Date: Dec 24, 2019 9:34 pm Title: Chapter 18
Beautifully written. So tender and emotional. Well do e😊
Thanks for sharing
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Thank you :) I am glad you liked it!
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[Report This]Date: Dec 24, 2019 7:34 pm Title: Chapter 18
Wonderful chapter. Fantastic writing. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you.
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Awww, thank you :)
I am glad that you liked it.
I hope you had lovely holidays :)
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[Report This]Date: Dec 24, 2019 2:28 pm Title: Chapter 18
Very emotional chapter! Poor Luke: it must be terrifying to see all these machines; Brian had a good idea to explain why they were here.
Merry Christmas to you as well!
Author's Response:
Yes, poor Luke indeed. Poor guy was so intimidated and scared by it all. Hopefully he'll be doing better on his next visit, now that he knows that his daddy is okay.
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I hope you had lovely holidays!
[Report This]Date: Dec 24, 2019 1:58 pm Title: Chapter 18
Great chapter. Nice to see that the surgery went well.
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Finally some good news :)
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Date: Dec 17, 2019 5:28 pm Title: Chapter 17
Hi! And again, what a heartbreaking chapter...
I really like the way you brought up the „unfinished hospital situation" from S2. Now, finally Justin knows the truth about Brian‘s daily nightly visits. Funny, that you imagined Brian to be as restless as Justin. I always imagine Brian to sit there, nearly aphasic, for the these three horrible days.
Oh, and what terrible news about Brian. But at least the surgery went well. And as I judge you and Brian ;-) , he'll make it without the constant oxygen. He‘s a fighter and he has so much loving support! But what about M? Nobody asked for M...
And thanks, at least there is one small funny moment. So cute... „He seems a bit confused and is talking about the weather" :-)
Ah, now I remembered, you told me last year already that you had lived in Osnabrück. Yeah, Die Toten Hosen... I also grew up with their music. When I was 16, I completely fell in love with punk, independent and alternative music. Has shaped and influenced me very much in my thinking and acting until today. In the last Berlin election, the AFD managed to make about 14% and this is so scary, although I'm afraid it could get worse next time. I totally agree with you. I can also only shake my head. I just don‘t get it... How can people vote for a party, that sows so much hate? A party, which I think is dangerous and would deprive us of so much freedom?
So, have a nice week! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
It was about time that Justin found out about Brian being at the hospital every night back then.
Yes, I was thinking about the apathic Brian we saw at the end of season 1 sitting with Mikey, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't really see Brian being like that for much longer than the initial shock. I don't know, to me Brian has always been someone who does things and fixes them and doesn't just sit around and wait and the way I see his character, I thought that the waiting and not being able to do anything would drive him crazy after a while and he would need to do something to fix things... Of course everyone might see him differently and fair enough, but that was just my image of Brian during those days: Once the shock started to wear off, he would become agitated and would need something to do/to fix.
Yes, the surgery went well and everything else will take time and lots of rest, care and therapy. As for M, we'll find out about M in the next chapter. M was not forgotten about, but this was about Brian and everyone being worried about him ;)
I thought some humour could only help to lighten the mood. And I just imagined a nurse hearing him ask for "Sunshine" and not knowing what to make of it *lol*
I will never understand people that vote for the AFD - if you vote AFD, you are supporting a right wing agenda. Everyone who says: Oh, I vote AFD to protest against the established parties is just lying. If you vote for the AFD, you vote for Höcke and Gauland and all those idiots who are just Nazis! If you vote AFD, you are voting for Nazi sympathisers and those people won't get any understanding or tolerance from me. I have no patience and understanding for all those "concerned citizens"...
I am sure that if "Ronny" in Sachsen couldn't finish Hauptschule and can't get a job because he doesn't have a leaving certificate then it's the fault of immigrants. How dare those immigrants have a leaving certificate, maybe even a degree?!? I have always been of the belief that if you're unhappy with your life, it's for you to get off your ass and make changes, but I guess for many people it's just way easier to blame someone else and to complain about the government not doing enough for them...
Anyway, thanks for your comment :) I hope you had lovely holidays with your loved ones!
[Report This]Date: Dec 16, 2019 1:05 am Title: Chapter 17
That went really well. Looking forward to what happens next.
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Finally some good news :)
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[Report This]Date: Dec 16, 2019 1:01 am Title: Chapter 17
Wonderful chapter. One hurdle out of the way. Fantastic writing. Tissue time again.
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Thanks for your comment! I am glad you liked the chapter :)
They all deserved some good news after everything they've been through already!
[Report This]Date: Dec 15, 2019 9:43 pm Title: Chapter 17
Brian seems out of the woods, but he might need some time to adjust to his condition. Fingers crossed for his next operation.
