Brian Kinney had a terrible childhood and a difficult, lonely life as an adult. Before the age of thirty he's already become so jaded that he doesn't believe in love or even in true happiness. After years of dealing with a dysfunctional family and an uncaring world, it seems like he's just about ready to give up completely. But, the guardian spirit that's been watching over him since Brian was a baby decides to save him, teaching him that true love does exist and that it can even transcend the laws of space and time.
***Thanks for the beautiful Banner to the Incomparable Marny!***
*****STORY IS NOW COMPLETE!*****
Rated: M
Categories: QAF US Characters: Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor
Tags: 100k+ Word Count, Abuse/Child Abuse, Anal Sex (Lots of it!), Underage Sex, Violence
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Pairings: Brian/Justin
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 33 Completed: Yes
Word count: 154729 Read: 109554
ePub Downloads: 62 Published: May 05, 2016 Updated: May 29, 2017
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
1. Prologue. by Tagsit [Reviews - 7] 
(4001 words)
Credit for the original plot device in the Prologue is attributed to Shard's Angel from the story "Angel" posted on Fanfiction.net. However, after the prologue, this story will be completely different than that fic. Thanks to the original author though for the prologue idea. Thanks for reading my stories! Enjoy! TAG
*** Warning - This story deals with child abuse and the descriptions will be pretty graphic. Please don't read if this topic causes you any distress *****
***NOT a Death Fic - Despite how this prologue starts, this really isn't a death fic. But I can't explain why not without giving away plot. You'll just have to trust me on this!***
2. Chapter 1 - Consolation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (3754 words)
*****Here's the first full chapter for you. Hope you enjoy. TAG
3. Chapter 2 - Friendship. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (3630 words)
4. Chapter 3 - Perseverance. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (3381 words)
Justin learns a little about how to be a guardian spirit. Enjoy! TAG
5. Chapter 4 - Melancholy. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (3562 words)
This might be a tear-jerker chapter for many. Major 'Angst' alert, folks. Also, it's heavy on the child-abuse theme so please don't read if this will negatively affect you. If you do choose to read on, I hope you like what I've written - it expands on what may have happened in Brian's past to make him the adult he turns out to be. It isn't pretty. It IS inspired by real life stories, though. And, although the statistics are disputed, many professionals claim that Super Bowl Sunday is the biggest day for domestic abuse hospitalizations in the United States. I sincerely hope this isn't the fact for any of my readers. TAG
6. Chapter 5 - Sentience. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (3617 words)
I'm busy trying to avoid doing my Statistic's homework. Instead, I was able to finish up another chapter for you. However, it's too late to bother to re-edit for typos - sorry, I'll have to get them tomorrow. In the meantime, thought you'd like to have this to read. Enjoy! TAG
*** Major Angst Alert (Very depressing stuff, actually). Also, heavy on the child abuse issues, which might be triggering. Read with care.***
7. Chapter 6 - Distraction. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (3808 words)
*** Warning - underage sex. ****
8. Chapter 7 - Evolution. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (4488 words)
This story is definitely more angsty that the rest of the stuff I've been writing lately, but that goes with the plot. And the good news is that we only have a little bit more of the torturing Brian chapters before I can move on with this story - So, enjoy the angst while you can people! TAG
9. Chapter 8 - Accumulation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (4613 words)
10. Chapter 9 - Disaffection. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (6798 words)
The making of Brian Kinney is almost complete. By this point in my story, almost all pieces of his personal philosophy are in place. Next chapter, he gets to start working on his Pain Management techniques and then . . . finally, maybe, things will start to get a just a tiny bit better. Remember, it's always darkest right before dawn. Enjoy! TAG
11. Chapter 10 - Aftermath. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (4742 words)
First, Justin finally finds a way to help Brian. Then Michael shows just how much he's willing to do to keep his friend safe. Enjoy! TAG
