[Report This]Date: Nov 30, 2020 9:10 pm Title: Chapter 4
Thank you for such a wonderful story. I am a happy ending person and this was just perfect. Your writing is fantastic. Whatever you write, I will read. Hope all is well with you.
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked the story :)
Thanks for your comments, they're much appreciated!
Have a safe Christmas and a happy new year :) See you again in 2021!
Date: Nov 30, 2020 3:16 pm Title: Chapter 4
Hi! Yeah, I totally agree with you... most of S5 was terrible and I also agree with your opinion about S4 - I also wasn't fond of the pink posse storyline and Justin's haircut :-) but I liked nearly everything else... Although, I never understood why Brian brought Lindsay onto the stage at the opening ceremony for Kinnetik ... but that's maybe just my problem, I just don't like her ;-)
Your last chapter - beautiful, hot and cute! You made me laugh with this "Say it" :-) Although I know he's around 37, I saw this 17 year old Justin for a moment! A beautiful end to an amazing story (series). Thank you so much! It's good to read something positive in times like these!
As you surely know, here in Germany, we're having just a part-lookdown which will continue... Maybe it would have been better to have a total lockdown for a short time, but who knows what's the best...
So, then I wish you a wonderful December and Christmas time, a happy new year and stay healthy and safe!
Author's Response:
Haha, I don't like Lindsay either, so I am all with you on that one... That only played into her fantasies of being Mrs Brian Kinney one day... No idea why Brian would ask her to come up before Justin... Then again, we know that Cowlip always liked Michael and Lindsay way more than I ever could...
Well, even though Justin is 37 now, there will always be that cute, little highschool boy in him :)
I am glad that you liked this little interlude - we all deserved some happiness without angst!
Thanks for all your comments, they're much appreciated :)
Ireland has now lifted its lockdown. We have the lowest incidence rate in the EU right now and our numbers are back to being pretty low. I will fly home to Germany though tomorrow... I will quarantine for 12 days in an Airbnb (just works out with the days I will still have to work anyway, the joys of working from home - no one cares where home is!) and will then stay with my family over Christmas. I haven't been back home since last Christmas, the longest I ever stayed away. Usually I fly home 4 times a year, but well... So yeah, I am really looking forward to seeing my family again after all this time.
You have a safe Christmas and a very happy new year as well :) See you in 2021!
[Report This]Date: Nov 30, 2020 9:13 am Title: Chapter 4
This was a great way to end this storyline.
Thanks
Deb L.
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked this little interlude :)
Thanks for your comment, it's much appreciated!
Have a safe Christmas and a happy new year! :)
Date: Nov 30, 2020 7:23 am Title: Chapter 4
Happy ending to a fabulous story I look forward to more adventures next year
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked the story :)
Thanks for your comment - it's much appreciated!
Have a safe Christmas and a happy new year!
[Report This]Date: Nov 24, 2020 4:43 pm Title: Chapter 3
Funny and emotional: what a chapter!
Ted and Daphne's speeches were great; "the face of God" making an appearance is always a good idea to embarrass Justin. Vicky's questions were on point and also a little bit embarrassing for our guys.
The dance though: it must have been very hard on Brian.
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked the chapter!
And I thought the "face of God" was perfect for a best woman speech at a wedding :)
Vicky is the best - her daddies and uncles should have known better than to bring themselves into this situation to begin with ;)
The dance was hard for Brian, but thankfully Justin knew and was tuned in to Brian's feelings and together they made new memories, better memories!
