Reviewer: mamab Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 15, 2017 7:14 pm Title: Chapter 6

This story is so heartbreaking.  It is turning me into an emotional mess.  Now I feel like I need to talk to Alex.  You are a gifted writer to allow that to happen.  Can't wait to see where it finally ends.

Author's Response:

Thanks, hon. I'm glad you are getting the feels for this. x

Reviewer: BlueMyst Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 15, 2017 6:08 pm Title: Chapter 6

Alex told Brian the truth about how Justin began to disappear and no one noticed and what Brian has to do to save Justin and himself.

Everyone just wanted to ignore that what Justin went through wasn't serious and Justin would be the same.

But no one can go through getting hit with a bat, heart stopping, a coma and come out the same person.

No one let Justin talk and vent out his frustration and anger they just wanted him to be who he was before.

But how can he be someone he can't remember anymore???

Michael had a small hand to play in this drama but everyone's hand is dirty and only Gus is clean because he didn't force Justin to be who he was before Prom, he accepted Justin for who he is now.

They all used a metaphorical bat on Justin and it was worse than what Chris Hobbs did because they destroyed his spirit over and over again.

I got teary-eyed reading this chapter and I know there will be more teary-eyed moments to come.

Author's Response:

Michael had a small hand to play in this drama but everyone's hand is dirty

This is true. :)

I got teary-eyed reading this chapter and I know there will be more teary-eyed moments to come.

This is true too. *Cheeky grin* 

I'm really glad you are enjoying this, hon. Thank you for the review. 

Reviewer: BlueMyst Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 10, 2017 12:45 am Title: Chapter 5

Michael spewed his venom but then again they all did because they didn't want to believe that Brian might actually care for Justin.

Michael and Lindsay don't want Brian to ever change because he would leave them behind and because when Brian loves he does it with his whole heart and they wouldn't have a place there anymore.

Justin has a lot of anger to deal with and he is fighting giving in to that anger.

Mel has always let her fear and jealousy rule her interactions with Brian and allowed Lindsay to have the upper hand.

I don't think Brian could ever forgive Michael for his blind jealousy when it comes to Justin, or forgive the others for their cruel words about his feelings towards Justin.

Lack of communication and jealousy can destroy everything when you don't set boundaries and some are allowed free reign to act like high school kids who think they are bulletproof from consequences.

This chapter was so hard, but it's going to get worse before it gets better...Right?

 

 

 

Author's Response:

Justin has a lot of anger to deal with and he is fighting giving in to that anger.

I'm glad you picked up on that and in a way you are right. There are seven stages of grief - Justin is currently stuck in anger, and that is where he is comfortable staying. ;)

Lack of communication and jealousy can destroy everything when you don't set boundaries

Yes, it can, and Brian is learning this.

This chapter was so hard, but it's going to get worse before it gets better...Right?

*Cheeky grin*

Thanks, hon. x

Reviewer: BlueMyst Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 09, 2017 11:51 pm Title: Chapter 2

Justin has been through so much and no one wanted to see it they all just expected Justin to go back to being who he was before.

The signs were there but no one saw them :(

Author's Response:

No, they didn't - Justin did a very good job of hiding them.  There is no real blame for that - you can't help someone if they don't ask for it, and you can't ask for help if you don't think it will come. It's a vicious circle. 

Reviewer: The SNO Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 08, 2017 10:28 pm Title: Chapter 5

What a chapter! I'm so proud of Debbie. For once, she did and said the right things. Heartbreaking, I can feel Brian's pain.

The way Emmett describes the night with the Sap and what Justin thinks about everybody: awful; how could he feel good within this family?

The only "light" part is Gus.

Author's Response:

Thanks, hon; it was meant to be hard to read/hear/listen too - and I'm glad you feel Brian's pain. 

Reviewer: mamab Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 07, 2017 5:46 pm Title: Chapter 5

What an amazing chapter.  Your writing and imagination are just so powerful.  Another story where I will use a box of Kleenex.  Hope it has a good ending.  Happy that the entire family now knows what a miserable piece of humanity Michael is and that they are not the innocents either.

Author's Response:

Another story where I will use a box of Kleenex.

Hmmm... I'll see if I can make you use two. ;) But thank you for the lovely compliment regarding my writing style - that means a lot. 

Reviewer: Tagsit Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 07, 2017 3:21 pm Title: Chapter 5

Nice to see the gang all finally admitting they were all at fault here. Not sure how you fix this mess though. TAG

Author's Response:

Very slowly!! lol!! Thanks, babe. 

Reviewer: Glo Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 02, 2017 2:22 am Title: Chapter 4

Jesus...What an emotional chapter. I have tears coming down my face...omg I hope the family rallies together for Justin. Debbie is going to freak when she finds out it was Michael who said those things. 

