Justin has dreams of Christmas

Brian is tired of his long distance relationship with Justin and has decided to do something about it. He heads for New York City and the chance to remedy the situation. Much gratitude to Eka for the beautiful banner and Pat for being my beta.

I heard a new song called 'Black Out the Sun' by Darren Hayes on an LJ QAF fan site and immediately got the image of this all important night when Brian finally said 'I Love You' to Justin for the first time.  I was so inspired I had to re-visit that scene and give my version of Brian's thoughts that fateful evening.  I have filled in a couple of gaps from the show, such as the time between Brian's hearing the radio announcement of the bombing and his arrival at Babylon, and the short period of time when Brian was with Debbie at the hospital chapel and before he came back for Justin.  I hope you will enjoy my interpretation.  I've included the lyrics to the song (which do not belong to me, of course) so that you can understand why it affected me the way it did.  A huge debt of gratitude goes to my beloved Granddaughter for the remarkable banner she made for this story and my wonderful beta, Judy.

It is the last night before Justin moves to New York City.  Brian waits at the loft for Justin's arrival.  As he waits, he thinks back on the last five years of his life and the young man who changed everything for him.  He has special plans for this night.  Will it end the way he hopes for, or will this be another of their foolish separations to deal with?  Another fic inspired by the words of a song.  Many thanks to Judy for her beta skills.  They are invaluable to me.  I owe a great debt to my darling Granddaughter and banner maker, Marika, who is becoming more skilled every day.  I love you both.

Some reflections on the aftermaths of the attack on Justin at the prom.

Justin adjusts to life after the prom, except for some trouble with dreams.

Episode 22 Gap Filler: Justin spends an evening at the loft before prom night.

Episode 17 Gap Filler: Brian struggles to make a decision about Gus.

Justin learns that some things can be seen without the use of his eyes.

Non-con dealing with the emotional aftermath rather than violence.

I can feel him move inside of me. I feel the brush of his fingertips tracing my vein and taking my pulse until it reaches the end of its path. Everything is still beating in a palpable, melodic rhythm. I’m still breathing.

Brian indulges in some late night thinking: He never thought he’d be this calm, relaxed and satisfied at this point of his life, and he wonders what he has achieved so far, what the world one day will remember him by.