–Or,†Justin said, a small smile playing on his lips, –you could say, ‘Hey Justin, I’ve got something on my mind that I’m not ready to talk about, and I need a little space.’†He gave his husband a meaningful look before continuing. –Brian, I know what you’re doing when you do it now… But what I don’t understand is why, almost two decades into our relationship, you still think the solution to anything is to push me away -- if for no reason other than it won’t fucking work.â€
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Brian gets some unexpected and difficult news and turns to his usual coping strategies. Justin knows better.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Joan Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: 10k+ Word Count, Cancer, Established Relationship, Family, M/M, One-Shot, Post-series, Real Life Issues, Tearjerker, Vulnerable Brian
Genres: Angst, Canon, Could be Canon, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes
Justin returns from working on Rage in LA and becomes depressed and must also face his largely untreated PTSD from the bashing. AU from 501. This series follows Justin and Brian as they navigate mental health diagnoses and treatment. Alternating first person POV with the focus always on Brian and Justin's relationship and their evolving dynamics - both as individuals and as a couple - as they navigate learning to manage chronic mental illness. Angst and Emotional Hurt/Comfort with themes of hope while challenging stigma around mental health.
Never in my life will I forget your presence. You found me torn apart and you took me back full and complete.
-Frida Kahlo
NOW COMPLETE!
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: Established Relationship, Fluff, M/M, Mental Health Issues, Rage, Real Life Issues, Season 5, Suicide
Genres: Angst w/ Happy Ending, Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes
I heard a new song called 'Black Out the Sun' by Darren Hayes on an LJ QAF fan site and immediately got the image of this all important night when Brian finally said 'I Love You' to Justin for the first time. I was so inspired I had to re-visit that scene and give my version of Brian's thoughts that fateful evening. I have filled in a couple of gaps from the show, such as the time between Brian's hearing the radio announcement of the bombing and his arrival at Babylon, and the short period of time when Brian was with Debbie at the hospital chapel and before he came back for Justin. I hope you will enjoy my interpretation. I've included the lyrics to the song (which do not belong to me, of course) so that you can understand why it affected me the way it did. A huge debt of gratitude goes to my beloved Granddaughter for the remarkable banner she made for this story and my wonderful beta, Judy.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor, Other Cast Regulars
Tags: Real Life Issues, Violence
Genres: Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Song Fic
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Completed: Yes