs)))
Author's Response:
Missed you too, babe.
Date: Jun 24, 2019 Title: Chapter 35: Chapter 35
Holy shit that was beautiful, just beautiful! There is pure poetry in your words Kerri! Can't wait for more....
Date: Aug 13, 2019 Title: Chapter 36: Chapter 36
Holy shit, this just keeps getting better & better! I love how Brian is okay with Justin's friendships with Sam & Ethan....as he should be, they've done so much for his Sunshine!
Justin's progress is amazing! You are SO talented Kerri!
Brian just needs the right incentive....
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Debbie Novotny, Justin Taylor
Tags: Anal Sex (Lots of it!), M/M, One-Shot, Oral Sex, PWP (Plot? What Plot?), Thanksgiving
Genres: PWP (Plot? What Plot?)
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1358 Read Count: 1561
Date: Nov 20, 2017 Title: Chapter 1: Incentive
That was adorable! Great job!
Author's Response:
Thanks Glo... glad you liked it... and thanks for the review.
SUMMARY: It's hard coming to grips with the loss of someone you love. It's harder still when you feel a weight of guilt for their death. And sometimes it's just the bigger picture you're afraid of facing.
Non-canon compliant.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Debbie Novotny, Gus Marcus-Peterson, Justin Taylor, Michael Novotny, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Other Cast Regulars
Tags: Death, M/M, Minor Character Death, Real Life Issues, Responsible Justin
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Canon Divergence, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 4973 Read Count: 1638
Date: Jan 01, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1
Fabulous start! Clearly Sonny is Justin but why is he referred to as Sonny? Is that what his Grandma used to call him?
Author's Response:
Yep, Sonny is Justin. Sonny is his nickname from his grandpa. The reason he doesn't use 'Taylor' will come out in the next couple of chapters. It's not horrendous, but something rather run of the mill, actually. At least in that part of the country. Sonny was also my uncle's nickname, and it's kind of an homage to him. (This whole story is kind of an homage to people -and cats- from my past in KY.)
Post 513. Brian has lost his Sunshine. A few years later he gets an email.....
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney
Tags: Anti-Michael
Genres: Alternate Canon
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 764 Read Count: 1752
Date: Jan 28, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1
Oh my goodness! That was awesome! But I want to know more...will you ever continue with this or add another chapter or something? Have another glass of wine, (I always do!) and think about it hun. Great first fic!
Author's Response:
Thank you for your review. I need to let this sink in for a few days and decide how to go forward. Deb
A hustler's night of adventure in a peculiar apartment building, turns out to be more than he bargained for.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: None
Tags: Anal Sex (Lots of it!)
Genres: Alternate Universe
Pairings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 1986 Read Count: 601
Date: Feb 11, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1
Wow! This is different. Sounds extremely juicy, can't wait for more!
Brian decides to show his friends that he can survive on the streets, like the homeless guy in front of Liberty Diner. During the day spent as a bum, Brian befriends Justin. When the truth about Brian comes out, Justin has to make a decision whether to trust him or not. Written for Fandoms for Hope and Relief.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Debbie Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Justin Taylor, Michael Novotny, Ted Schmidt
Tags: M/M, Minor Violence, One-Shot, Violence, Vulnerable Brian
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst w/ Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 5087 Read Count: 1437
Date: Mar 04, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: The Pauper is a Prince
That's right Justin, savor it! Brian Kinney doesn't just give anyone a blow job. This was really different and wicked good! I hope there'll be a sequel, this definitely seems like there's so much more story to this.
Author's Response:
HA! Brian always goes down on Justin.
I'm glad you enjoyed it. I will work on a sequel since even I feel like there's more to be said.
Daphne catches Brian on one of his nights playing vigil at Justin's hospital door. Feelings are revealed.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Justin Taylor
Tags: One-Shot, PTSD, Season 1, Tearjerker
Genres: Canon, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1388 Read Count: 1439
Date: May 07, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: Constant Presence
That was awesome! Absolutely loved it! More please.....
After having been missing for a week, Brian shows up at the Diner with no memory of where he’s been. Over the course of the night he starts to recall flashes of what’s happened to him and realizes that there’s another young man still missing and he’s the only one who can help the boy. The question is, will Brian remember in time to rescue the lost one?
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Carl Horvath, Emmett Honeycutt, Justin Taylor
Tags: Abuse/Child Abuse, Rape, Torture, Unsafe Sex, Vulnerable Brian, Vulnerable Justin
Genres: Alternate Universe, Crime/Detective
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 50978 Read Count: 23415
Date: May 08, 2018 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1 - Lost and Found
Omg that was intense! So different, so good! Just what I needed...more please!
Author's Response:
You needed me to torture Brian . . . you're my kinda girl! LOL. More torture coming up. TAG