Name: Maggiemay13 (Signed) · Date: Aug 24, 2022 6:35 pm · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: IDGAF Part 1

Again, thank you so much for updating. As I have said in the past, you are one of my favorite authors and you have been sorely missed! That being said, this is my favorite fic of yours and I was thrilled to read it. Can't wait to see how Ethan reacts to JUDGE MARCUS lol 

Name: Gcleft77 (Signed) · Date: Aug 23, 2022 2:13 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: IDGAF Part 1

Omg thank you for the update!  I've missed this story. Can't wait to find out what happens next. 

Name: sophiesmom (Signed) · Date: Aug 20, 2022 3:04 pm · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: IDGAF Part 1

OOO. How well Melanie knows Michael. And Ethan getting the boot off the island. can't wait.

Name: BlueMyst (Signed) · Date: Aug 19, 2022 6:48 pm · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: IDGAF Part 1

Melanie accurately describes her relationship with Lindsay whatever love they shared wasn't enough to change how really opposite they were in everything.

Debbie and Michael showed each other how to act and react around others which is why they were able to manipulate Brian, Ted and Emmett for so long.

The counseling taking place and each couple facing the truths they avoided or kept hidden is good they when there are no more secrets then past hurts can't be used to control them anymore.

Thanks for the Update????

Name: sfscarlet (Signed) · Date: Jan 12, 2021 3:58 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: ANY LOVE

Another great update.  This story has so many twists and turns, I can't imagine what white board you use to keep it all straight.  It is an amzing tale of intrigue, plotting and drama.  I'm so glad that Emmett and Drew have figured things out and now they are healing.

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 2:52 pm · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: ANY LOVE

This is working out to not only fix our boys but their therapist as well.  Great job.

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 2:39 pm · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: I TURN TO YOU

What a wonderful chapter.  You manage to put all the angst that Emmett is going through in this one, plus let Drew get through to him that he's there for the long haul.  I do so enjoy seeing more on this story and really need to read it all from the beginning.  Here's hoping Michael gets his comeupance.

Name: Frosty70 (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 7:05 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: ANY LOVE
So heartwarming that Drew is backing Em up in the telling of his abusive past.

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 6:54 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Love this chapter all about Carl.  He's an alright guy, shame he fell for Deb.

Name: Frosty70 (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 6:54 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: I TURN TO YOU
Sooooo glad to see you posting. You are a phenomenal writer.. looking forward to your life settling down so you can write more. >> Cat

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 6:29 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 8: I GOTTA BE

Shame that Drew couldn't tell all that to Emmett.  It could make a difference.  

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 5:44 am · Chapter: THE WIFE OR THE MISTRESS: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: BROKEN CHANDELIERS Part 3

Bernard has helped both Ted and Blake in more ways than he knows.

Name: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 4:59 am · Chapter: THE WIFE OR THE MISTRESS: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9- BROKEN CHANDELIERS Part 2

Really it was Michael who pointed out, wrongly, that Ted was boring and reliable. It all comes back to Michael.

Name: BlueMyst (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 4:24 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 10: ANY LOVE

Emmett laid himself bare and Drew didn't run screaming which means they are going to be okay today and tomorrow they will be Great.

Michael was always good at using information against others to manipulate, hurt and keep them close, another bad habit he picked up from Deb that had Vic eventually turning against her.

Weak people use others strength to weaken them so they can feel superior and that need is what will eventually destroy them.

Getting every dirty secret out brings more light into the darkness they fell into and destroys the pain they were afraid of.

Michael always assumed Emmett, Blake and Justin were weaker than him but in actuality they always were strong enough to put him in his place first individually and then together, with their partners and friends they are indestructible which Michael will hate because he is losing what little power he has faster than he realizes and so is Deb.


Name: BlueMyst (Signed) · Date: Jan 08, 2021 4:14 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: I TURN TO YOU

Happy New Year🎉

Emmett needs to face his past to embrace the present and enjoy the future with Drew who loves him flaws and all just the way Emmett loves him.

Thanks For the Update😀

Name: Glo (Signed) · Date: Nov 11, 2020 9:11 pm · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Wow! Poor Carl but clearly he's too good for Deb and I can't wait to see Michael behind bars for all he's done! 

I've missed your writing hun! xo

Name: Glo (Signed) · Date: Nov 11, 2020 8:47 pm · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 8: I GOTTA BE

Hey, babe, I'm back to reading QAF fanfic. I've been MIA for quite awhile and this is one of my favs so here I am. In all honestly, I've truly forgotten where I left off & it seems like I've definitely missed something. Michael has done something that affected Emmett so much, he's been in the red chair for awhile. I'm gonna have to go back & look. Can you tell me which chapter has Michael being an asshole, again? lol 

This was sweet. I love Drew! And he loves Em so much, I hope that's Em at the door! 