Author's Response:
Yes, this will take time and it won't be a walk in the park. Sadly :(
At least some positive news after all the bad news the family has received recently.
Thanks for your comment :)
Date: Dec 11, 2019 6:27 pm Title: Chapter 16
Hi! Again, what a wonderful sensitive chapter! And I feel so terribly sorry for them. If I were Justin, I wouldn't want to leave Brian's side, too - one night before this big surgery. On the other hand, yes, the kids need him too ...So, I really love your solution for this situation... That Justin can't fall asleep and sneaks up to Brian into the clinic. So cute...
"I just wish... that we... that I... hadn't wasted so much time," - so heartbreaking, but Justin's right, it doesn't matter anymore. The important thing is that they have found each other again. Unthinkable, if Brian would have been alone with the kids in this situation .... and it's good to see that the family's there for Justin... I'm so curious... Hopefully, the surgery went well!
No, I've really never been to a con. I guess, I've never been so much interested in the actors so far. It's more about the characters they represent and the story behind. And I've been always more crazy about musicians, but it's a long time ago since I've wanted autographs... You're also german so you know them... the last autograph I got, was from Campino and it had been in 1989... As I said, it's been a long time... Oh, now I feel very old :-) and I think, I'm also more crazy about Brian and Justin, but on the other hand, I would love to see Gale and Randy, but there are so many arguments against it... Like we both agreed, it didn't seem as if they had much fun so far on cons and I think it's a little bit too expensive just to sit in one room with them, asking questions, in which they probably not really interested in, making photos, getting autographs... Don't get me wrong, I can understand, that they want to get paid for it. On the other hand, as I said, it's London, it's not so far away... Yeah, Berlin, sounds a bit arrogant maybe, but I wouldn't want to live in Germany in any other city. But I'm very worried about the political situation in Germany. As soon as the AFD in Berlin or nationwide should become one of the strongest parties, one should seriously consider emigrating ... We wrote about this last year already, I must admit, I've forgotten, where did you come from?
Looking forward to Sunday :-) Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yes, this chapter was to show that it's not only hard for Brian, but for Justin as well and unfortunately, this was not the last time he will feel torn between being there for Brian and being there for his children. It's not an easy situation for anyone involved :(
I am glad you liked Justin going back to the hospital - it was really the only thing that worked in my mind when I thought about the night before the surgery.
Being confronted by your own mortality makes you look back on life and brings your regrets to the forefront of your mind - poor Brian. Guilt is the last thing he needs on top of everything else, so it's a good thing that Justin immediately tried to dispel those feelings.
I like that the family is there for Justin - it shows how much they have all grown in recent years and how much they have all changed from what they were like at the beginning of this universe. They are a strong, united family unit now which is exactly what Brian, Justin and the boys will need to make it through this ordeal.
Oh, I love the Toten Hosen. I grew up with their music and Die Ärzte. Loved Campino soooo much and think he has a really charismatic voice. I really like their music and appreciate all their Anti-Nazi work!
I totally understand what you're saying about the AFD. It scares me shitless to see 23% of people in certain states voting for a right wing party. I can only shake my head and ask myself if they really went through the same school system I went through... Because if there is one thing I learned over and over in school it's: Nazis bad!
I am from a town called Nordhorn in the Grafschaft Bentheim in the North-West on the Dutch border. I went to University in Osnabrück which is about 80km away and the biggest town in our area. It's really the middle of nowhere *lol*
Thankfully the AFD only barely managed to make the 5% mark in our area and Münster, the only district in Germany where they didn't make the 5% in the last general election is very close by as well which made me kind of proud *lol* In our area the AFD isn't a big problem, but I have a cousin living in Halle/Saale and the things she tells me, it's scary... Scary times all over the world it seems :(
Well, more will be up tomorrow, hopefully that will give us a distraction from the sad state of reality for a while ;)
Date: Dec 09, 2019 7:24 pm Title: Chapter 16
thanks for update
Hope Brian be ok
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I think you're not alone with that hope!
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[Report This]Date: Dec 09, 2019 3:38 am Title: Chapter 16
This chapter was the best. Justin being there for Brian while being with the kids was hard. Having Emmett, Deb and Jennifer show up to help keep Justin company was the best. I wonder if bringing the whole family to the closest hotel where nobody would be too far from the hospital might have worked. Thank you.
