[Report This]Date: Nov 26, 2019 8:15 pm Title: Chapter 14
Great update. So sad, but it is so true to RL. Isn't there some saying that what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger. Wonderful writing. If you celebrate, Happy Thanksgiving.
Author's Response:
Yes, it is sad, but like you said, that's real life at times :(
Yes, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger and I am sure that with time they'll all grow from this as a family :)
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon :)
Date: Nov 20, 2019 2:29 pm Title: Chapter 13
Hi again! I really love that you‘ll bring up former topics from the show which in my opinion they sadly left unfinished! Can‘t wait to read these! Yeah, and sometimes some stories wouldn‘t leave me alone either – sometimes in a positive way, then it‘s a good thing, but sometimes it‘s very hard if you can‘t get your thoughts away from a story, which disturbed or hurt you in some ways or presented the characters, mainly Brian or Justin or their relationship in a way you totally disagree. I know it‘s crazy how some stories can get on your nerves because in the end it‘s „just“ fiction…
This chapter… As sad as it is, but I really love that they made this decision together and most important after they really talked it though. This is also something which I missed in the show! But yeah, I know, same old story – it was a TV show… You nearly made me cry with this scene when they told their boys. My heart really broke for Luke and Gus. As always – very well written, one can feel their emotions, the sadness and dispair. I'm just happy and grateful - even if the way to get there is going to be damn hard and painful - this story does not end with a death! Warmest regards!!!
Author's Response:
Yeah, but that's what makes it good "fiction" - that it touches us and stays with us even after it's over.
And yes, some things never getting mentioned again just annoyed the hell out of me and I figured I'd try to give those things some mention in my stories to give them the ending/credit they deserve ;) I hope people won't be disappointed!
This universe is supposed to show a more grown up Brian and Justin compared to the show, so hopefully they would have learned a couple of things about relationships by now, mainly how important communication is ;) And I am pretty sure that after everything they've been through, they both know by now that they can't make big decisions on their own, but need to make them together.
Yes, the time for tissues isn't over yet, but as you mentioned, there is no death in my story. I couldn't do that...
Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 18, 2019 9:56 am Title: Chapter 13
This chapter was simply gut-wrenching but beautifully done. I am currently supporting my dearest friend through her battle with cancer and you have captured the fear, despair and hope that makes most days an emotional roller coaster. Luckily I had the tissues readily to hand.
Author's Response:
Oh, I am so sorry to hear about your friend. I hope that she'll keep fighting and that she'll win the batte in the end! Cancer really sucks...
Unfortunately, the time for tissues isn't quite over yet :(
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[Report This]Date: Nov 18, 2019 2:28 am Title: Chapter 13
I notice that they didn't tell the kids about the doctor wanting to end baby M's life. That's a something that they didn't need to know.
Author's Response:
No, they didn't mention that. In fact they didn't mention M at all, which has come up in the following chapter :(
And you're right, the boys didn't need to know in detail what the doctor originally said. Sometimes it's better to protect them!
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[Report This]Date: Nov 17, 2019 9:37 pm Title: Chapter 13
So heartbreaking. Wonderful writing as usual. It is like torture waiting for each new update. Using up more tissue each update.
Author's Response:
It is quite heartbreaking and I made myself cry quite a bit while writing this story :(
I am sorry, but the time for tissues isn't over yet :(
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[Report This]Date: Nov 17, 2019 9:01 pm Title: Chapter 13
Poor kids: what a nightmare they are living! Brian and Justin had a little more time and they made plans, so they are, together, on the way to fight this awful desease while Gus and Luke took the news as a full blow.
