[Report This]Date: Oct 27, 2019 9:29 pm Title: Chapter 10
Hi,
Just wanted to say, as you know, I love your stories and love that you have continued this series. However, I am not in a good place mentally at the moment, so I may or may not continue reading this, or possibly read it all at the end.
I don't want to read anything possibly depressing so this and a couple of other WIPs may have to be skipped for a while.
I just wanted to let you know that, if you don't receive reviews from me for a while, it's not that I don't appreciate your superb writing and storytelling.
Thanks again,
Deb L.
Author's Response:
I am sorry to hear about your own personal situation, but I totally understand. Real life can be hard enough as it is, so we don't need our fiction to bring us down as well. Don't worry, I absolutely understand and hope that you'll feel better again soon :-*
I know there's probably not much that I can do, but if there is, please let me know :)
- Jessica
[Report This]Date: Oct 25, 2019 6:53 pm Title: Chapter 9
Hi again! Thanks for all of your answers! I don’t know, sometimes I also think a story without any excitement would be too boring, but at the moment I'm also reading "In quest of something" by ebbj9891. Very beautiful stories after S5, often with Gus, without much excitement, but still amazing, sometimes very funny, so yeah sometimes I also like such a story. Actually, I like all the stories in which their characters are not completely disfigured and unfortunately at the moment I'm very upset about another story in which in my opinion their characters are totally destroyed, but yes, what the hell. Everybody is allowed to write what he wants, even if I can’t understand how one can destroy these wonderful characters so much. Ah, I didn’t want to get upset again. You've get also a lot of criticism last year and handled it very well… If I don’t like a story I shouldn’t read it. It’s as simple as it is...
Yeah, neurosurgery isn’t an easy discipline. Sometimes I think I should go somewhere else someday, because every time I have a headache, I think of brain tumors. That's also something I’ve never understood and I would like to ask the creators of Queer as folk ... In the show, Justin was bashed at the right head, wasn’t he? I’ve never understood why the motor skills of his right hand were compromised. If you have an injury on the right side of the head, it would affect the motor skills of the left side of the body ...
So, now this chapter… It’s incredible sad and terrible! And Brian, my heart broke first for him reading this: “I... I just wanted to make you happy and now I can't even do that,” Oh, I want to hug him, I want to hug them… and then this “I don't want to die” and “I wanted to see your face when M gets born” So well written and also so painful! I’m just so glad, they’re in this together. I loved Justin’s behavior in S4 with the chicken soup and I’m so glad that at this moment he has the strength for both of them because Brian needs this! And I really like how important it is to Justin that Brian gives him this promises because yeah, Brian never broke a promise and now they’ll fight this together… Great story!
Author's Response:
Haha, the good old discussions about forgiveness or not and does Justin still have a backbone or not because he's actually able to forgive... Yeah, those were the days ;)
I agree, at the end of the day it's up to an author to write what they want to write and if you don't like it, don't read it. And there are things like out of character tags, so at least warn the readers, you know?
I hate stories where people don't use out of character tags and the characters are so clearly out of character. I don't mind having them out of character, both my Brian and Justin are, but at least give an explanation as to why they are (which I hope I did in explaining that Brian went to therapy and understood a lot about himself and his previous behaviour) and why they behave the way they do.
I know we both agree that Brian's character on the show could have been handled so much better and I was pretty happy when I saw an interview recently where they asked Gale Harold where he saw Brian now and he said that he hoped that by now Brian would have figured out his shit and gotten some help because the life he had been living wasn't healthy. My thoughts exactly! Brian couldn't go on the way he was and for me it was normal evolution to have him change, but of course that needs to be explained to a reader and not just presented as totally in character. At least in my opinion...
Yeah, I think your line of work would make me paranoid as well. I used to work as a teacher for more than 10 years before I went to Ireland and everytime I see a kid now, all I can think of is: Well, for his/her age they should be able to do this by now, they might need some extra help with their language, they might need some occupational therapy, they are way ahead of their age group. I can't just look at a kid anymore, all I see is a potential student and where they might need some extra support and what can be done to help them. I guess I never learned to switch off the button at the end of a day and to leave the job be the job ;)
I have actually wondered the same thing about Justin's injury from the very beginning and never heard anyone else wonder about it, so I thought I was alone. I am glad I wasn't. Maybe the writers thought nobody knew/would notice or were under the impression that Justin was so special he also had a special brain ;)
My heart broke for both Brian and Justin as well when writing this chapter. It made me feel so bad for what I am putting them through :(
Yes, Justin knows that right now he needs to be strong because Brian can't be. Brian's still too shocked by the news and went down into a depression because of it and Justin knows that for now he's the one that will need to take control of things. Thank God, he's strong and can do it!