Author's Response:
Yes, it was a first glimpse of how hard this whole ordeal will not only be for Brian, but for Justin as well. This won't be the last time Justin will feel torn between his need to be there for Brian and his children. It is a really hard time for all of them :(
I don't think they would need hotels with Brian being in a local hospital. Everyone lives in the area and Pittsburgh is not that big and Britin not that far away. At least in my mind ;)
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[Report This]Date: Dec 09, 2019 1:39 am Title: Chapter 16
Great update. Wonderful writing.
[Report This]Date: Dec 09, 2019 1:39 am Title: Chapter 16
Great update. Wonderful writing.
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Awww, thank you :)
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[Report This]Date: Dec 08, 2019 11:39 pm Title: Chapter 16
ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ Somsad and heartwarming too.
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Unfortunately, it will stay sad for a while longer, but hopefully also heartwarming as well :)
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[Report This]Date: Dec 08, 2019 9:58 pm Title: Chapter 16
Leap of Faith! Fingers crossed!
Justin did the right things: going with his sons and then coming back to be with Brian; at least, they had some quiet time together before the D day.
It's great that Emmett, Jennifer and Debbie came to be with Justin: the wait will go faster.
Author's Response:
Yes, Justin sure did what was needed and it's good that Brian finally accepted it too.
We all know how horrible it is to just sit around waiting, not being able to do anything. It's a good thing Justin won't be alone for that.
More will be up soon. Thanks for your comment :)
Date: Dec 03, 2019 4:16 pm Title: Chapter 15
Hi again! Altough it continues to be so heartbreaking, you still manage, that we readers get out of this chapter with some reasonably good feelings. It's good to see that they stick together as a family. Not just Justin and Brian, everyone else has grown up too. And that‘s so good to see and also important in this situation. It's hard to imagine what it would be like if Michael were still there... Oh, Brian, you can‘t die... What should I do without you... Luckily, they do not have to deal with such a reaction. I feel so sorry for Gus and Luke, but it's good to see that everyone takes care of them as well. Great chapter!
I‘ve never been to a convention, so I really don‘t know what to expect... Will there be only this question & answer session and then pictures will be taken and autographed? I'm still thinking about it ... Berlin London would be possible and maybe I'll never get the chance to see them once... On the other hand, the last days I‘ve watched a few of earlier cons and I got the impression that they don‘t like to do this very much. And then, when they were asked about the series, they couldn‘t remember many details and Gale and Randy admitted in one of these cons that they‘ve never quite seen the whole show theirself, just some scenes. And we fans know every scene, every detail, everythink they've spoken... :-) I‘ve to admit, I fear I would feel a little bit like Michael and his obsession about Captain Astro... :-) Hm, I think I‘ve to think a little bit more about it.
So, have a great week and warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yes, despite the painful circumstances they find themselves in, this chapter was quite a comforting one. It is always good to know that you're not alone and that you have people around you that love you and will support you no matter what. It's good that the family will be there to support them in whatever way they can :)
I love that you mention Michael and his totally egoistical reaction to Brian's testicular cancer. It was about Brian having cancer and possibly dying and in pure Michael fashion he made it all about himself: What will I do if you die? How will I go on without you? Not a single word about Brian and how he was feeling with the diagnosis. I wanted to show how different their friends and family are now and how different/more grown up their reactions would be, which is why I made it a point to have Ted speak up with the simple: What can we do to help?
It's not about them, it's about Brian and his family and how they can support them. Michael could learn a lot from Ted when it comes to being a good friend...
Gus and Luke will be okay, they have many people around them that love them and will take care of them when Brian and Justin can't - a knowledge that will give both Brian and Justin great comfort.
Oh, you've never been to a convention? I can only speak about Lord of the Rings and Comic Conventions, but they are great fun :) I love the whole feel and atmosphere of having so many people in one place that all love the same thing and share the same interests. Luckily enough, I have many real life friends who are just as big nerds as I am and we always go together and have a real good time at conventions.
Usually there is a Q&A, a photo op and an autograph session. Sometimes, depending on the convention, there might be several talks, several photo Ops. From what I understood here, they will have separate Q&As with the actors individually and one with them together, but I am not sure really how this company handles their conventions.
Oh, you're from Berlin? I love Berlin. Have been many times for the Berlin Film Festival and will go again soon for a friend's wedding <3
That is one of my biggest worries as well: Compared to many other actors at other conventions, they don't seem to enjoy themselves. They don't seem to like the Q&As, they don't seem to like the Photo Ops and paying 100 Euro (or whatever) for a pic and they won't even smile - I don't think so... If you attend a convention as a star, you have a duty to make it enjoyable for your fans - in my opinion. You go home with a huge salary, it's work, so bring your best! Just sitting around sulking, making it obvious that you don't want to be there - it's just not good enough for me. And not at those prices :(
And I have been to conventions where I have met Hollywood stars for less (Jeremy Renner from the Marvel movies for 50 bucks, Mads Mikkelsen for 40 bucks, Elijah Wood for 60 bucks), to premieres and plays (Matt Bomer, Ryan Reynolds, Tom Hiddleston, Sir Patrick Stewart and Sir Ian McKellen for free, etc.) and they all made sure that you as a fan would feel special and good while meeting them... Unfortunately, I have quite come to expect that as standard now *lol* And I just don't see that in them at these conventions which makes me scared a bit as well that spending that much money might end in a huge disappointment.
