Justin’s POV

I found him. He is the one. I can’t take my eyes off of him, the way he moves is like music. I really think he is going to turn “nothing special” into a night that means everything. The look on his face when he held his son is burned into my memory. The way he touched my body, the gentleness and patience has branded my soul. This is love.  

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I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,

No he can't read my poker face

I won't tell you that I love you

Kiss or hug you

I'm not lying, I'm just stunnin'

I promise this, promise this

Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

Brian’s POV

The little twat just shows up at my loft. I have had him. I don’t do love, no repeats. I send him off with a little queer education. The kid did almost wear me out and he did have an excellent ass. I don’t need the twink thinking it was more than just a fuck. But why do I feel hollow?

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There ain't no reason you and me should be alone tonight,

And I got a reason that you're who should take me home tonight

I need a man that thinks it's right when it's so wrong tonight,

Right on the limits where we know we both belong tonight

I'm on the edge of glory, and I'm hanging on a moment of truth

Out on the edge of glory, and I'm hanging on a moment with you

Justin’s POV

He thinks he can hide his heart from me. I am so onto him. He takes me home with him more times than he turns me down. In the dark of night, in the silence of the loft, I feel him reach for me. It’s my body he craves and it’s his heart I own. He can spout his bullshit mantras to the world but I know Brian, the man, not a fallacy or the legend just the man. I am a persistent little stalker that’s why I am who he has taken home tonight.

I asked Brian to be my date to the prom. Deb and Mom were waxing poetic about it being a rite of passage. Brian thought I was a fucking idiot. Showing up with Brian would have been the perfect fuck off to that homophobic hellhole St. James. What the hell. I will take Daphne.

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I'm gonna marry the night

I won't give up on my life

Live passionately tonight

I'm gonna marry the dark

Gonna make love to the stark

I'm a soldier to my own emptiness

I am a winner

I'm gonna lace up my boots

Throw on some leather and cruise

I'm a sinner

Brian’s POV

I will always be young and beautiful, what a crock of shit. Go out in a blaze of glory and leave a good looking corpse is the way. I don’t want want grey hair or wrinkles. The twink asked me to his prom. Too old, not going. I do like fucking a certain 18 year old... maybe I will recapture my lost youth.  

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You can dance

Every dance with the guy

Who gave you the eye

Let him hold you tight

You can smile

Every smile for the man

Who held your hand

'Neath the pale moonlight

But don't forget who's taking you home

And in whose arms you're gonna be

So darlin'

Save the last dance for me

Justin’s POV

I can’t believe he showed up. He is hot as hell in his Armani suit. That silk scarf is sending chills down my spine. He pulls me onto the dance floor and we start to move. The look in his eyes says everything I need to know.

Brian POV

Justin really is beautiful. The smile on his face tells me he heard everything I can’t say. We are playing around and laughing as he walks me to the jeep. I look deep in his eyes as I kiss him, then tell him “later”. JUSTIN! No, no, no,no,no …...God!

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They’re giving me a million reasons to let you go

They’re giving me a million reasons to quit the show

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare

It's like that I've stopped breathing, but completely aware

I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away

Baby, I just need one good one to stay

Brian’s POV

This is my fault. He is broken because of me. I just need him to be okay. He has to be okay. They can blame me for this all they want, I am not fucking leaving until I know he is okay. Wake up Sunshine, come on, time to wake up. I twist the scarf soaked with his blood as I pray please be okay.

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Till your world burns and crashes

Till you're at the end, the end of your rope

Till you're standing in my shoes

I don't wanna hear a thing from you,

'Cause you don't know

Till it happens to you, you don't know how I feel

You tell me hold your head up, hold your head up and be strong

'Cause when you fall you gotta get up, you gotta get up and move on

You tell me it gets better, it gets better in time

You say I'll pull myself together, pull it together, you'll be fine

Till it happens to you, you don't know how I feel, how I feel

How I feel

Justin’s POV

I want Brian. I can’t move my fucking hand. My art career is over before it ever started. I want Brian. I can’t stand the pitying looks or the constant acting like I am an invalid that can’t wipe his own ass. I want Brian. Mom wants to infantilize me, Dad blames me for flaunting myself, and everyone else wants to pretend it didn’t happen or rehash every detail. I really want Brian.

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Give me that thing that I love (I'll turn the lights out)

Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch (make it real loud)

I live for the applause, applause, applause

Live for the way that you cheer and scream for me

The applause, applause, applause

I stand here waiting for you to bang the gong

To crash the critic saying, "Is it right or is it wrong?"

Brian’s POV

Drugs, booze, and tricks. Eventually my pain management will silence the sound of the bat cracking his skull. I will be able to close my eyes and not see that smile broken right before the bat made contact with his head. Soon the smell of sex will erase the metallic scent of his blood as it pooled on the ground. The thumpa-thumpa will diminish the memory of him so still in that hospital bed. I watched him sleep when I couldn’t, it was better than the nightmares.

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It's been a long time since I came around

This time I'm not leaving without you

You taste like whiskey when you kiss me

I’d give anything again to be your baby doll

You said, sit back down where you belong

Sit back down on the couch where we made love the first time

And you said to me

Yeah something about, baby, you and I

Justin’s POV

We took it slow that first time after the bashing. He touched me like I was made of glass but I needed him too. They thought they could keep us apart but he is the only one I trust. I didn’t think he would want some broken twink, too scared to walk down the street, but he just says keep going Sunshine. He holds me during the nightmares and makes sure I do my therapy. He gave me back my art.

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Baby don't you know I love you so?

Can't you feel it when we touch?

I will never, never let you go

I love you oh so much

If he asks

If you're all alone

Can he take you home

You must tell him no

Don't forget who's taking you home

And in whose arms you're gonna be

So darlin'

Save the last dance for me

Brian’s POV

I care about him.

Justin’s POV

He soooo cares about me. ( Sunshine smile implied )