Brian never broke a promise and I can tell you that he won't start now! :) They'll fight whatever this is together.
More will be up tomorrow :)
Date: Oct 24, 2019 7:42 pm Title: Chapter 8
Hi again! What a terrible and painful chapter! First, I have to say, Brian running away, leaving Justin alone at the hospital, is not something nice, but it’s total understandable and Justin acted nearly the same way over the terrible news he received a few months ago – he got drunk senseless without talking to Brian first. So, yeah, understandable that Brian needed some time alone. And again, I have to say, great writing-style – one can feel Brian’s pain, fear and despair and then also Justin’s. And oh my God, what a shock. I’m working at a neurosurgery department and I often see terrible fates because of brain tumors. I only hope, they can perform surgery or cure him through radiation or something else! And I’m glad that Brian decided against leaving them. It would have been so terrible for all of them. Together they are stronger! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yes, now we have arrived at the angst part of this story :(
Poor guys. Brian is not perfect and he has never been able to deal well with bad news, so it's not really surprising that he would snap and wouldn't be able to deal with it and let Justin help him. Nobody's perfect and definitely not after receiving bad news like that. I just wanted to hug him so bad the whole time I was writing this chapter :(
And poor Justin, not knowing what was going on, but knowing that something bad must have happened for Brian to act that way. And then hearing the bad news and having his whole world fall apart...
It was really painful writing this chapter as I felt so bad for both of them :(
Oh god, that can't be an easy job. I can only imagine all the human misery and pain you have to see day in and out. I have the utmost respect for anyone who works in health services.
We'll find out more about what exactly is wrong with Brian soon.
And you're right. Together they are stronger! :)
Thanks for your lovely comments, I really enjoyed reading them all and seeing what you think about this story!
Date: Oct 24, 2019 5:15 pm Title: Chapter 7
Hi again! I like how you let Justin handle his business. It shows that there is nothing more important for Justin than Brian and his family. That’s what Brian unfortunately didn’t understand in the past…
So far with Michael everything seems to be good, but I don’t trust this calmness… It’s scary enough that he’s in Pittsburgh…
Oh no, as I said before, I thought something would happen to their baby, but now with Brian coughing blood and his history and that of his father… Oh, I feel so bad for them…
Author's Response:
If only Brian had seen back then how wrong he had judged Justin's personality... So much pain could have been avoided. Well, at least he sees it now.
Yeah, I wouldn't trust Michael either, if I were you. Just saying ;)
Exactly... his own history and that of his father. It makes you worry, doesn't it?
We can only hope that everything will turn out alright in the end.
Date: Oct 24, 2019 3:07 pm Title: Chapter 6
Hi again! It’s so cute how you describe Luke copying Justin’s behavior! Ah, I love your little family! Why can’t they stay so happy! But I think a good story needs a little excitement!
Knowing about what is to come makes me sad reading about all their future plans like painting on Brian’s belly or going to one appointment together with their boys… Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
I love this family as well :) And I do feel bad for all I put them through in my stories *lol* They would deserve so much better. Maybe one day I'll write a story where there will just be happiness for them.
Date: Oct 24, 2019 2:25 pm Title: Chapter 5
Hi again! Sunshine and his super sperm :-)
I’m very glad that they don’t linger to much in the past. Just as you’ve written, it’s in the past and they can’t change it! They just should enjoy this pregnancy and should be happy that they can experience it this time together! Cute reaction from Luke but I haven’t expected anything less. With Gus, I was not so sure, not because of his age but because of the fact, that this baby ans also Luke are "real" siblings because they are both from Brian and Justin and Gus is only from Brian. But I think, in their little family this isn’t a real issue also because Justin has never treated Gus different from Luke.
I’m very curious about Michael and the role he’ll play in your story. I hope he won’t be successful in whatever he’ll do – because I’m sure that he’ll at least try to make problems… Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Haha, super sperm indeed. We always knew he was a very talented guy ;)
Yes, I agree that there was never anything to worry about with Luke, but with Gus... Yes, that's a different story. And as much as Justin treats him like he is his biological son as well, they will always know he isn't. And most importantly Gus will always know. The question is, will it become a problem? Or will they be fine anyway...
Michael... well, we'll hear from him. That much is certain. How that will go? We'll see.
