LEARNING TO SLEEP IN THE BED YOU MADE INSTALLMENT 3: LEAVING NEVERLAND

CHAPTER 1: BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT

BRIAN:

Can I just say how fucking good it feels to FINALLY be out of Pittsburgh? It does… It REALLY does! Justin and I decided to leave right after stumbling onto the wedding of none other than Michael Novotny. To say that the two of us were surprised would be an understatement, especially because he married a woman! 

Well, I always did say that Michael was a hetero-woman trapped within a gay man’s body. It’s going to be interesting to see how long that marriage lasts. There’s a rumor going around that Michael married her for her money. Knowing my ex-best friend, I can believe it. I mean, after all the Bank of Brian is closed; I wouldn’t be surprised if Debbie finally closed her purse, too.

Anyway, what can I say about my own marriage except to say it’s damn fucking good. It could be because Justin and I work together, play together, and then spend the rest of the night still focusing on each other. There are times when I wonder why I waited so long to have a relationship. But then there are other times that I realize that my contentment at the moment is specific to a certain young man, who came into my life and turned it upside down. I don’t think I could have this with anyone else but Justin.

And speaking of work, Justin and I have hit the ground running. We weren’t even here officially before Zack O’Toole- yes, THE Zack O’Toole of the twelve-inch cock fame- reached out to me and Justin to find out if we’d take his account. Apparently he and two other business partners, who are also big name porn stars, have decided to leave their former production company and strike out on their own. Justin began working on the artwork for the campaign right after he ousted Craig from Taylor-Kinney Electronics. In addition to taking advantage of their celebrity, they have also acquired a well-known adult store chain, which is only part of our contract with them; public relations and magazine publications for each section of their studio are the others.

At first, Dee and DeMarcus were leery of taking on that particular industry. Ironically, it wasn’t because of the industry itself, but because of the way the public perceives it to be. Unfortunately, that reasoning also extends to the higher ups in Hollywood as well. Hell, I’ve never met two more sexually-free people than the Prince siblings, so it definitely wasn’t some form of prejudice on their parts. But truthfully, I could see their concern, even as I drew upon my knowledge of human nature from years of studying people, and what really drives them.

The bottom line is that most of the time, people will scream loudly of immoral behavior publicly, even while screaming for an entirely different reason altogether behind closed doors. And that’s thanks in large part to porn. HYPOCRITES! So Justin and I decided to begin a subsidiary called Kinnetik under the DPAA umbrella. It offers not only public relations and marketing, but talent scouting as well. 

Needless to say, we have already used our name to make it successful, all while I’m still a full partner in DPAA and Justin’s still my art director. I think the thing that’s so surprising about that is not one of the conservative clients Justin and I brought with us, when they found out I’d left RVA, have balked at us working on the outskirts of the porn industry. Leo Brown, specifically, said that if they had to seek representation within that salacious industry then they couldn’t have chosen better people to see to their interests. Justin just smiled, while I shook his hand after nearly keeling over in shock. So now RVA- known as Ryder Vanguard- is touting that they are a ‘Highly moral company with standards within an industry that seems to have lost theirs’ as their tagline. 

Considering the rate at which they are still hemorrhaging clients since I left, I believe they are discovering just what people think of that bullshit, especially since most are well aware of the reason I’m no longer a part of that team. That’s personally not my fault, even though when asked why I left, I don’t lie about it. No. In fact, we can thank Justin’s grandparents and Jennifer for sending their many contacts our way. As a result, our branch of DPAA already has a waiting list a mile long of people who are willing to wait for our services.

So in short, Lindsay and Michael, along with Ryder and Vance, can suck down a bunch of buckets of rancid cum behind their dire predictions of me missing them, and wanting to return to them by any means necessary. I’m thirty years old, a partner in a multi-billion dollar firm, with the HOTTEST teenage sensation in my bed every night. Who the fuck would trade that?! I may be a great many things, but stupid is NOT one of them.

“Brian, the representative from Juicy Peach Entertainment is here.” Cynthia comes into the office to tell me.

“That’s fine. Is Justin ready?”

“That’s a negative. He’s on a conference call with New York.”

“New York?”

“Yes. The owner of Thrive called him directly,” She shook her head. “We’re not even fully staffed yet, and they are still calling for you guys.”