Author's Response:

Thanks, hon, I'm glad you're feeling this fic so strongly. x

Reviewer: NoChaser Signed [Report This]
Date: Dec 01, 2017 6:43 am Title: Chapter 4

Oh, god in heaven, this is painful. And rings so very, very true. 

I don't have a lot of sympathy for Brian yet. As I said on another chapter, the scene you describe in this chapter is one of only a very few times I actually hated Brian Kinney. Regardless of his own demons, the psychological rape of Justin in that scene is so damned unforgivable! And right now, I want Brian to hurt and hurt badly. 

I'll be honest that all the media attention right now on sexual abuse by manipulating men, the #metoo movement, the seemingly hourly discovery of yet another powerful man using that power to sexually manipulate someone who is less powerful, more vulnerable, has me rethinking my love of the Brian/Justin relationship. It was inherently one-sided on the power dynamic. It pushed the boundaries of moral behavior by an adult toward a barely legal minor. And I admit that I've had a bit of "QaF crisis of faith", as I told one friend here. To be frank, the show could not be made today without a huge outcry, and probably rightfully so. I'm saying this because my own reaction to the abusively charged climate we are in right now colors how I read these stories now, and this is a great one. 

There is so much going on in this chapter, too: the ignored psychological damage from the bashing, Brian's own willfully ignored need for psychotherapy, the abandonment by the gang, and, of course, the "whoever" who told Justin he should have died in the garage. We all know who that was. (I'm eager to see how you handle Deb's reaction to finding out THAT piece of info!)

Well, well, well done. My heart is breaking and racing and flying all around my emotions right now. 

Dayum...

Author's Response:

And rings so very, very true. 

I have always said write what you know; write the truth, and be honest in the telling.  I don't think I could write fluff if my life depended upon it. ;)  Have I ever been suicidal or depressed?  No.  But my BF has and my brother has.  I lost my cousin who was gay when I was eighteen to suicide.  So there is a little bit of my story within the story.  A catharsis, if you like.  

I don't have a lot of sympathy for Brian yet.  And right now, I want Brian to hurt and hurt badly. 

He is in for a world of hurt - I can damn well promise you that. 

QaF crisis of faith

I honestly don't think I was meant to discover the fandom before now.  I love the B/J relationship, but I have always viewed it as a strange one too.  When I was in the Riddick fandom, I loved the Riddick/Jack (Kyra) pairing and that was a 30-year-old man and a 13-year-old girl.  For me, it was never sexual until the second movie when she was over 17, but before that, it was the fact that she forced him to confront his inner animal and discover his own humanity.  The Brian/Justin pairing reminds me of this; Justin almost becomes Brian's little piece of conscience.  The little piece of the shiv left in the spine. ;)

What's going on in the media at the moment has been a shit storm that has been brewing for decades.  Men and women have spoken up in the past, and it has been shoved under the rug and ignored, but with the whole push for change with the gay community, and their rights, suddenly you can't push any topic like this away.  I mean, we're in 2017 for fuck's sake - I live in Australia and it was literally only a few weeks ago that our government allowed us to vote for gay marriage - we as a country gave a resounding YES!.  They are changing the laws by Christmas.   But in regards to the #metoo thing, if my daughter or son came to me and told me that a person in a position of power had touched them, there would be no place on earth they could hide; I would literally hunt them to the ends of the earth, and fucking annihilate them.  *Grrr*

(I'm eager to see how you handle Deb's reaction to finding out THAT piece of info!)

*Grins cheekily* 

Thanks so much for such a wonderful review - I'm glad that you're enjoying it, and that it is giving you the feels.  As a writer, that's all you can ask for. xx 

 

Reviewer: Tagsit Signed [Report This]
Date: Nov 26, 2017 10:07 am Title: Chapter 2

SO sad. Poor Justin... TAG

Author's Response:

:)

Reviewer: Jazzepoet Signed [Report This]
Date: Nov 25, 2017 3:42 pm Title: Chapter 1

Firstly welcome to KD it’s always awesome when writers join the fold. However, my emotional constitution can’t handle this one. Maybe once it’s completed i’ll revisit this tale.

Author's Response:

Thank you, and I hope that you do take the chance to read the fic one day. x

Reviewer: The SNO Signed [Report This]
Date: Nov 25, 2017 2:56 pm Title: Chapter 2

Very disturbing: Justin is in deep trouble. I always loved this scene when Justin comes back and Brian is already there after the bowling party. It is highly charged with frustration, anger, pain and desire. Brian was showing his dominant side and Justin couldn't do anything to prevent the damage.

The way you revisit the events and propose a potential scenario is really interesting.

Author's Response:

Thank you! And yes, Justin is in deep trouble. 

Justin couldn't do anything to prevent the damage

And there has been damage done; I titled this fic the way I did because all actions have consequences. How far-reaching are they? It has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a tsunami halfway around the world - Chaos Theory. So what have certain scenes in the past done? ;) I'm glad you are enjoying this. x