Date: Oct 24, 2019 1:20 pm Title: Chapter 4
Hi again! I can only repeat myself, I feel so happy for them. A little peanut! And this time they can experience everything together! And again, fantastic writing-style and I love their detailed talks! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yes, a little peanut :)
They deserve this happiness and to be together for this pregnancy.
Date: Oct 24, 2019 1:02 pm Title: Chapter 3
Hi my friend! Great chapter, very well written. again, I can only praise how you let them talk and interact. And I'm very happy about their decision to go for another child together. To experience everything together from the start - this is what should have been happened years ago. So, this makes me very happy, although, sure, because of the title of your story, we already knew that something bad would be happen. At this point of the story I thought it would have been about Brian and the baby... Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
If only I weren't as evil as I am and could just let them enjoy the happiness of having a baby together and experiencing everything together for once ;)
They truly would deserve for this to work out and they would deserve to enjoy this pregnancy together, but I am evil and I love angst... sorry ;)
At least they talked it out like adults for once.
Thanks for your comment!
Date: Oct 23, 2019 6:05 pm Title: Chapter 2
Hi my friend! Now Brian’s got a bit impatient and annoyed - but is also understandable :-)
Again, I must praise your writing-style and the way you let them talk to one another. I love this!
And then my heart broke a little bit for Justin... ”I just wanted to know what it feels like... I just wanted us to do it together “ - and this reminds me of my feelings I had last year. To feel Justin’s pain about not having known about Luke, not having the chance to experienced this with Brian. And now, he knows that he won’t ever be able to carry Brian's child. So sad… And I don’t really know why, but that phrase “For the first time he realized how much this had meant to Justin” touched me deeply. I mean, your story “Back for good” was so emotional but yeah, maybe because of the fact that Justin won’t ever be able to experience a pregnancy by himself and because of his despair about it, Brian now really understood, how wrong his decision was. But I’m also glad that old wounds don’t tear too much and he doesn’t feel too guilty about it again. This is in the past and they must now see together how they deal with this new fact. But it’s interesting… If men would be also able to get pregnant, there would probably be more discussion about who would be the one getting pregnant. Crazy, I know, it’s just fiction… You see what you do to me… last year it was about forgiveness and now it’s about pregnancies... :-) Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Well, even this new, more grown up Brian isn't perfect and just human ;)
Thanks for your kind words - it means a lot to me that people like my version of these two and appreciate the way they communicate as it's obviously different than what we know from the show.
Yes, Brian needed to see Justin's pain at the news that he would never be able to carry a child on his own to really understand how much everything meant to Justin and how much Justin not only would have loved to have a child and to be there from the beginning, but to have carried it himself. As painful as this was for both of them, I think it was needed to create a better understanding between them. Even after all this time.
Of course Brian was very aware of the pain he caused Justin before, but this was just different and on a new level because it also involved their future and not just their past.
Thanks for your comment :)
Date: Oct 23, 2019 5:07 pm Title: Chapter 1
Hi my friend! You’re back and now, so am I. How are you? Still in Ireland? I must admit, I started reading your new story, the sequel to your wonderful story which I so longed for, but it was somehow difficult for me to get into it. I don’t know. You know, I was so into your story, so in love with it, but it has been nearly one year. I thought about re-reading “Back for good” first but I’m not sure I would find the time and now, after already reading until chapter eight, I’m too curious and can’t wait to continue. But first, I’ll stop and re-read the beginning to give you your much earned reviews. So, chapter one, again, wonderful written and I’m glad to see that life’s treated them well until now. They seem to be very very happy. And I really like your matured version of Brian. He seems to be content, calm and he’s treating Justin in this situation with so much patience, care and love. I really love that! So, after reading it for the first time – just like Brian – I thought Justin had been pregnant and had lost their baby… But I’m also sure he would have told Brian! And, yeah, now I already knew, but after reading the first chapter I hadn’t got a clue. Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Hi :)
It's good to see you back! Yes, I am still in Ireland and will be here for the foreseeable future. I have my life, my job, my friends and everything in Dublin and love living in Ireland. So for now there are no plans to return to Germany :)
I am glad to know that you're reading the sequel as well. It is quite different from the original story, so I know it won't be everyone's cup of tea. But well, I love me some angst and writing helps me to work through stuff in my own life, so this story is therapeutic for me more than anything. If people will appreciate and like it, even better ;)
Yes, up till now Brian and Justin have been very happy with their kids and have lived a life Brian probably never expected to love just 15 years ago and now enjoys more than anything. His family fulfills him and gives him happiness, same as for Justin :)
I hope you'll like the rest of the story :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 22, 2019 3:29 pm Title: Chapter 9
Whoa! Powerful and so painful at the same time.