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon :)
Date: Nov 24, 2020 4:13 pm Title: Chapter 3
Hi! Thanks for your long answer to my thoughts about Season 5! I agree nearly with everything you said and maybe at some points you misunderstood me or I haven't made myself clear. I didn't mean to blame Brian for everything. First of all, I blame Cowlip, because of what they've done to both of them in S5, how they let them behave and stopped their common growing. And no, it didn't start with this sentence, although, please if you have the possibility, watch this scene again! I don't think it's a playful banter, maybe at first, but look at Brian's face, he looks so disappointed. And I totally agree with you (and Brian), I also don't think, Justin would have returned if there would have been other / better options. And that's just so sad and so wrong after all they went through together (especially after the cancer) - but I wrote this before. We also see this opinion of Brian in his talk with Michael in front of the shopping window... So, yeah, your totally right, when you write "Brian got all these ideas into his head of a life Justin could have without him holding him back in Pittsburgh" And, yeah, I agree, this Justin is no longer this "lovesick" and onto-Brian-Justin and I sadly agree with your safety net-theory. And instead of letting them sit down and talk about everything, it all goes downhill from there... Brian behaving like he's in some kind of midlife crisis and Justin first not caring so much any longer and then suddenly wanting it all (marriage, kids, Stepford-house) - to me he often seems lost and as I wrote before, tired of it all. And from there, they want to start a marriage? No way.
Would they have a chance to have a relationship? That's a real hard question. After all that happened in S5 I'm not so sure, but just as the authors were able to do so much damage to them in S5, everything would have been possible I think. And starting from the end of S4 I would say, why not. Sure, it would have been difficult with their age difference, life experience and financial inequality. Justin, who is still so young, still has to find his place and also himself, whose career is just beginning in contrast to Brian, who has already come so far professionally. But with being only 21 I think Justin had already reached a lot... the comic which was a success, he had this exhibition in S5 and was highly commented in this article. An also an important factor is Brian. He already wanted Justin to explore and experience everything, never standing in his way. In my opinion there would have been a chance if Cowlip would have continued their development from S4, but with everything what happened in S5 you're maybe right. But, I still don't understand either this move to New York out of the blue just because of one promising article. He knows no one there, has to pay for a place, for studio space, for his art.... There, he is just one of soooo many others who try to make it big in NY. I think it would have been much better, staying a little bit longer in Pittsburgh, maybe continuing and ending PIFA, continuing on his art, working on their relationship by mainly talking more... Brian starting therapy maybe to work on his problems. Because, in relation to relationships and feelings they are not so unequal... and then, maybe going to New York together... I don't know, there would have been many possibilities.
So, this chapter! Again, wonderful written, just beautiful and I'm so happy for their little family! I also really like your idea not playing "Save the last dance for me" on their wedding - sure, they could make new and better memories but why not start with something new on this happy event! This scenes with Vicky are so cute... "What's a ‘Once only' policy?" haha - Emmett to the rescue! So, thanks for another wonderful chapter! Warmest regards and stay healthy!
Author's Response:
I think what it comes down to is that we can both agree that season 5 was one hot mess when it came to character development for both Brian and Justin :( And I agree, Cowlip are to blame for that!
I liked where they were at the end of season 4, then again I am one of the few people who actually liked their season 4 dynamics. I wasn't a big fan of the pink posse storyline, but even then you could see how much Brian cared and worried about Justin. And from there it only built to what led to the cancer storyline and Justin fighting for his place at Brian's side and Brian accepting him there. And then the end of the season with Brian seeing Justin cheering him on when he was on the Liberty Ride and then their conversation at the loft after the ride was over.
I would have loved if Cowlip had continued with them trying to build a relationship from there, but alas... They always loved wild, free, fucking it all Brian and never cared much for happy, domesticated Brian. I guess it's a good thing the show ended after season 5 and they didn't get a chance to mess up Brian/Justin even more in a potential season 6 with Justin in New York - and I agree, that move made no sense at all!
Good thing there's fanfiction and in our stories we can make them act the way we want them to ;)
I am glad that you liked the chapter - I felt like we all deserved some happiness :) And Vicky... I just love her. She's the best!
Thanks for your comment - more will be up tomorrow :) Stay safe! By now Ireland has the 2nd lowest incidence in Europe, so we're doing a lot better. Our lockdown will be loosened next week with shops, restaurants, gyms, etc. opening again for the first time in six weeks. We'll see how long that lasts :/
[Report This]Date: Nov 23, 2020 8:10 pm Title: Chapter 3
Wonderful chapter. I love a happy Brian and Justin. Fantastic writing.
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I am glad that you like it :)
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[Report This]Date: Nov 23, 2020 2:41 am Title: Chapter 3
Nothing can be better than Brian and Justin married. Absolutely love this.