Name: sfscarlet (Signed) · Date: Nov 11, 2020 3:42 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Another great update.  Hope your move goes smoothly.  I really do love the intrigue and depth of this story.  

Name: marie-france (Signed) · Date: Nov 07, 2020 9:39 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Thanks for the quick update. Hope everything went well for you

How Michael couldn't be guilty of what he's doing He's scheming with drug dealers to hurt Blake and Justin. And that excruciating letter he managed to send to Brian. He deserves to be punished and Deb is going to find herself alone because Carl is going to get away from her. Her kingdom will fall apart when she can no longer manipulate anyone and that is soon.

I can't wait to see how everyone is going to treat Michael when he is confronted with his malicious acts.

Name: Riaaaaa (Signed) · Date: Nov 07, 2020 5:06 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Loving this, can't wait for the  rest

Name: The SNO (Signed) · Date: Nov 06, 2020 8:16 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Thank you for the quick update!

Some people are so devious it's appalling. Deb is going to live some tough time and I'm not sure she won't side with his son, once again.

Name: BritinManor (Signed) · Date: Nov 06, 2020 4:28 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Man, I don't even know where to start! Can I hop a plane to Seascape, too? I'd love to get in on the action.

I THOUGHT this story was set a few years post 513 - Am I wrong? Because if so, Michael would be older than 35. (And it could be JT2U I'm thinking of regarding years after 513.) I know it's not a major thing - but it just struck me funny at the '35'. But maybe I'm just having one of my 'old age' moments. But then it was mentioned that Hunter was older now too. (Confused!)

I'm also confused how Carl thinks Michael would be moving into Debbie's. Won't he be in PRISON??? He darn well SHOULD be! That's if he's not beaten, castrated, and drowned before ever getting off the island.

Now if Tino or Darius called Michael's phone directly while he was on the island, wouldn't his phone show the incoming call? Thus they would have 'evidence' Michael really was involved with them, and lend a little more credence than 'hearsay'.

Melanie and Diane are on their way to the island, and they are going to play that recording to the guys? I hope they have a team of 500 pound men holding those boys back, but even if they do, I think even little Teddy would get past one in order to kill Michael.

And if the authorities don't want any harm coming to Michael -they better have him on a plane BEFORE they let the guys hear the recording!

Thank you so much for giving us another chapter so soon!

HUGS  ~Cathy

Author's Response:


Hey Darling! A couple of things:

First, the setting of this is definitely post 513, BUT I also had to move some timelines to fit the story. Considering that I started this 3 years ago (?), I kinda have to keep a lot of it in that vein in order for the story to remain authentic. Also, alot of the plotlines from the canon itself, I moved up a bit simply because Lindz isn't really featured here; the Ethan arc really shouldn't have lasted more than a month in my mind, and Deb was trying to get a life sooner than she did in canon. If taken that way, basically Mel and Lindz moved to Canada at the beginning of S2, Stockwell happened at the end of S2, as did Ted's addiction, and Dummy met Ben a little earlier. Also the L.A. trip and all Rage-related storylines also happened earlier than in canon. Since there is no Gus or Lindz, the narrative/timeline had to change. That said, I do need to go back and look at the ages again, as if I'm not mistaken all of them are closer to forty now. But yeah, I have to make sure because that's somewhere in the beginning of the story.

The most important thing to remember is:

B/J have been together for almost twelve years, and have been in partnership for almost nine (post Ethan and Stockwell; LDP signed), but the family really only thinks that they have been 'serious' for three years when in actuality, they have been married longer than Michael and Ben. Remember now that they were literally keeping everything on the down low in anticipation of how Michael would react. And sadly, they were proven RIGHT!

Ben and Michael have been involved for eight years, although married about seven. Therefore Justin was bouncing between both in L.A., and NY during the first two years of Michael and Ben's union working on the movie, then Kinnetik and JTD business interests. It made it easier to keep 'the family' out of B/J business.

Ted and Blake have officially been married for five- almost six- years, at this point. Teddy's first foray into the drug scene happened as it did in canon during the Stockwell Era, only earlier due to the timeline for the story being moved up a bit.

Em and Drew have been together officially for about four years, since they spent about six months to a year just being friends, before making things official between them.


Okay I think I have all of that right, so I'll move on... 


Secondly, as for Michael going to jail... that remains to be seen. Not because I don't want him there- I mean, come on now this is ME LOL- but mainly because until it's actually proven, or they find people (ie. Reece), who were either involved or heard the conversation, it's basically going to be their words against Michael's. Think about the character, Michael as a whole. First and foremost, even if he was guilty, for some reason, people were often hardpressed to believe it. So unfortunately, the same thing has to ring true here, as well. Now we as the audience knows that he's guilty, in my world he always is.