“Well the team we have already is phenomenal. When is the next round of interviews scheduled?”

“All day tomorrow… Well, unless you or Justin have to fly out. Then whichever one of you is left will have to hold the interviews for both departments.”

And this is the downside of having business ventures still in their baby stages in the Pitts. Now don’t get me wrong. So far we’ve been handling things pretty well between us. But we still need to staff the rest of DPAA and Kinnetik. We’ve officially been here a month and have been holding interviews twice a week, but still we’re understaffed. 

Part of me just wants to hire everyone, and then fire at will later on. But that would be counterproductive to Justin and me building our teams the exact way we want to. The one thing we can both agree on wholeheartedly is that if anyone is to get the A.D. spot over in Kinnetik, it’s going to be Murph. That man is worth every penny we’re paying him and more. Hmm… maybe we can find a way for him to be the Assistant to both companies without overtaxing him.

“I know what you’re thinking, Brian, and I would advise against it,” Cynthia warns me.

“Why?”

“Other than the fact that Stephanie will find a way to kill you in your sleep, he’s already overextending himself fulfilling the needs of both companies as it is. You need to have both DPAA and Kinnetik work as separate entities, with the exception of you and Justin. Therefore, you WILL hold those interviews tomorrow with an eye towards hiring your executive staff for Kinnetik, and filling the rest of the mid and junior level positions here. That’s non negotiable.”

“Why did I bring you with me again?”

“To keep your head on straight for starters. As for the other reason, I’m the only other person in this building besides your husband that could tell you where to go, how fast to get there, and what you can ride on the way there. In short, I’m invaluable,” she says, laughing. “Now come on. You can at least begin the meeting with Zack’s representative. I think he’s coming but is running a bit behind schedule at the studio.”

I snicker a bit. “I’ll just bet he is.” It still tickles me that he and his business partners decided on the name of the studio based on seeing Sunshine’s ass months before they decided to strike out on their own. Granted, all asses have a peach shape- some more than others- but to have both men and women think of Justin’s ass as a juicy peach? Well that’s just special, and yeah it gives me incredible satisfaction to know it’s all MINE.

Well, enough daydreaming about the ass I’m going to spank later on for missing this meeting. It’s time to do what I do, and that’s talk about sex. Upon entering the room, I almost have to laugh as I see Jodi Coxx looking behind me for my partner. She thought that Justin was just the cutest thing… Until she decided to enter the orgy room at an upscale place Justin and I had received guest passes to. 

So imagine her surprise when she saw Sunshine manhandling Zack’s six-foot-six frame with the ease of a man who’s been fucking forever, instead of just a little over a year. What could I say, except that Justin likes them BIG in all facets. What was funny was that Zack had made a bet with Justin, promising him the first fuck between them, before he would bend Justin over to teach my young buck a few tricks. I tried to tell him that Justin would never bend for anyone but me, but Justin shot me a smirk that silenced me. It was so much fun watching Justin fuck the porn star down to a quivering mess of a man, which is exactly how Jodi found the two of them.

I chuckle at her disappointment. “Your favorite will be along as soon as he’s able. He’s on a conference call to New York.”

She smiles back at me, before saying, “Well then, I suppose you’ll have to do it for my fix of forbidden eye candy, Brian.”

“You just want to gawk at his ass again,” I joke.

“Doesn’t everybody?”

“Yeah, but as long as it stays that way, I’m alright with it.”

She nods. I can’t deny that she’s an attractive woman. Five-ten, legs for years, and shaped in all the right places that will make a hetero male and homo girl spontaneouly combust, Jodi Coxx is beautifully and wonderfully made. “So what can I do for you today?”

“I need you to change my image on the site for starters.” At my puzzled look, she smiles and continues. “I’m getting married, and won’t be doing hetero porn for awhile.”

“Does that mean Evan…”

“Yep. He asked, and I’ve accepted. But one of the terms was that I stop doing hetero porn for at least a year.”

“But he has no problem with girl-on-girl?”

“What man would?” I raise my hand quickly, to which she laughs and shakes her head. “Ass! I’m talking about hetero men.”