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I agree 100% :)
I am glad you like the story!
Thanks for your comment - more will be up soon :)
Date: Nov 16, 2020 4:11 pm Title: Chapter 2
Hi! I just had to answer you today because at the weekend I looked through some scenes of Season 5 and that reminded me again why I dislike that season so much... and yeah, so much more often than in Season 1 I think "asshole" and I would like to shake Brian and yell at him and say "hey, you've come so much further, you don't really want to be like that anymore..." It's not only the bet... his whole behavior... this scene in which he tries on those four or five shirts, which actually all look the same ..., his syphilis disease ..., their different answer to the question how long they've been together (the foursome-scene) ... , his reaction to the Rage comic, in which Rage and JT get married .... his behavior at the exhibition ("it's been a long time since I fucked an artist)... Argghhhh! I often asked myself what have they done to Brian and why!!! And my only explanation is this... There is this scene after Justin returns from LA. Where they have this conversation and Brian says that he never thought Justin would have come back, Justin agrees and Brian asks "what would you want here anyway" and Justin answers "can't imagine" (in deutscher Übersetzung: "wenn ich das wüsste" and Brian looks soooo disappointed (it broke my heart). And later, this scene in which Justin leaves, he asks Brian "then why do we do all this when we both know that it won't work" and Brian answers "damned, if I'd know" (in deutscher Übersetzung "Verdammt, wenn ich das wüsste") - I always get the impression as if Brian felt back into his old self because he was too afraid to love, to trust into their love after Justin returned and told him that. And for me it also felt a little like some kind of payback.... And sadly, to be honest, it really seems as if Justin would not have returned anytime soon... That was for me the first thing I didn't understand (after what Brian went through with the cancer) and also hated ... They had come so far, they had endured so much together... And yeah, I totally agree with you, to turn Justin into Michael 2.0 also wasn't right, but I always get the impression that he was just tired of Brian's behavior and I really wished the circumstances about his return from L.A. would have been different. And I also absolutely don't understand why they let him go to Michael... And then finally, this amazing scene after the bombing and instead of letting them talk about what they want and how they can reach it through mabye some compromises, no, it's all or nothing, marriage... and then again all or nothing! This damn Season 5. Arghhh, it's just so tragic! So, no, I don't want a sequel, I'm content with reading fanfictions! :-)
(Hopefully you are not annoyed with my long answer... ;-) sometimes it's just good to talk or write about it)
So, thank you very very much for another wonderful chapter, for giving them what I think they really deserve. I really love your writing-style, and it was just right, not too cheesy, but simply beautiful! I'm just so grateful for everyone who still writes about them and keeping them alive through this! So thanks! Stay healthy and warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Hi, thanks for this great comment and for sharing your thoughts on season 5 some more. I agree on most things (the bet, the syphillis, the foursome, etc.), but I am not sure I agree on the reason why. To me (only ever having watched the show in English) that scene always seemed like playful banter between Brian and Justin, not to be taken seriously by either of them, you know?
I have to admit that I have always had a problem with that scene after Justin returned from LA and they sit on the bed and talk. When Justin says "There is one thing Pittsburgh has that LA doesn't", meaning Brian. As nice as a sentiment as that was at the time and as romantic as that was supposed to be, I couldn't help but feel that it was a completely hollow statement from Justin.
In my mind (and maybe it's just me), I have to agree with Brian and I don't think Justin would have come back if the movie hadn't been cancelled and Brett Keller hadn't pretty much kicked him out. Justin enjoyed his time in LA, he enjoyed working on the movie and he enjoyed being part of that "Hollywood scene", no matter what he might have claimed later in Brian's presence. In addition, once the movie fell through, he stayed in LA and only seemed to consider moving back to Pittsburgh after Brett told him he could stay "for a couple of days until he found something else". I didn't really get the impression that Justin had thought about going back to Pittsburgh before. And that's something that always bothered me about Justin's character (as much as we always like to talk about Brian and his emotional problems, why not focus on Justin for once?;)): He always seemed to consider Brian to be like a safety net. Brian always seemed like his last resort option if all else failed. Once LA fell through and didn't work out, Justin returned to Pittsburgh to stay with Brian at the loft because really: Did he have many other options? Yes, he could have moved in with Daphne again, but he wouldn't have had a job, no education, nothing... It made me feel like Justin treated Brian in the same way Brian had treated him in season 1: Always there if everything else fails. Of course in Brian's case that was in relation to sex and in Justin's it was more about the general aspect of a relationship and security and stability, but still... it felt like he was taking it for granted that Brian would always welcome him back. It felt like he only returned to Brian because there wasn't really another option at the time and Brian seemed to feel that way too which is why I think he started doubting Justin's declarations of love more and more and regressed more and more to his old self.