Author's Response:
Yes, poor kids indeed. At least they have a loving family around them that will surely support them :)
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[Report This]Date: Nov 11, 2019 3:17 pm Title: Chapter 12
Hi again! Yes, I totally agree. Not only was the end awful and just sad, there were also some scenes in S5 that I found terrible or pathetic regarding Brian‘s behavior like for example this story with Brandon. Okay, in my opinion, Justin in L.A. has totally thrown Brian back in his development, but I wish they'd have handled it differently. And although I love the serie and I find it very diverse and varied (many different topics are covered), there were always situations or conversations (between Justin and Brian) that I would have wished to be different. What's too bad also is that so many things were left unsaid. For example, Brian never gets to know what Justin did for him regarding Kip. Or unfortunately, Justin never learned that Brian was at the hospital every night. So many storylines and details that in my opinion had been dealt lovelessly in the end or not at all. Just like the end. :-(
I really like to join you on your therapeutic journeys. :-) As I said before, last year, you made me think so much about forgiveness and such stuff. It was incredible!
So, this chapter! Great, Very well written, so detailed, so sad and painful. Getting an abortion is a very difficult topic with many different opinions, but I think you‘ve written it so fantastically that one can understand their different points of view very well. A nearly impossible decision to make, and as I've already written, no matter how they would have decided, they can only lose. That‘s why I‘m very happy that they‘re considering this compromise. That's what I meant in my last review…. maybe wait until M has a chance of survival. Although, as you have written, this too holds enough risk for both of them. Oh dear, and I'm so sorry for the boys, they'll probably find out soon. Warmest regards!!!
Author's Response:
I totally agree with you about what you said concerning the show and not always tying up storylines well. One of the two examples you mentioned above will actually be mentioned in this story and will play a role here. Just saying ;)
I really appreciate your feedback. You have no idea how much it means to me to know that something I have written because it just wouldn't leave me alone has meant to people all over the world and has got them thinking as well. It's really all any writer could ask for :)
Yes, they are in an impossible situation now with no good outcomes it seems :( Poor guys! The things I put them through...
We will find out soon if Justin's idea might work or not and we can only hope for the best for all of them.
More will be up soon. Thanks so much for your comment :)
Date: Nov 11, 2019 9:41 am Title: Chapter 12
I am gonna stop reading at this chapter. I will come back when completed. Like the story, just a bit heavy for me right now.
Author's Response:
No worries, I totally understand!
Thanks for letting me know :)
Date: Nov 11, 2019 7:42 am Title: Chapter 12
Omg I have been thinking about this story and waiting for the updated chapter and it was so worth the wait. I do hope Brian and Justin can get a obstetitrian to deliver the baby early
Author's Response:
We will find out soon if Justin's idea will work. We can only hope!
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon! :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 11, 2019 1:32 am Title: Chapter 12
Finally a ray of hope. Thank you. I am running out of tissues. Fantastic writing.
Author's Response:
That is my secret identity - working for the tissue industry, driving up their sales ;)
We will find out soon if Justin's idea will work.
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[Report This]Date: Nov 10, 2019 11:11 pm Title: Chapter 12
Please! Pleasseee tell me Justin’s idea is gonna be a go.
Author's Response:
We can only hope that his idea will work. We'll find out soon.
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[Report This]Date: Nov 10, 2019 9:51 pm Title: Chapter 12
Your idea has merit. This just might work!
Author's Response:
We can only hope! We'll find out soon :)
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Date: Nov 08, 2019 7:56 am Title: Chapter 1
Thanks Jessica for your kind words.