Author's Response:
It was painful to write for me as well, I can tell you that much :(
Thanks for your comment! More will be up on Sunday :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 22, 2019 9:57 am Title: Chapter 9
Brian had better fight this and M needs to be safe. Please!!!!
Author's Response:
He promised Justin. And we all know that he never breaks his promises. So whatever this turns out to be, he will fight.
Thanks for your comment. More will be up on Sunday :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 22, 2019 1:51 am Title: Chapter 9
Wow, tissue box time. So heart breaking. Want to be optimistic. I love a happy ending. FANTASTIC WRITING. Would rate it higher than a 10 if possible.
Author's Response:
Sorry that you needed tissues for this one :( It was hard to write for me as well, I can tell you that...
Thanks for your kind words. More will be up on Sunday :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 22, 2019 1:02 am Title: Chapter 9
Nooooo. So sad but a good chapter. Really good.
Author's Response:
It is sad indeed :(
Thanks for your comment. More will be up on Sunday :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 16, 2019 5:05 am Title: Chapter 8
Wow, another box of tissue down the drain. Not the best thing to read at 1 am, but such an amazing chapter. Fantastic writing and hoping against hope for my happy ending.
Author's Response:
Haha, now I feel bad about your box of tissues ;)
Let's hope for the best and cross our fingers that they can go back to being happy about the baby soon!
More will be up soon :) Thanks for your comment!
Date: Oct 16, 2019 4:05 am Title: Chapter 8
Enjoying this story, hoping Brian and Justin get good news and not have to go through cancer again, they have been so happy about the new baby. Can't wait for more.
Liz
Author's Response:
I am glad that you're enjoying the story :)
Let's hope for the best and that they can go back to being happy about the baby soon.
More will be up soon! Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 16, 2019 3:21 am Title: Chapter 8
Here's hoping that things aren't as bad as it looks.
Author's Response:
Yeah, let's hope for the best :)
Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 15, 2019 7:30 pm Title: Chapter 8
Very bad and unexpected news! Let's cross our fingers...
Author's Response:
Yes, very bad indeed :(
Let's hope for the best!
More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 15, 2019 6:40 pm Title: Chapter 8
NoooooooooooooooðŸ˜
Author's Response:
I know, right? :(
Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 08, 2019 4:33 pm Title: Chapter 7
It's great that Justin decided to take a break in his career to be with his family.
Brian's condition is worrying.
Author's Response:
Yeah, there is no way that Justin would miss this time with the new baby :)
More will be up soon! Hopefully we'll get good news concerning Brian's condition!
Thanks for your comment :)
[Report This]Date: Oct 07, 2019 1:35 am Title: Chapter 7
Okay so we have to worry about Mikey, but we also have to worry about Brian's cough. This is something he doesn't need.
Author's Response:
Yeah, this is definitely something both Brian and Justin could do without :(
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Oct 06, 2019 11:56 pm Title: Chapter 7
Really good chapter. Loving the continuation of this story!
Ta Deb L
Author's Response:
I am glad that you like it :)
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Oct 06, 2019 11:39 pm Title: Chapter 7
Oh, wow, Brian sick and the threat of Michael and a cliffhanger. You are good at keeping us on the edge of our seats. Fantastic writing.
Author's Response:
The temptation of the cliffhanger was just too big to resist ;)
Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Sep 30, 2019 3:10 pm Title: Chapter 6
Very enjoyable chapter, until I read the last sentence about the angst coming up. I hope it will be related to Michael instead of a physical threat.
I love when sometimes writers use lines from the series; for example this: “You are unbelievable” + “That I am!”.
I love the M "name" and the explanation Luke gave Justin. So logical and funny. I also vote for "Emily" if it's a girl.
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked the chapter. As for the angst... hmmmm, we'll see. We'll find out soon!
I try to copy as many things from the show into my stories as is possible. I mean, obviously this story is not real, but the characters from the show are the ones we fell in love with, so it's only fair to keep some of the things we love about them :)
We'll see if it will be a girl and if yes, if it would be Emily or another name ;)
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon! :)
Date: Sep 30, 2019 10:32 am Title: Chapter 6
Noooooooo no angst I was loving the peace and love 🤣
Author's Response:
Uhm, sorry? I love angst and drama and I figured they had enough happiness. I mean, they had 4 happy chapters. That has to be good enough, right?!? ;)
Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)