But, just as in real life, a sequence of events has to happen to prove that guilt. For example, I could call someone an evil whore, while from your perspective that same person could be sweet and kind. The only way you would see it from my POV is if I showed you the proof that such-and-such is a bonfide hosebeast. Get it? LOL Yeah, girl you can tell I'm a bit sleep-deprived.. I mean, I actually used the term Hosebeast, in a sentence within its proper context at 1:15 a.m.  LAWD HAM TURKEY, I need more coffee, or to just drop where I stand because sleep is definitely NOT coming easily.

The signing is supposed to happen later today, and believe it or not ALL OF US are still awake. Talk about collective anxiety and exhibiting signs of PTSD... Just saying Anyway, enough about my RL drama...

But back to Michael, that's why he can't automatically go to jail at the moment. In addition to that, they have to have at least a modicum of probable cause in order to access Michael's phone records, or at the very least record him admitting to the misdeed. We'll have to see how this situation plays out. So yes, Carl is correct in his thinking at the moment, because without the actual proof or physical innuendo of conspiracy, the law technically can't do anything to Michael at the moment. You know I try to craft a story as true to life as possible, taking creative license only here and there to bring the story together.


So unfortunately, although Steven King is yelling in my head to kill this 'darling' (read as pain in the ass), I can't... yet (?) LOL


The good news is that Melanie and Diane are going to the island, so a couple of things that have been mentioned in previous chapters have a good possibility of occurring now. However, the first order of business for Melanie as one of the founders of the resort is to take care of certain employees misdeeds, who succumbed to Michael's urgings. That should be very interesting. 

I hope this moved your confusion (you're not going to let me live that down, are you? LOL) into clarity! 




Name: BlueMyst (Signed) · Date: Nov 06, 2020 3:52 am · Chapter: BEFORE I LET GO: BOOK II: CHAPTER 9: MO’ MONEY, MO’ PROBLEMS

Tino and Darius being out of Michael's reach will give Blake some breathing room and time to figure what to do next once he deals with what they had planned for him and Diane.

Carl instincts are telling him to get far away from Deb and he should listen because Deb is not going to change if it means that Michael will be left behind with her.

In a way Carl is right in his thinking about Deb she sees Michael as her sudoku is band, son and Pampered Prince who the gang should take care of why she basks in things they must continuously give to Michael.

She sees Michael as her King as well because he brought such loyal subjects into their kingdom for her to help rule over and punish when they make her Pampered Prince unhappy.

Only what is coming for Michael and Deb once these men have dealt with everything will have them wishing for guillotine, because not only will they metaphorically be cutting off their heads but they will be taking back the power they gave them to the point where they won't even have the crumbs.

Michael and Deb ripped chunks of flesh out of Brian, Justin, Ted, Blake, Emmett, Drew and Ben for years now they are going to enjoy ripping with their bare hands strips out of them.

I wonder and hope that Hunter is somewhere safe and that Michael and Deb don't know about he will need to have his moment too with Rita Montgomery and them.

Thanks for the Update😀

Name: BritinManor (Signed) · Date: Nov 04, 2020 6:54 pm · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 8: I GOTTA BE

I just wanted to give the heads up in case anyone thought I was confused about where I left off.

This had me LOL - What? Nichelle confused???? How could she possibly be confused? She doesn't have anything ELSE going on in her life - RIGHT??? LOL

Sorry, I don't mean to make fun, but when I read that in your notes, it was the first thing I thought of, and I just couldn't let it pass.

This chapter was good. A lot of deep introspection on Drew's part. And good of him to fully understand his feelings now.

I feel so bad for Emmett. I can only imagine the turmoil of emotions roiling through him. Will he still love me? at the forefront. Not to mention his embarrassment at everyone finding out his past and in such the manner they did.

I love the idea of Brian calling Carl and getting everything moving, but I still think they should put Michael in the little boat filled with huge boulders and push him out in the ocean. They COULD call it suicide... he couldn't live with himself after he lost Rage and all his friends.

I ALMOST put a shout-out to you a could of days ago saying I was going into withdrawals and needed some JT2U or BIFG, and then here it is. Kismet? I must have thought so hard, it happened. Like it was meant to be.

Good to see you back.

HUGS  ~Cathy

Name: marie-france (Signed) · Date: Nov 04, 2020 8:49 am · Chapter: FIRE AND ICE: BOOK II: CHAPTER 8: I GOTTA BE

It's so good to find this story again and with such a beautiful declaration of love. I can't wait to read what they have planned to kill Michael! Good luck with all the change you have. Stay safe.

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