Deb L
Date: Nov 05, 2019 3:03 pm Title: Chapter 11
Hi again! Yeah, the wedding… Again, I can totally agree with you. It was a little bit too much. But still, I would have liked to see some kind of commitment, be it a wedding, a private arrangement between the two, or just that they wear their rings. It would have made a difference. Just like the last scene, if Justin would have appeared in Babylon, one would think, yes, they stay probably together, even if it might only be in a long-distance relationship for some time. And I‘m not talking about monogamy, that doesn‘t matter so much to me (I think Justin wasn‘t so much into other men any longer anyway and I really like those fictions in which Brian not suddenly stop to trick but reduces it slowly until he realises he just don‘t need this kind of excitemnent or self-affirmation any longer). No, some kind of commitment would have been a nice statement. Oh, anyway ... I think I hardly know a series or a movie, whose end has made me so dissatisfied ... And I think that's one of the reasons why I‘m so addicted to them :-)
Now, this chapter. Oh goodness, you don‘t choose easy topics, do you? :-) That‘s sooo terrible. No matter how they‘ll decide, they just can lose. And I really can‘t imagine Brian choosing to have an abortion, but he also has to think about Gus and Luke (and also Justin). Maybe they can wait until they can get M? but how far is Brian now? It would still be risky for both M and Brian. You see, you have made me very curious and I can‘t imagine how it develops… And if they decide against M, they have to live with it! And they wanted so much to experience this pregnancy together. And at this point, I just can‘t see an happy ending for all of them. How horrible and absolutely sad. And one should really let the past rest, but given the current situation, Brian's decision back than appears even more tragic. So, I really hope that Brian is one of the few who have a longer survival rate… Very well written! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
I totally agree with everything you have said in your first paragraph! Something... Just something would have been nice. A bone in the direction of the fans, so they would have been happy. But well, what did we really expect from people that thought Brian would never change, always stay the same and that after they gave us five seasons of him slowly changing. It was a contradiction to me, as if they didn't know their own character, but I guess on some level they admired him, maybe even wanted to be him... Who knows?!?
I got the feeling over the years that the fans were a lot more open to Brian changing into a more adult, grown-up version of himself than the writers were. So many people hated that storyline of Brian and Brandon and their fuck-a-thon and hated how it made Brian regress to someone he hadn't been for a long time... Maybe because the fans wanted the happy ending with Justin for Brian's character or maybe just because they wanted the character to grow up and not be stuck...
Haha, no, I don't choose easy topics, then again life isn't always easy :( Most stories are based in some way or form on something that has happened in my own life and writing for me is very therapeutic and this is actually based on my grandma's cancer. No, she didn't have lung cancer, no she wasn't pregnant (obviously!), but a lot of the interaction between Justin and Brian will be based on how my grandparents dealt with my grandmother being diagnosed with cancer. Like I said, writing is very therapeutic to me and a great outlet for my emotions ;)
I just feel sorry for readers that have to join me on my therapeutic journeys *lol*
Right now emotions are flying high with Brian and Justin. They need some time to really process what they have been told and to make a decision together. First reactions are often very strong, but then, if we think about it some more, calmly, we might start to see other opinions and other options.
We will find out soon what will happen to Brian and M, but I wouldn't get too worried. I am not a monster after all and no matter how bad the angst, remember, I am always trying to give the boys their happy ending...
We'll find out soon what will happen to their family.
Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 04, 2019 1:23 pm Title: Chapter 11
I know Justin can't conceive but can he carry the baby? This is getting so sad.
Author's Response:
It is sad indeed :(
We will find out soon what will happen to Brian and the baby!
Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 04, 2019 1:21 pm Title: Chapter 10
How sweet of Emmett to help out. Vic also helped in his own way. At least for a little while the boys are normal.
Author's Response:
Emmett is a gem - you just have to love him :)
Normalcy is important, even in light of the bad things to come.
[Report This]Date: Nov 04, 2019 12:05 am Title: Chapter 11
So sad. Second opinion?
Author's Response:
It is sad, I know :(
Maybe they will get one. We will see.
We will find out soon what will happen to Brian and the baby.
Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 03, 2019 11:45 pm Title: Chapter 11
Tissue time. Great writing, but so sad.
Author's Response:
I think we might need the tissues for a couple more chapters :( I am very sorry that you needed so many tissues recently ;)
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon!
Date: Nov 03, 2019 10:03 pm Title: Chapter 11
I've been reading up to this point, but I think this is where I get off the train. It has nothing to do with your story personally, I'm just at a place where I can't take another super angsty, Brian is sick, Justin is sick, somebody is running away story. The fact that Brian is being forced to end his pregnancy just tipped it for me.
I hope I haven't offended you, but I just can't do it right now
Author's Response:
No, you haven't offended me, not at all! I understand that these stories are not for everyone and I know that many people have stuff like this in their personal lives, so the last thing they probably want is to read about it in their free time as well. I totally get it and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that!
As for the pregnancy - don't give up hope yet! This story doesn't have a death tag and nobody will die in this story, just saying :)
I know I always bring on the big angst, but I try to give the boys a happy ending anyway. It might be hard to get there, but there will be no dying of any characters in my stories.