“Definitely, but I’m curious as to the sudden stipulation. I mean, it’s not like you’re telling him he has to do gay porn now.” Evan Everhard is also a porn star, whose films with Jodi always rank number one when they’re released. “And does this stipulation also include him?”

She sighs. “For all his worldliness, Evan really is kind of old fashioned sometimes. Since he refuses to screw me on camera while we are yet newlyweds, he doesn’t want anyone else to either. I know it doesn’t make sense…”

“It does, but it doesn’t,” I assure her. “I get that he wants it to be just the two of you for at least the first year of your marriage. But then again, that brings up the whole goose-gander debate.”

“You think I’m making a mistake?”

“I would NEVER presume to tell you what to do regarding your marriage. I’ve already had people trying to butt into mine with Justin, and we didn’t like it at all. But the best that I can suggest is that you both really have a conversation about all of this before we change the website to reflect that you’re solely doing lesbian porn now. The bottom line is that while you’re going to be Evan’s wife, you’re also part-owner of Juicy Peach Entertainment. So you also have to decide what’s going to be best for your business, as well as your marriage. But if you both outline the stipulations, there shouldn’t be a need to reevaluate either partnership in the process.”

“Would you do the same if it was you and Justin?” she asks me, and I can see that she really wants to know the answer.

“It’s what we’ve already done. Believe it or not, Justin can be a stubborn ass when he wants to be, and is more apt to dig in his heels rather than automatically agree to anything…”

“I can’t see that when I look at him.”

“Very few do. They just see the mismatch in our ages, and assume that I’m the boss. And that’s where they’re wrong, when in fact the worst thing you can possibly do is underestimate Justin Taylor-Kinney. Many people back in Pittsburgh are learning that lesson as we speak. It helps- or hinders, depending on how you look at it- that he’s not afraid to self-advocate, and has definitive ideas about what he wants. He doesn’t compromise at all unless it’s in his favor, and it’s why…”

“You love him,” she finishes for me, quietly.

I nod. “There are so many reasons to, but yes. And that especially goes for when he’s being a pissy little bitch. He makes me work for every moment of peace I get, all the while seeming like he’s some fucking benevolent Pasha.” I laugh.

“I know that he sure surprised Zack. He had to cancel his bottoming shoot the next day because little Justin tore his ass up.”

“Yeah, he did. It was one of the most fun times I’d ever had watching Justin fuck without being a participant myself.”

“How do you guys do it?”

“What exactly?”

“Have an open relationship without all the jealousy issues? I think that’s part of the reason why Evan requested this of me.”

“Justin allows me to be myself, in whatever capacity that takes. Do I think that monogamy will become a bone of contention someday? Quite possibly, since Justin is a man built for longevity. But right now, he allows me to play without the added pressure of societal norms. And in return, I’ll never have to wonder later on just why he’s still with me. He will have sampled the Smorgasbord of Smut in all its wonders, so that when he’s ready to stop, he won’t feel as if he’s missed out on something in his youth.”

“So you have no fear of him cheating on you?”

“Not physically, since I know he’s fucking other people. It helps that I’m there when he is. But what most people don’t realize is that cheating is mostly emotional. Now, if he should find someone to share himself with in a way he’s only ever done with me, then yes, we would have a problem. But that’s the way the Taylor-Kinney's define infidelity; you and Evan have to do the same by figuring out your dealbreakers.”

We changed the subject after that, since Zack and Sunshine finally arrived for the meeting. I can tell she’s still thinking about it though, just as I am. I told her the truth of the way Justin and I continue to prove the naysayers wrong. Once again, I’m so happy that we are as far as we could possibly be away from Deb, Michael, and Lindsay, who would have probably passed out from hearing me speak about my relationship with Justin that way. But I could give three fucks and Gus’ rubber duck what they think; Jodi needed my honesty, so that’s what I gave her.

The bottom line is that I love Justin Cole Taylor-Kinney, and I don’t give a fuck who knows it. They are just simply going to have to find someone else to fulfill their Peter Pan fantasies. I’ve left Neverland, and as long as I have my blond- my lover and best friend- beside me, I’m not going back. They can stay stuck in their collective delusions if they want to, but I’ll be too busy designing my life with my very own Tinkerbell. So in the words of Queen Emmett- that Southern Belle of the Hazelhurst Honeycutts- FUCK’EM ALL!