I am not saying that Justin didn't really love Brian and didn't really want to be with him, but he was only 21 at the time, still figuring out his life and I don't know... I guess it just bothered me that he didn't seem more excited to return to the man he claimed to love so much after not having seen him for months when the opportunity presented itself. Maybe I am reading that whole situation wrong, but... I don't know. I have never really felt comfortable with that whole "Brian will always be there as Justin's safety net if all else fails" chemistry between them.
Which is one of the reasons why I didn't particularly mind that the Wedding in season 5 didn't happen. Much as portrayed in my Back for Good universe, I really think Justin needed to find himself as an adult first and needed to become financially independent first before he and Brian could ever consider such a move. Nonetheless, having him be at the Babylon opening woud have been nice ;)
I have never felt like there would be much chance for a relationship between them unless they were both equals, you know? Justin would have been too proud to have any other kind of relationship and Brian might have misunderstood Justin's pride to mean that he didn't really love him after all, because if he did, why wouldn't he allow Brian to take care of him?
I think during Justin's time in LA, Brian got all these ideas into his head of a life Justin could have without him holding him back in Pittsburgh and the fact that Justin didn't return from LA any sooner and seemed to enjoy his time there only confirmed that to Brian: If given the choice, Justin would choose his career/his own life over Brian. And sadly, with Brian not being able to accept his feelings and really show them and deal with them, he pushed Justin down that path...
It just really bothered me that they took all these steps back after season 4. After having made it through that cancer arc (the shortest cancer in history ever!), I felt like there was a new level of trust and understanding between them which seemed to have been confirmed after the Liberty Ride when they had that conversation about Justin moving in and Brian having made some decisions about his life.
I felt like Brian was finally growing up and yes, Justin's move to LA came at the worst time possible, but it bothered me a lot that they had Brian regress so much to his old self instead of building on some of the decisions he had made at the end of season 4. I wish he would have gone to LA to see Justin, but well... his doubts, not trusting that he was worthy to be loved...
Season 5 just frustrates me a lot - let's put it that way! Both of them frustrated me: Justin for treating Brian like a safety net on the one hand and only coming back to Pittsburgh because he didn't seem to have any other choices in LA and then all of a sudden acting like Brian should have changed his complete behaviour while Justin was away. Only that Justin, while he was away, never really showed that he cared much about Brian either...
I guess they could have both worked a lot harder on their relationship during Justin's time in LA. Maybe that way Brian would have felt more secure in the knowledge that Justin really loved him and would have been able to go down that path of a serious, adult relationship some more. Who knows?
Anyway, back to the story ;) Thanks for your comment! I am glad that you like the wedding! I felt like they finally deserved to have their moment - both of them!
More will be up soon! Stay safe :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 16, 2020 2:25 am Title: Chapter 2
Wonderful, just wonderful. The moment we have waited for forever. Fantastic writing.
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I am glad that you liked it :) Everyone deserved a moment of happiness!
More will be up soon. Thanks for your comment!
[Report This]Date: Nov 16, 2020 2:20 am Title: Chapter 2
I adore this. A perfect way to go 9nexwith your series.
Author's Response:
I am glad that you liked this chapter :)
More will be up soon! Thanks for your comment.
Date: Nov 14, 2020 8:30 am Title: Chapter 1
Hi again!