Thanks for your comment and like I said, I totally understand!
Date: Oct 28, 2019 5:09 pm Title: Chapter 10
Hi again! I can only agree with you and Gale Harold regarding Brian’s further development. But the end of the series unfortunately left us with a different impression. As if everything would go on or start all over again. The presence of Justin alone would have made a different impression for me - but I think I've already written that. Makes me still so sad!
Yeah, our sunshine must have a special brain… After all, he had achieved what nobody did before… And Brian had no chance and just had to fall head over heels, madly and deeply… :-)
I think if you aren’t working in this field or have ever had to deal with it, you don’t necessarily know that the motor tracks cross in the brain stem and maybe the writers of qaf thought it would make people more confused. But funny, that you also noticed.
So, now to this chapter. as always, so well written. You always achieve, that one can participate so much in the feelings of the actors. One can feel their desperation, their hope, their pain. I have to say - with his ongoing bloody cough that I have little hope that it will be anything good, but I really hope it’s still curable. And I’m curious, what's about M?
When you mentioned that Brian had been to the cemetery I already thought about his father but I really love that you made him come across Vic’s grave. I really liked Vic in the show and I always love stories in which Vic plays a more important role to either Brian or Justin. In my opinion, he could have had a more important role in the show.
So, have a wonderful week! Until next time, warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yeah, let's not get started on the ending of the show. Those writers liked to have Brian stay the same and not have him grow up which is just not realistic. People grow and change over time and you can't give us five seasons of Brian growing up and changing only to then say in the last episode: Oh, by the way, he will always stay the same.
It doesn't work like that. At least for me :(
I am not saying I was a great fan of the wedding storyline, because that felt a bit too much and too sudden at the time, but I loved the "I love you" after the Babylon bombing. As for the wedding storyline, some of my feelings about that will actually come into play in this story and will be picked up later on and discussed here *spoiler alert*
Haha, I always assumed everyone knew the brain worked like that. I learned that in science class in school. But maybe I am just a nerd for actually remembering after all this time what I learned in school ;)
We'll find out what's wrong with Brian in the next chapter and then we'll also find out more about what will happen with M and how M will be affected by whatever is wrong with Brian :(
I totally agree about Vic. I loved the quiet, supportive way in which he loved the boys, unlike Debbie's loud ways. And he never needed to remind anyone of all the things he had done for them to validate himself. In that respect he was so different to Debbie and Michael which is why I always liked him. I felt like they didn't use him as much as they could have and was very sad when they killed him off on the show :(
Thanks for your comment :) More will be up tomorrow!
[Report This]Date: Oct 27, 2019 11:59 pm Title: Chapter 10
Waaaaaa! So sad but good.
Author's Response:
I am sorry about the sad part, but I hope it will be worth it in the end ;)
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon! :)
Date: Oct 27, 2019 11:36 pm Title: Chapter 10
thanks for update
Author's Response:
You are welcome :)
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Oct 27, 2019 11:22 pm Title: Chapter 10
Great update. Wonderful writing. I am running out of tissues again.
Author's Response:
Oh no :( I am sorry about the tissues. You know, I secretly work in the tissue industry and this is all a plot, so they can make more money ;)
I have to admit that there will be more emotional chapters coming up... It's not over yet.
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 27, 2019 10:41 pm Title: Chapter 10
Nice touch the part with Vic; Vic knew his place in Brian's heart and didn't need to hear it. He wasn't reminding Brian how much he owned him, contrary to Debbie.
Author's Response:
I always liked Vic and liked the quiet, supportive way in which he loved the people around him. He didn't love them in the loud way Debbie does, yet he loved them all the same and probably helped some of them even more by just being a great example of how to deal with bad things in life and how to be a gay man in a world that doesn't like you being gay.
I loved Vic and he left way too soon :(
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Oct 27, 2019 9:50 pm Title: Chapter 10
Vic always shows up when he's needed the most. Especially after his death.
Author's Response:
Vic was always a good one, a shining light of hope for all of them. He left way too soon :(