12. Chapter 11 - Celebration. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (4814 words)
So, the good news is that, finally, Brian's gonna get some respect. All you readers who were getting fed up with Brian being Jack's punching bag, will like this chapter. Enjoy! TAG
13. Chapter 12 - Retribution. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (4953 words)
14. Chapter 13 - Maturation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (5514 words)
Guess what? Yep. More conflict and angst! Just what you wanted right? Well, here's how I perceived Brian's 18th birthday to have happened. Enjoy! TAG
15. Chapter 14 - Deconstruction. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (5532 words)
I promise that this is the last chapter of pure Brian torture - After this he just gets to wallow for a bit in his miserableness, but there will be no more overt torture. TAG
***** Warning - Contains scenes detailing sexual assault. *****
16. Chapter 15 - Commendation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (5010 words)
Here's a first for THIS story - a perfectly happy chapter where no actual torture is enacted upon Brian. Enjoy it! I think we all needed it after the last chapter! TAG
17. Chapter 16 - Loneliness. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (5088 words)
Brian gets an inkling of just how lonely this life he's making for himself really is. Despite the fact that his career is taking off, he has no one to share his triumphs with. Or, does he? Enjoy! TAG
18. Chapter 17 - Solecism. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (4632 words)
I think it's about time to return to the angst and drama of our lonely Brian. What do you say? Hope you enjoy! TAG
19. Chapter 18 - Isolation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 0] (3597 words)
Yep . . . More angst! Just what you needed right? Enjoy! TAG
20. Chapter 19 - Disengagement. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (4917 words)
How to torture your story's main character by TAGSIT . . . It goes on. Enjoy! TAG
21. Chapter 20 - Routine. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (3472 words)
The making of Brian Kinney is pretty much complete. By this point we see him at his most 'Brianish'. It's really not a pretty sight. But he's become what his circumstances and his environment made him, for better or worse . . . Enjoy! TAG
22. Chapter 21 - Redemption. by Tagsit [Reviews - 1] (3970 words)
Yay! Finally, this story is moving beyond the torture Brian phase . . . Enjoy! TAG
23. Chapter 22 - Furtherance. by Tagsit [Reviews - 4] (3808 words)
Justin's plan to redeem Brian. (And no angst at all is involoved!) Enjoy! TAG
24. Chapter 23 - Abnegation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 3] (3892 words)
*****There are a lot of roadblocks to Justin's plan to help Brian, including the friends that are supposed to be helping him. So, how do you overcome the not-so-helpful helpers? Justin seeks out a little advice. Enjoy! TAG
25. Chapter 24 - Probity. by Tagsit [Reviews - 5] (4308 words)
Justin's plan to redeem Brian continues but the subject is fighting it all the way. Enjoy! TAG
26. Chapter 25 - Frustration by Tagsit [Reviews - 6] (5684 words)
The WIP that would not end returns . . . LOL.
27. Chapter 26 - Interlude. by Tagsit [Reviews - 5] (4029 words)
Yes! The first chapter in this story yet where no actual torture or any kind happens to Brian. It's a *MUST* read! LOL. Hope you enjoy! TAG
28. Chapter 27 - Capitulation. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (5641 words)
Wherein much plottiness was had by all. Enjoy! TAG
29. Chapter 28 - Conjunction. by Tagsit [Reviews - 3] (6985 words)
For all of you who were wondering when I'd finally get around to some really good sex scenes in this story . . . the time has come! Enjoy! TAG
30. Chapter 29 - Suspension. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (5538 words)
Justin is starting to get a little fed up with his incorporeal state - and who can blame him when Brian's acting like this, right? Enjoy! TAG
31. Chapter 31 - Progenitorship. by Tagsit [Reviews - 3] (5244 words)
Brian contemplates the nature of being a father as he begins to dread the coming birth of his own child. Enjoy! TAG
32. Chapter 32 - Dissolution. by Tagsit [Reviews - 2] (5673 words)
Everything is coming to a head here. Brian is nearing the breaking point. Will he be able to make it through this crisis of conscience with Justin's help? Read and see... Enjoy! TAG
33. Chapter 33 - Resolution. by Tagsit [Reviews - 17] (6034 words)
Here it is, folks, the final chapter of this story but the beginning of an even bigger and better story that was all love. Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me as I struggled to get this one completed. Hope you enjoy it. TAG