Like I said, I might decide spontaneously. At this point, I'd only say yes if they get Peter Paige and Scott Lowell as well - those two are great with fans and would be amazing to meet, I am sure :)
Date: Dec 02, 2019 7:59 am Title: Chapter 15
Argh this is so angsty I am so sad for Brian and Justin and the boys xx
Author's Response:
Yes, I don't know why, but I love to bring on the angst big time *hides*
But don't worry, my angst will always end with a happy ending, so ...
Thanks for your comment, more will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Dec 02, 2019 6:36 am Title: Chapter 15
Heartbreaking and comforting at thé same time: the family will be there and help as much as they can.
Author's Response:
Yes, despite the painful circumstances they find themselves in, this is quite a comforting chapter :)
They have a family that loves them and will support them and that's all that matters!
More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Dec 02, 2019 2:39 am Title: Chapter 15
With the family behind them to help there will be a few less things to worry about.
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Yes, exactly, which will be a huge comfort to both Brian and Justin :)
The family will help and support and that's all that matters in these painful times.
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[Report This]Date: Dec 02, 2019 1:46 am Title: Chapter 15
Wonderful update considering I am running out of tissues. Fantastic writing.
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I must warn you, I think you're gonna need more tissues. At least for a while :(
But there will come a day when you won't need tissues! I promise :*
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Dec 01, 2019 10:39 pm Title: Chapter 15
So good. But soooo worried.
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Awwww, thanks :)
More will be up soon - hopefully your worry will get less with time.
Date: Nov 27, 2019 5:14 pm Title: Chapter 14
Hi again! What a sad but also again wonderful written chapter. And there are no words to describe how much I love Gus and Luke and how you let them behave. These scenes, first between Luke and Brian, and then between Justin and Gus, they are so cute and amazing!
Do you plan to go to this „Back to Babylon“-Meeting? I was so happy about it because they‘ll come to Europe. But then I saw the prizes and was, to be honest, a little bit shocked, I didn‘t expected it to be so expensive… And I would have loved to see Randy and Gale live for once… Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yeah, I love Gus and Luke as well. Those two are really too cute for words :) I will admit that the two scenes with them at the beginning of the chapter are some of my favourites I have ever written :)
I have to admit that I had to google what you were talking about *lol* I am really not in the fandom much, except for writing stories and had no idea about that convention. Then I saw it was in London and I was like: YAY! London is just a short 40 minute hop on the plane and my company has an office there, so I could most likely even expense it as a business trip if I go a day or two early (my boss is really great that way!). And then I saw the prices and wow, I have to say those are crazy expensive.
I have been to many, many conventions in the Lord of the Rings fandom (my original fandom) and have met most of the Lord of the Rings actors (at conventions and outside of them), I have even been to Comic conventions and met big Hollywood stars there (from the Marvel movies for example) and I have never had to pay that much money. Just wow!
So no, most likely I won't go, unless they will announce way more guests, way more activities, etc. I was talking to a friend of mine who is a Queer as Folk fan as well and we agreed that only if we like all of what they will offer, we might consider going for the cheapest ticket option...
And to be fair, announcing actors a year in advance when their schedule can still change and they have no idea yet if they might get an offer for a play or new role only screams for disaster as they will most likely cancel :( So no, for now it's a no from me...
Thanks for your comment! More will be up later :)
Date: Nov 27, 2019 11:19 am Title: Chapter 14
Poor Brian, he does not deserve ll this
Author's Response:
No, nobody deserves a diagnosis like the one Brian received :(
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[Report This]Date: Nov 26, 2019 9:10 pm Title: Chapter 14
Such caring sons. The boys will do their best to help their dads.
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Yes, I am súre they will :)
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[Report This]Date: Nov 26, 2019 8:53 pm Title: Chapter 14
Tough chapter, but the kids seem ready to deal with the pain. I love how Luke was with Brian at the beginning: very emotional scene! And so was Gus with Justin.
Author's Response:
Yes, it was a tough chapter and unfortunately, it will be some time before we'll be back to easier ones...
I just love the two boys, Gus and Luke, and those scenes are some of my favourites I've ever written <3
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