First an answer to your last one: Yeah, Brian - I think one could write a whole thesis about his character and its complexity. :-) That's why there are - fortunately - so many fanfics! Stud-Brian - for me it's not that his way of life is so appealing or desirable, what fascinates me about it is to look for the reasons behind it and to see and think about this tragic side of this lifestyle. Brian is such an incredibly interesting character! And yeah, so - I totally agree - it's hard to watch some of the painful moments of Season 1 (for me those are especially the ones in which Brian uses sex to punish Justin (because he gots too close) and maybe also himself (for letting his walls down more and more), but I rather see Season 1 than Season 5, because despite of Brian's Stud-attitude, you can already see changes in Brian, the start of maturing. And in my opinion, in Season 5 Brian's development was stopped, they let him fall back in old patterns (this terrible bet - so pathetic). That's still the main reason why I was so disappointed about Season 5... It's not that they didn't let them get married, it's more, what they've done to the development of those characters... And by the way, that's also the reason why I'm a strongly against a reunion of the series. Don't get me wrong, it would surely be great for the queer community but I don't think it would be good for the Brian/Justin fans because 1. after what they've done to them in Season 5 I'm too afraid what they would done to them in a reunion (and there would be nothing more terrible at least for me to see Brian either still at the age of 50 trying to fuck everything which moves or to be in a happy relationship with another man and they same goes for Justin... because no matter what Randy says about it, I totally believe that for the character of Justin there was nothing more important than to be with Brian and having success with his art) and 2. I didn't get the impression that despite what most of the cast said about it so far, neither Gale nor Randy are so much interested in a reunion of the series and imagine they would replace them with different actors....
So, this brings me finally to your new story! Thanks for continuing in this universe! A great first chapter and I totally agree with your opinion that they weren't ready to get married in Season 5 (not in the way the authors presented us those characters), but in your story they are ready! And I agree with your Justin... now, they are getting married for the right reasons! Amazing writing-style! I love your depiction of Gus and also of Luke and Vicky! It's so good to see them so happy!
As for the lockdown... I don't think that it'll will be over at the beginning of December but I hope that you can see your family again soon! Stay healthy and warmest regards!
Author's Response:
I totally agree with what you said about Brian! And also about season 5 - I won't lie, I liked the episodes after the Babylon bombing because I liked Brian finally being open about his feelings for Justin and let's face it, yes, I wouldn't have minded the show ending with a wedding, but as said in this story and in some comments before: It wouldn't have worked for the characters. I would have loved it as a fan, but for the characters it wouldn't have made sense... Especially with how they had Brian go back to his former self with that stupid bet... If they had let him grow after season 4, maybe... But the way they messed up his character in seaon 5, I don't think a wedding would have made sense, no matter how much I would have loved it. So thank God for fanfiction ;)
And while we're on the topic of Brian's character, I also want to say that I hated what they did to Justin's character in season 5. Just for the record ;) Turning him into Michael 2.0 was the most annoying thing they could ever do to him... and honestly, for him to move in with Michael of all people? When he had Daphne, his mom, was closer with Emmett... But well, I guess the creators had a different vision and saw Michael in a completely different light than I do ;)
As for the reunion: I would be scared of what they would do to Brian and Justin. Like you, I wouldn't want to see Brian still run after every piece of ass out there at the age of 50. I couldn't imagine anything more embarrassing. Oh my god, am I turning into Michael here???
Good thing that we have fanfiction where we can make them grow and behave the way we want and like ;)
I am glad that you liked this first chapter :) They all deserve this happiness after what I've put them through in this universe!
Thanks for your comment. Stay safe!
Date: Nov 12, 2020 9:47 am Title: Chapter 1
Aw nice little kick having Daphne being devils advocate 😀
Author's Response:
Well, she is his best friend and as such worries about him ;)
Thanks for your comment! More will be up soon :)
[Report This]Date: Nov 09, 2020 3:13 am Title: Chapter 1
Wow, wonderful new story. Love it. It is what we have been waiting for. Fantastic writing.
Author's Response:
I felt like we all deserved some happiness in 2020 - I am glad you like it :)
More will be up soon! Thanks for your comment!
Date: Nov 09, 2020 12:31 am Title: Chapter 1
I'm so glad you continued this. Great writing.Britin forever
Author's Response:
I am glad you liked this - I think we can all do with some happiness in 2020 :)
Thanks for your comment. More will be up soon!