Until At Last You Know by PrettyTheWorld
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Unsettling news takes Brian on an emotional journey -- with his husband, his family, and his own peace of mind.
Categories: QAF US
Characters: Brian Kinney
, Claire Kinney
, Jennifer Taylor
, Joan Kinney
, Justin Taylor
, Michael Novotny
, Original Character
Tags: 10k+ Word Count
, Real Life Issues
, Vulnerable BrianGenres: Angst
, Could be Canon
, Hurt/ComfortPairings: Brian/JustinChallenges:
M • 3 Reviews
â€œIâ€™m sorry,â€ Brian repeated, his tone serious and deliberate. â€œFor a lot of things over the last two days. Iâ€¦ I didnâ€™t know what to do with what happened before I left Pittsburgh, and I wasnâ€™t ready to talk.â€ He paused, sighing. â€œAnd I donâ€™t know how to lie to you. I havenâ€™t for a long time, and you know that. So sometimes, itâ€™s easier to piss you off, so youâ€™ll leave me alone until I find enough of my remaining ball to face you -- as irrational as I know that sounds.â€
â€œOr,â€ Justin said, a small smile playing on his lips, â€œyou could say, â€˜Hey Justin, Iâ€™ve got something on my mind that Iâ€™m not ready to talk about, and I need a little space.â€™â€ He gave his husband a meaningful look before continuing. â€œBrian, I know what youâ€™re doing when you do it nowâ€¦ But what I donâ€™t understand is why, almost two decades into our relationship, you still think the solution to anything
is to push me away -- if for no reason other than it wonâ€™t fucking work
Brian gets some unexpected and difficult news and turns to his usual coping strategies. Justin knows better.
M • 4 Reviews
Brian contemplated what he wanted to say next; how personal he wanted to get. He still wasnâ€™t sure whether or not Joan would hear a word of what he said -- she hadnâ€™t reacted to anything thus far -- so maybe it was better to lay it all on the line. His lifelong mantra creeped back into his brain, and he scooted his chair a little closer to the bed. No apologies, no regrets.
Against his original plans (and, perhaps, better judgment), Brian makes his way back to Pittsburgh to see his mother one final time.
M • 5 Reviews
â€œCan you really think of a reason that Peter would suddenly turn on how he feels about you?â€ Justin asked, trying to begin the conversation pragmatically. â€œHe knows how your sister is, and she knows, at least to some extent, that the two of you are acquainted now. Donâ€™t you think sheâ€™d have tried every weapon she had if she was running a smear campaign against you?â€
â€œI donâ€™t know,â€ Brian said tiredly, rubbing his eyes. â€œI wouldnâ€™t put anything past her.â€
When Brian's nephew Peter and his girlfriend Alexis come to spend Christmas in New York, things are off to a great start -- until they're not. Soon, it becomes apparent to everyone that old Kinney family scars run deep.